The question why?

My dear cousin...
I turned on the news today.
What I saw blinded me of all sight.
My stomach tight as a glove.
Hope is a distraction...
It hurts more to hope and sometimes it hurts more to care.
I saw a bullet go threw you.
My dark tears falling from my face.
Why does everyone around me die?
My grandma, my pet bird, my aunt, both of my grandpas. Please not you too!
My heart sank and a bullet went threw my chest as we'll.
I thought I was stronger..
But your death took the little hope I had in me out.
Abandon all hope is what I hear.
My arms weren't strong enough to hold onto you my dear cousin.
We'll.. They weren't strong enough before...
But now I have found a new love and this time I'm never letting go.