I'm Scared

I am happy for a minute
Then I am depressed
Then I turn to cutting
Then smoking
Then drinking
Then burning
Then the long sleeves come out
In the middle of summer

The cutting becomes
A nightly thing
The smoking becomes
Addicting
The drinking becomes
A habit
The burning becomes
Harder to handle
The long sleeves become
Extremely hot

I'm scared someone will
See me cutting,
Drinking, smoking,
Or burning myself

I'm scared someone will
See my scars, or
Burns

I'm scared that
I will never ever
Get better...

I'm scared..