Unfit mother

Before you read . Ive been told i have postnatal depression which im not sure why i have . But i just wanted to release something out

Soft movements
Little cries
Every 3 to four hours
Light on
Jump out
Run down stairs
Boil water
4 level scoops not 5
Few minutes to cool
Steriliser on


Screeching piercing cries
Shes getting murdered
Run
Fast
Quick
Careful not to trip
" terrible  mother  "

She lays there hopeless
Red cheeks
Puffy face
Tears streaming down
Pick her up
Bib on
bottle in her mouth


Fed
Nappy changed
Cuddled
Soundly asleep

Head begins
Didn't burp enough
 Babys clothes need to be washed
Untidy cluttered mess
Not bonding
Too Smothering
Am i loving her enough?

Mummy groups
Mummy talks
Mummy hair
Mummy must behave a certain way



Not good enough
Shut up smile
Dont show  your  depressed
Keep it suppressed


Cant express
Wasn't enough
Bad mother
Breast is best

Lost
Confused
Robot on demand
Exhausted
Maybe ill sow another hand  
Shut up and smile
Pretend your  glowing
Keep them far away from the truth
 
" be great full a blessing has come you way others try try and never get there bundle of joy "

3 and half hours later
Cries begin

Run!
Quick!
Faster!
Faster

They'll   Think your an unfit mother