Collections VOL. II / PRIMAL SCREAM

Primal scream


Primal Scream,,, I know it well,
every mornin during the time of the rising sun
Comes the calling of the church an the great black iron bell,
half asleep before thoughts wake my mind,
I feel the light shine down
and a more innocent me is there still at the edge of my world;
In bewilderment, Living, feeling,
kneeling I pray, before the temple of my king;
Father, help me
give me strength and reason to get out of bed
please let not my thoughts betray me
oh how the life gathers doom,
Heaven help me, shine down one more peaceful day,
and the will to do what is right from within,
the will to do the will of the father,,,

~~~Meanwhile ~~~
One day in the year of this child:
How the day it carries on,
there at the center of the world is a secret sound
and a thousand whispers fill the soul,
Heaven, Help me, I don’t know which is me,
or that which comes from the temple of my king,
an anger rises an a darkness grows,
the feelings that are within now control and fill my mind,
Oh, bless my soul,
the mind aches and the spirit weeps,
Obsessively Controlled by numbers an practices that too me make no sense,
Reread that line again, tighten the bolt again, say this again
again, again again AGAIN AGAIN Again AGAIN…
again Muther Fucker… AGAIN Worm… AGAIN, AGAIN AGAINS
do whatever the feelings and whispers say,
Work now suffers an schools fried the brain, the bodies old and sore,
God I need a drink, and I will… Drink, an drink some more
Looking down I now see my hands,
and the massive power that lies therein,
Closing my hand, I make a fist
And feel the power and glory that now flows within
So now in darkness there is a peace,
A freedom of not caring…

~~~Meanwhile~~~
One day in the year of a child;
As the evening wore on
I had once earlier taken to religion,
Then abandoned that for a pure blind faith as a child does,
Then the night comes on,
it comes to me very calm,
dark as a childs nightmare, whisperin words like a song
there doesn’t have to be no more trouble and strife,
feel the night come on,
there can be peace by the early dawn,
no more worries in this life
not like you had before we met
all you have to do is bow down to me,
say all your prayers to me,
see how stars and signs all bear my seal…
~~~ ~~~ ~~~
Why is twice in one day I find myself in a bewilderment
I feel closest to the creator, when there is suffering agony and tormented pain
when it feels that I am doin both heaven and hells will
“MY Own WAY,,, MY Own STYLE”  The POWER, To render judgment upon another,
to be jury an Executioner, is to feel to fly high close to the sun and not to burn or burn up,
But to Burn, Yes, yes, to burn with raging fires flowing from within,  I; I am… a GOD… amongst they who crawl an doth walketh the earth… Storm Bringers comin, time to die…
It really is the Thrill of the chase, that is so sweet,
Though the kill is oh so satisfying, it helps keep me young,
That is the point of no return,
No heart of gold gonna save a bitches soul,
From travelin down hells highway,
No matter HOW Neurotic the insanity that dwells within,
Oh, I feel a smile from within


Nothin There
Block the sun turn off your light,
No ones here to burden you
Everything becomes old and fades away,
Tis but o feather in the wind,  
everything turns dead inside
There is nothing new under the sun
as all things must pass
there is no I, I am no longer here
All that’s left is me
I me mine, she is mine, an all o my love to mine Darlin her
Little bit Lonely
Where does me end an it begin
Nothing there that me can see
Nothing there staring back at me



I was
Once I was, I was once I,
Now I don’t exist, there is only me
Friends run from me
Family Despising what I become;
Insides decaying more each day
Mind is gone, forgetin the day
My Love, Mí Vída, Amor
Shake your head, laugh
Pleadin in vain cause you know
I wanna die young,
Wasn’t it fun Destroying everything we begun,
Is fun watching me Destroy everything
I once Loved.
The insides can ache, an the mind can break
Could we, I have done more
Drinkin in the day, wonderin
tryin to remember where it all changed
Madness an Brilliance, go hand in had
Did they leave when our mind snapped,  
did our mind snap when they all left,
Aint it fun when your mind can’t Remember where it all begun
Losing will to live, with nothing more to give
When will death set us, me free
Long shadows of things that used to be,
Haunting us with each Hallow heart beat
Once there was a way,
Once maybe long ago we knew it
In the days of youth an hope
Words you said now fill my head
Now all me can feel is alone even when you’re there
Once I was, I was once I,
Now I don’t exist, there is only me

LOVE you with all of my HEART, ALL of my MIND an FEARS
~ Love you with all of my Heart, mind an Fear ~
Gettin too hard to think
ALL that I can FEEL, ALL that I can THINK,
I want ALL of your attention,
Give me what I want Darlin
I DON’T want to Share you with anyone;
Freezin Feelin when you gone away Even for a minute;
FEELS Like that am buried an cant Breath

`~Time Passes by… and keeps on passing~`
A short time later, a drink an time to think
In Retrospect, My Sweetest Dear
As time permits, I would really like to have you near me more often
Though work an life makes it harder for extra time
I believe it to be possible to schedule extra time for each other

`~Time passes on… an keeps on Passing~`
Within the power of feeling at the Speed of thought
Dwells Paranoia, Neurotic, Insanity, an happy funny Personalities thriving off of our memories an fears of days of future past and present...

Sweet Darlin o Mine, Need you by me to survive
Everything is white, everything is grey, Black is the color that surrounds me
Feels like Razors tearin me up / There is nothing cutting me I can see
but just emotions … Were drownin in fear an self loathin, afraid you are leavin;
You with me all the time in my heart / Im Always alone;
A hot Burnin Continuous Love I have for you /
When you’re gone its Freezin rain
Fills me an makes it feel powerful an real;
I didn’t want this / I wanted all of it;
Should have been easier to think with fear, you an me
Sincerely your Loving man, /
LOVE you with ALL of my Hearts /
That’s just fine, Lovin you is just one of our names,
Love you, Need you, Want you, Crazy with you, Crazy without you

The Former Life
Will add the chords later when findin the times... a thank you ... ;)
~~~Sung Blues / Folk ~~~
One day in the year of the world,
I was so young, I still had my innocence and dreams,
Its been so long, I feel that it was someone else,
Being trapped here within these four walls of broken dreams,
I learned the price when deaths your only escape
And though their gone, man I feel so all alone, her death it felt like such a waste, I think their deaths must be slowly killin me,
I’ve grown cold, drinkin for this lonely broken heart disease, cause Lord it’s the only way, that lets me hang on, through all these funerals at dawn, an a semi teary eye disgrace among the lost an lonely cemetery trees,
Its been so long, at least half my life, the beast that now lies within, Lord knows it give me something new to fear
God please don’t let me lose my nerve,,, It creeps out from underneath my bed,,, it whispers in my ear,

~~~ Sung Harder / Metal~~~

Abandon, all hope who enter in, Whisky n’ women await, enter the gates,
All that enter here, Turn off the lights, there is nothing new under the sun,
All things of the former life are now left behind,
All your doubts, all your fears, let them disappear, in the air of fireballs from the demons breath
Sing n’ howl, over an over, in the pale moonlight with beautiful strangers
No, I don’t know how you can stand it;
No…no,,, oh no, no, no, no, don’t you hold in your aggravations, RrrAWRRR
~~~Sung slower~~~
An In my darkest hour, something special healed upon my mind, Eddie my son, how could you have, misplaced you,
So many tears you wasted,,, so many years you were searchin, Oh how you,,, lost you…
Míjo, let your light shine, My son, let your light shine
You still have a purpose to serve; You know you have nothing to fear;
Oh how I Love you, go now, see you, an be you,

~~~   ~~~   ~~~

Epilog:
Though a Man

Though I am a Man,
Yes; sometimes I do get little nervous, an scared,
A bit unsure bout myself and things,
When I was younger, I was stronger, So much stronger;
I didn’t get so confused
I was sure, always had an answer
I always knew what to do, what to think,
What to say an not to say,,
I was quick, fast, strong, and enduring,
Life hadn’t beaten me down yet,
I was… Fearless,
But now, now I need help, and comfort,
My innocence was lost, an my faith in fellow man,
Like being stranded without Love,
And the inner light, that once used to shine so bright,
For myself, and for others,
Is now a Dark, unforgiving, bitter, resentful force;
Wounded in Love and now wounded in hate,
There is no time to think, as I slowly sink;

Lovers and friends, once thought of as closer than me,
Now vanished with sorrow,
Not even sure I really exist anymore,
My Judges they become
In humility, they curse me, silently torching me,
Bitter and scorned, left bloodied in the mud,
Fighting to stay safe and warm
I need shelter from my storms