Gray Lies

Un-peacefully alone in my thoughts, my heart a quiet space
My own breath, the only sound; a not so calm and steady pace
Acting as gates to another time and place
The feelings and emotions that overwhelm and embrace
Dust laden artifacts clutter the room
No desire to clean, for removing them; would be my doom
Sitting upon shelves and cabinets to serve as proof of by gone days
When the sun shone brightly, warming me with its rays
Dried flowers-sent to my office for birthday surprise
Empty bottle of cologne-your scent on my pillow as I used to rise
Worn gray jacket carelessly thrown over chair-given for me to wear
Old coaster from Freebird’s-the Challenge accepted (I sooo won that Dare)
Ticket stub from movie date-Rock of Ages, your “go to” memory
Heart-shaped glass keepsake-four hour road trip to see me
Framed photo of your mother-you wished from heaven for her to guard me
Folded drawing of Celtic Love Knot-tattooed wedding band it was to be
The luster now lost from sparkling eyes, my smile has faded
Knowing now, that half of what you gave was jaded
Gray lies, secrecy, mistrust and isolation
In the end, our relationship realization
I’m not certain you ever fully loved and cared
But I know my heart and soul; for you, was bared
I keep these mementos out, painfully plain to see
As a testament of what love should and should not be….