Disguises of Misery

Another sad day with another sad thought,
Guess that explains why I'm this distraught.
With more time to kill than I'd like to admitt,
I'm all alone in life and don't understand it.

Sometimes when the pain comes it blazes,
I hide deep inside myself lost within mazes.
Thoughts so painful that they twist and turn,
Inside i scream as I let the memories burn.

Nobody seems to understand my life ordeals,
They say they do but can't tell me how it feels.
I hide behind a facade out of fear and anger,
Towards myself for all the good once wagered.

At times when the pain goes away or goes numb,
I come out of my shell out of spite and to succumb.
I may smile or laugh it up but inside its still the same,
Disguises of misery are the masks that hide my pain.