Loneliness

feeling so lonely in this judgemental world
truth must be hidden, lies must be told
being yelled at for trying my best
wondering if i should just give it a rest
will never live up to what they want anyways
maybe i should just leave and go my own way
blade draws feelings of sorrow on my wrists
i imagine it feels like a sweet loving kiss
blood oozes out and falls to the floor
i imagine i'm dead and feel pain no more
feeling so peaceful but...something is wrong
something or someone for whom i long
to have in my arms to hug and to kiss
and i realize that it is he who i miss