Patiently Waiting

I don't know what to say
Even more, I don't know what to pray
I want to be angry at God
I don't want to admit to being just that-Just a bit
If I do, will He deny this job I seek,
that I've felt was just for me?
I know He closes doors that are the wrong ones to open,
and He opens those He knows is the better one to travel
That knowledge doesn't ease the pain,
This pain will be fleeting as soon as we see
Exactly where He'll lead
Guilt will overcome then for unbelieving
Shame for lack of Faith and Trust
But, is it lack of that, when I trust He's got something better?
Because I don't want to wait any longer
Haven't we paid our dues?
I shouldn't say we've been patient enough,
when He is most patient with us


*Unfinished but became stuck