1st class rape

I'm sat here wondering why you picked me,
And the reason you did it I just fail to see,
Your old and frail just a poor old man,
Askin me to walk u rite home yes I can,
Just trotting away happy without a clue,
Just helping an old man and that was you,
I really am dumb jeez how stupid am I,
I went in your home barely questioning why,
I took the seat offered to fix your tv and go,
This poorly judged man drugged me and I didn't even know,
I'm awoken from sleep by my self I'm in fear,
I'm shaky and brurred like I'm wrecked of the beer,
The day passes bye and I'm just not me, I wish some ones help I want them inside to see,
I don't have no questions what happened there that day,
I woke with no bottoms I need this all to go away,
I goto hide it I will not be called names,
Just shows how messed I am withh everyones lying little games,
I need to break let out tears I'm not strong,
Inside its just killing me why do I feel in the wrong,
I chose to be alone hide things so alone I cry,
Then there's no one to give an answer and no one to ask me why,
I no if I hide it long enough it will go and I can't wait,
But the decision that led that man rule my head I fucking hate.....