Screams

As I cut, I cry. I feel pain. Pain I wish to kill me. My thoughts, they scream at me, scream at me to kill, to kill my body in a beautiful bloody death, to end the forever endless pain. My thoughts scream at me, scream at me to kill, to kill them all, to end their pain and torture, their pain and suffering. I scream out of confusion. the screaming in my mind. So loud! So insane! The screaming thoughts....... they start to blur together...... start to fade away..... I try to think of what is happening to me. I look around to see what is happening...... I look down and understand its all fading away..... I am fading away. My beautiful bloody death is so insanely calm and fast.