Scared Heart

It's like I've forgotten what to do again
This tightening anxious feeling in my stomach
Just because I want to see you again
I've wanted to kiss you but I don't know why I can't
Maybe I'm scared again,yet you seem like the person
Who could hold me up after so long of fighting
Fighting not to be down anymore
Trying to change my unhealthy ways
I know you don't understand right now
But I'll find a way to tell you
I'll find a way to tell you it all
I'm just afraid you'll give up on me
Before I get a chance to say it
I want to experience the sun and hills
The freedom of the world, with you
I was trying my hardest to put myself back on my feet
and I met you along the way, you're where I want to be
You inspire me to try harder even if you don't know
To fly higher and keep reaching for what I want
I don't know why I'm unable to pull myself together around you
You seem different from everyone else I've met
I just wish I knew if you felt the same in any way
I feel really happy just seeing you
I hope you do too