Time

Am I feeling better??
How could I feel better
when nothing has changed?
everything is still the same
the tears
the pain
the building rage.
the struggle
the fight
the sleepless nights
the painful thoughts in my mind
do I seem better to you?

How am I?
How should I be?
when you say
you need me
completely contradicting
everything
you said to me.
that you would
never be okay
and you don't
have the strenght
to deal with me this way
so you tell me
how am I

what am I going to do?
you put the
decision on me
so you can
keep your hands clean
and remain guilt free
and everyone can think
that I'm the selfish one


You make up
your mind
and decide
that you need some time
and I look like the bad guy
so I don't know
what to do!