Submissions by mel44
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write as an outlet to make sense of my world and experiences. My purpose of sharing my words with others is in the hope that readers may identify with them insofar as what it means for them.
Who Will Be Gone
You fled by the time I was four
How could I have known
The affect it would assure
Now that I am grown
Not alone in your leaving
Quite a tidy sum more
Who came and left me grieving
Like a tide upon the shore
My heart exposed, on a sleeve
I always allow them to enter
Advantage lost and seeming naïve
Yet craving new adventure
With my raw and vulnerable soul
Naked, bare and unprotected
I offer up complete control
Until abandoned as expected
...
How could I have known
The affect it would assure
Now that I am grown
Not alone in your leaving
Quite a tidy sum more
Who came and left me grieving
Like a tide upon the shore
My heart exposed, on a sleeve
I always allow them to enter
Advantage lost and seeming naïve
Yet craving new adventure
With my raw and vulnerable soul
Naked, bare and unprotected
I offer up complete control
Until abandoned as expected
...
672 reads
5 Comments
Mysterious Ways
God works mystery through you
Aware when on your knees
Accesses something deep within
Shines a path when you seize
Forgotten grace from the past
You are reminded of your worth
Carries when it’s hard to bear
Clarifies your place on earth
Former students at your gate
Proving differences made
Reveals your mother at your door
Advising, life is not laid
Repairs the strength of family
Reinforced, sturdy again
Marks gratitude for...
Aware when on your knees
Accesses something deep within
Shines a path when you seize
Forgotten grace from the past
You are reminded of your worth
Carries when it’s hard to bear
Clarifies your place on earth
Former students at your gate
Proving differences made
Reveals your mother at your door
Advising, life is not laid
Repairs the strength of family
Reinforced, sturdy again
Marks gratitude for...
722 reads
8 Comments
A Cycle of Bipolarity
Hypomanic, leave me here please
Ample energy yet mind at ease
Focused, prepared, accomplishing much
Spirit elevated, an angel’s touch
Content, grateful, my source of subsistence
Enlivened swell, a vivid existence
Confident persona, creative and strong
Mania attacks, the world spinning wrong
Vision blurry, racing thoughts in my head
No stopping now, a bull seeing red
Insomnia sets in, two hours no more
Cause to continue, with vigour I soar
Disturbed obsession, unreasonable craze
Delusions of grandeur, life...
Ample energy yet mind at ease
Focused, prepared, accomplishing much
Spirit elevated, an angel’s touch
Content, grateful, my source of subsistence
Enlivened swell, a vivid existence
Confident persona, creative and strong
Mania attacks, the world spinning wrong
Vision blurry, racing thoughts in my head
No stopping now, a bull seeing red
Insomnia sets in, two hours no more
Cause to continue, with vigour I soar
Disturbed obsession, unreasonable craze
Delusions of grandeur, life...
685 reads
7 Comments
Revival
A hole in me, deep and vast
Now broken and alone
Aching, raw and exposed
Trust, I cannot condone
I feel I am but nothing
Hollow spirit turned black
Blind, afraid and beaten
How am I to come back?
Now broken and alone
Aching, raw and exposed
Trust, I cannot condone
I feel I am but nothing
Hollow spirit turned black
Blind, afraid and beaten
How am I to come back?
750 reads
8 Comments
Escape
Longing for freedom
Dark existence
Prison of fear
Hope's resistance
Longing for occasion
Conquer things past
Release of suffering
So long it must last
Escape the loathsome
Dissolve the scars
Elude the torment
And all that mars
Find deliverance
From that which tames
Ease all the pain
Until none remains
Avoid the betrayal
Contempt for life
Find a peace
Not plagued by strife
Expose the demons
Eliminate their taunts
Cut to escape
All that haunts ...
Dark existence
Prison of fear
Hope's resistance
Longing for occasion
Conquer things past
Release of suffering
So long it must last
Escape the loathsome
Dissolve the scars
Elude the torment
And all that mars
Find deliverance
From that which tames
Ease all the pain
Until none remains
Avoid the betrayal
Contempt for life
Find a peace
Not plagued by strife
Expose the demons
Eliminate their taunts
Cut to escape
All that haunts ...
689 reads
4 Comments
Cognizance
Intuitively known, the process involved.
Progression of shame, illness evolved.
Empirical cognition, numbed yet raw.
Persistently engaged, an incessant brawl.
Brutal and cruel, the enemy me.
Hostile in darkness, a constant melee.
Determined combat, futile skirmish.
Exhausted and drained, ceaseless anguish.
Madness leading to unease?
Or the drink, feeding disease?
Certainty exists, placed in between.
Embraces a solution, not previously seen.
Progression of shame, illness evolved.
Empirical cognition, numbed yet raw.
Persistently engaged, an incessant brawl.
Brutal and cruel, the enemy me.
Hostile in darkness, a constant melee.
Determined combat, futile skirmish.
Exhausted and drained, ceaseless anguish.
Madness leading to unease?
Or the drink, feeding disease?
Certainty exists, placed in between.
Embraces a solution, not previously seen.
618 reads
2 Comments
Panic Relief
Drowning, splashing, holding breath
Concealed appearance, unknown depth
Panic stricken, silent grief
Hearing no sirens of relief
Waves of turbulence almost crushing
Adrenaline streams madly rushing
Liquid salt of the eyes, a betrayal
White flag flown, weakness’s portrayal
Slow down to drift, amid the tide
Release control, let it subside
Belief in an end, self-rescue
Breathing again, as if on cue
Head above water, tread efficiently ...
Concealed appearance, unknown depth
Panic stricken, silent grief
Hearing no sirens of relief
Waves of turbulence almost crushing
Adrenaline streams madly rushing
Liquid salt of the eyes, a betrayal
White flag flown, weakness’s portrayal
Slow down to drift, amid the tide
Release control, let it subside
Belief in an end, self-rescue
Breathing again, as if on cue
Head above water, tread efficiently ...
609 reads
4 Comments
Found Again
I was blinded
knew not what was real
existing alone
forgot how to feel
then you were there
just as before
more than human
you, I adore
knew not what was real
existing alone
forgot how to feel
then you were there
just as before
more than human
you, I adore
706 reads
2 Comments
Dreams Resist
In early hours
As dreams resist
Feeling tormented
Anguish amidst
Struggle for resolution
Quiet the naked soul
Agitated thoughts
Silence, the goal
A battle wages
Splintering the mind
Sensations of war
Spiritually unkind
Praying for truce
Simple armistice
Of body and spirit
As dreams resist
As dreams resist
Feeling tormented
Anguish amidst
Struggle for resolution
Quiet the naked soul
Agitated thoughts
Silence, the goal
A battle wages
Splintering the mind
Sensations of war
Spiritually unkind
Praying for truce
Simple armistice
Of body and spirit
As dreams resist
558 reads
2 Comments
Sober
A brightening path
future yet to gain
past becomes an unlit stage
never meant to remain
The heart again beats
strength grows inside
haze is lifted
no ache to hide
This tortured soul no longer cries
tears have gone away
silent, hollow, empty nights
now becoming day
future yet to gain
past becomes an unlit stage
never meant to remain
The heart again beats
strength grows inside
haze is lifted
no ache to hide
This tortured soul no longer cries
tears have gone away
silent, hollow, empty nights
now becoming day
568 reads
6 Comments
Farewell Bowie
The one distinguishing feature about early-70s progressive rock was that it didn't progress. Then Bowie subverted the whole notion of what it was to be a rock star". – John Peel
Ashes to Ashes
Under Pressure
Station to Station
Embraced as treasure
Ziggy Stardust
Hero’s and Fame
Let’s Dance a Space Oddity
And join the refrain
Colossal change agent
Five decades proud
Unique in your glam
Wearing no shroud
Always germane
Progressive punk rock
None uninfluenced
Never of stock ...
Ashes to Ashes
Under Pressure
Station to Station
Embraced as treasure
Ziggy Stardust
Hero’s and Fame
Let’s Dance a Space Oddity
And join the refrain
Colossal change agent
Five decades proud
Unique in your glam
Wearing no shroud
Always germane
Progressive punk rock
None uninfluenced
Never of stock ...
652 reads
4 Comments
Withdraw
Cold night sweats
making me ill
simple calmness
begging, be still
Shakes and shivers
trying to contain
fear envelops
seizures of pain
Acute senses
too much to bear
emotions return
sensing their stare
Fearing death
excruciating withdraw
drink again
unable to stall
Shame and guilt
comprehended
feeling well
not apprehended
making me ill
simple calmness
begging, be still
Shakes and shivers
trying to contain
fear envelops
seizures of pain
Acute senses
too much to bear
emotions return
sensing their stare
Fearing death
excruciating withdraw
drink again
unable to stall
Shame and guilt
comprehended
feeling well
not apprehended
720 reads
10 Comments
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