Submissions by mel44
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write as an outlet to make sense of my world and experiences. My purpose of sharing my words with others is in the hope that readers may identify with them insofar as what it means for them.
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
9th Mar 2023 12:40pm
9th Mar 2023 12:40pm
Weep Not for Me
Imminency is before us
as vitality begins to wane
lover I am bound to you
yet still, unable to remain
Time to leave this transient life
sensing the reaper as he nears
be brave my beloved husband
my need for solace, greater than your fears
For I have struggled far too long
fighting until I meet defeat
tired, fatigued, and weary
this sickness I cannot beat
You have watched me battle
far more than what is fair
your tears betray your eyes
I am witness to your despair
I have loved you so...
as vitality begins to wane
lover I am bound to you
yet still, unable to remain
Time to leave this transient life
sensing the reaper as he nears
be brave my beloved husband
my need for solace, greater than your fears
For I have struggled far too long
fighting until I meet defeat
tired, fatigued, and weary
this sickness I cannot beat
You have watched me battle
far more than what is fair
your tears betray your eyes
I am witness to your despair
I have loved you so...
#grief
#death
73 reads
7 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
7th Mar 2023 1:08pm
7th Mar 2023 1:08pm
Cards
Wanting to reshuffle the deck
too many to be discarded
places I wish I’d never have been
heinous secrets I keep guarded
Longing for a different past
inclination to numb, to forget
yet memories continue to haunt
mislead actions I now regret
Naivety left me vulnerable
many took unjust advantage
leaving me in ruins of my youth
ponderous burdens I could not manage
In reflection, admitting my shame
capable, willing now that I’m grown
accepting my life’s actual trauma
self-aware, I have nothing to atone
too many to be discarded
places I wish I’d never have been
heinous secrets I keep guarded
Longing for a different past
inclination to numb, to forget
yet memories continue to haunt
mislead actions I now regret
Naivety left me vulnerable
many took unjust advantage
leaving me in ruins of my youth
ponderous burdens I could not manage
In reflection, admitting my shame
capable, willing now that I’m grown
accepting my life’s actual trauma
self-aware, I have nothing to atone
#memories
#suffering
51 reads
13 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
6th Mar 2023 8:37am
6th Mar 2023 8:37am
Character Defects
Inconsideration of others
without any causation
intolerant glance
feeding frustration
In arrogance
refusing to see
far too selfish
no respite from thee
Self-seeking
who will please
immense, your greed
living in disease
No patience for you
nor your defect
in your mirror
malice you reflect
without any causation
intolerant glance
feeding frustration
In arrogance
refusing to see
far too selfish
no respite from thee
Self-seeking
who will please
immense, your greed
living in disease
No patience for you
nor your defect
in your mirror
malice you reflect
#frustration
#greed
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2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
1st Mar 2023 1:55pm
1st Mar 2023 1:55pm
Unwarranted Judgement
In your disaffection, I’ve been alone
tormented, shamed, it is me you deject
the wickedness of your tongue, all I’ve known
shunned, an outcast from the pain you deflect
Oblivious you were to secrets kept
you saw a delinquent, misfit at best
a reality, you would not accept
an innocence you had, I was not blessed
Blinded, guided by the youth you perceive
our mismatched histories cannot compare
unable to see the reasons I grieve
you could never have known, you were not there
Disgraceful in your ignorance of...
tormented, shamed, it is me you deject
the wickedness of your tongue, all I’ve known
shunned, an outcast from the pain you deflect
Oblivious you were to secrets kept
you saw a delinquent, misfit at best
a reality, you would not accept
an innocence you had, I was not blessed
Blinded, guided by the youth you perceive
our mismatched histories cannot compare
unable to see the reasons I grieve
you could never have known, you were not there
Disgraceful in your ignorance of...
#grief
#forgiveness
#memories
86 reads
14 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
28th Feb 2023 2:22pm
28th Feb 2023 2:22pm
Indiscriminate
In addiction we hide
pain, shame, and fear
our darkness never far
always remaining near
believing unworthy
never good enough
in our disconnection
anguish we can’t rebuff
assured if we were seen
as we truly are
the detrimental exposure
would surely mar
so we take in something
to change how we feel
oblivious to the thief
that is only there to steal
indiscriminately numbed
vacant our stare
as we become nothing
appearing not to care
but we are bemused
alone in...
pain, shame, and fear
our darkness never far
always remaining near
believing unworthy
never good enough
in our disconnection
anguish we can’t rebuff
assured if we were seen
as we truly are
the detrimental exposure
would surely mar
so we take in something
to change how we feel
oblivious to the thief
that is only there to steal
indiscriminately numbed
vacant our stare
as we become nothing
appearing not to care
but we are bemused
alone in...
#addiction
#despair
130 reads
8 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
28th Feb 2023 1:31pm
28th Feb 2023 1:31pm
Inhospitable
Winter charged in
with frigid gales
icy discomfort
darkness prevails
Wicked season
mental unrest
numbed delight
misery my guest
Incessant ache
frozen to the core
longing for warmth
indifference no more
To the ocean
desire to flee
sand between my toes
where I long to be
with frigid gales
icy discomfort
darkness prevails
Wicked season
mental unrest
numbed delight
misery my guest
Incessant ache
frozen to the core
longing for warmth
indifference no more
To the ocean
desire to flee
sand between my toes
where I long to be
#winter
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SELF POEM
Published
27th Feb 2023 9:03am
27th Feb 2023 9:03am
Amygdala
Since I was a child
battling an internal war
an uneasy monologue
I did not learn to soar
Nothing to shield me
from monsters that do roam
never knowing safety
forced to march alone
Forever in survival mode
fight, flight or freeze
dysregulated
always ill at ease
Out of place
Is where I exist
my demons proving
difficult to resist
Combating best I can
an unseen foe to beat
persistence necessary
else will be defeat
Catastrophic thoughts
an unquiet mind ...
battling an internal war
an uneasy monologue
I did not learn to soar
Nothing to shield me
from monsters that do roam
never knowing safety
forced to march alone
Forever in survival mode
fight, flight or freeze
dysregulated
always ill at ease
Out of place
Is where I exist
my demons proving
difficult to resist
Combating best I can
an unseen foe to beat
persistence necessary
else will be defeat
Catastrophic thoughts
an unquiet mind ...
#anxiety
#dark
#LifeStruggles
64 reads
6 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
26th Feb 2023 4:32pm
26th Feb 2023 4:32pm
A Malady
Familiar with the conflict
feelings of hope and dread
begging for relief
hanging by a thread
Distorted emotions
no power to reign
immobilising terror
difficult to abstain
Self-doubt and insecurity
concealing shame and guilt
never fleeting fear
the reality I built
Calm exterior, a façade
masking turbulence
hiding from pain
submission to permanence
Devoid of emotion
the soul in despair
drowning in spirits
the armour I wear
feelings of hope and dread
begging for relief
hanging by a thread
Distorted emotions
no power to reign
immobilising terror
difficult to abstain
Self-doubt and insecurity
concealing shame and guilt
never fleeting fear
the reality I built
Calm exterior, a façade
masking turbulence
hiding from pain
submission to permanence
Devoid of emotion
the soul in despair
drowning in spirits
the armour I wear
#anxiety
#depression
#alcohol
100 reads
10 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
22nd Feb 2023 4:26pm
22nd Feb 2023 4:26pm
Holding Your Space
A sadness in you
I’m not meant to touch
tempest of pain
tightly to the chest you clutch
It’s alright my friend
I pass no judgement here
my place is not to mend you
that is for you my dear
Wishing I could calm you
that I might love you well
as I know your truth
and I promised not to tell
Witnessing your tears
wanting to assuage
sensing your discomfort
as they fall upon your page
In your darkness
that place where you rest
I can hold the space
but only as your guest
...
I’m not meant to touch
tempest of pain
tightly to the chest you clutch
It’s alright my friend
I pass no judgement here
my place is not to mend you
that is for you my dear
Wishing I could calm you
that I might love you well
as I know your truth
and I promised not to tell
Witnessing your tears
wanting to assuage
sensing your discomfort
as they fall upon your page
In your darkness
that place where you rest
I can hold the space
but only as your guest
...
#friendship
#support
85 reads
5 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
16th Feb 2023 5:20pm
16th Feb 2023 5:20pm
Despite Your Rain
Never will I fade in the shadow of your abyss
Your condemnation, badly amiss
I will always shimmer through your rain
All that I am and will ever be
Not for you to diminish so blatantly
Your ignorance magnifies my ability to shine
The memory of you shall be interred
Your imagined power, mistakenly inferred
My illuminated soul will always radiate
Your condemnation, badly amiss
I will always shimmer through your rain
All that I am and will ever be
Not for you to diminish so blatantly
Your ignorance magnifies my ability to shine
The memory of you shall be interred
Your imagined power, mistakenly inferred
My illuminated soul will always radiate
#SelfReflection
#SelfDiscovery
#SelfWorth
94 reads
6 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
15th Feb 2023 3:13pm
15th Feb 2023 3:13pm
Unaccompanied
Trepid child
in a forest of dreams
hiding for awhile
nothing as it seems
Dark and grim
feeling the fear
sucking me in
keeping me near
Closing my eyes
holding breath
ghostly shapes in guise
panicking depth
Efforts to flee
self-defeating
unable to see
tragedy repeating
Prolonged route
in solitary
discomfort acute
movements wary
Trudging alone
in a wretched place
towards the unknow
wicked winds I brace
in a forest of dreams
hiding for awhile
nothing as it seems
Dark and grim
feeling the fear
sucking me in
keeping me near
Closing my eyes
holding breath
ghostly shapes in guise
panicking depth
Efforts to flee
self-defeating
unable to see
tragedy repeating
Prolonged route
in solitary
discomfort acute
movements wary
Trudging alone
in a wretched place
towards the unknow
wicked winds I brace
#anxiety
#dark
#nightmares
67 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
25th Jan 2023 4:34pm
25th Jan 2023 4:34pm
Always to Remain
Latching onto grief and pain
a memoir of what I have lost
certainly not erased in time
recollections embossed
My reminiscence offers comfort
with reassuring regularity
authenticating your existence
affording profound clarity
Intimately keeping you
in the space within my chest
holding you in my mind’s eye
with eidetic intuition, I am blessed
Always remaining a part of me
I shall not take leave, nor will I forget
remembering the spirit of you
without exception or regret
a memoir of what I have lost
certainly not erased in time
recollections embossed
My reminiscence offers comfort
with reassuring regularity
authenticating your existence
affording profound clarity
Intimately keeping you
in the space within my chest
holding you in my mind’s eye
with eidetic intuition, I am blessed
Always remaining a part of me
I shall not take leave, nor will I forget
remembering the spirit of you
without exception or regret
#grief
#mother
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7 Comments
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