Submissions by mel44
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction I write as an outlet to make sense of my world and experiences. My purpose of sharing my words with others is in the hope that readers may identify with them insofar as what it means for them.
SELF POEM
Published
9th Aug 2018 12:44pm
9th Aug 2018 12:44pm
Reticence
Only just a child
latchkey kid run wild
youth forever lost
Far too old when young
baby on a ladder rung
learning to climb alone
Abandoned and unprotected
reticence perfected
survival, nothing more
Building walls for preservation
dependence upon isolation
yet hardly staying safe
Harboured secrets meant to keep
now recalled in unquiet sleep
I suffer still in silence
latchkey kid run wild
youth forever lost
Far too old when young
baby on a ladder rung
learning to climb alone
Abandoned and unprotected
reticence perfected
survival, nothing more
Building walls for preservation
dependence upon isolation
yet hardly staying safe
Harboured secrets meant to keep
now recalled in unquiet sleep
I suffer still in silence
#loneliness
#childhood
#silence
34 reads
11 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
2nd Jul 2018 9:57pm
2nd Jul 2018 9:57pm
Penance
Toxic shame lingers
like pale, dense fog
in early morning hours
hauntingly, it echoes
hindering slumber
and assuredly devours
Unsettled restlessness
of a broken soul
troubled, vacant stare
heavy, self-appointed
and battered cross
my weakened shoulders bear
Through tearful lenses
I easily see
my penance has just begun
who shall save me
from myself?
alas, I've come undone
like pale, dense fog
in early morning hours
hauntingly, it echoes
hindering slumber
and assuredly devours
Unsettled restlessness
of a broken soul
troubled, vacant stare
heavy, self-appointed
and battered cross
my weakened shoulders bear
Through tearful lenses
I easily see
my penance has just begun
who shall save me
from myself?
alas, I've come undone
#depression
#shame
68 reads
11 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
9th Jun 2018 12:02pm
9th Jun 2018 12:02pm
Loss
Humming birds flitter
desolate garden spaces
hovering
hungry
barren, dull places
Grand orchestra assembled
vacant music hall
inspiration
unheard
muted chords fall
Evening stars dimmed
forming dark cloud
fading
smothered
not shimmering proud
Mournful child cries
tragic maternal death
grieving
struggling
never catching breath
desolate garden spaces
hovering
hungry
barren, dull places
Grand orchestra assembled
vacant music hall
inspiration
unheard
muted chords fall
Evening stars dimmed
forming dark cloud
fading
smothered
not shimmering proud
Mournful child cries
tragic maternal death
grieving
struggling
never catching breath
#grief
#death
100 reads
13 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
5th Jun 2018 2:13am
5th Jun 2018 2:13am
Sum of My Scars
History alone
inadequate to define
the whole I have become
yet in your haste
presuming waste
to ignorance you succumb
Closed eyes
determined
unwilling to see
remaining
recumbent
in judgement of me
With forgiveness
bearing
your pious prosecution
I pray
knowing
you are worthy of absolution
Walk
if you could
amid my memoirs
discover
never will I be
only the sum of my scars
inadequate to define
the whole I have become
yet in your haste
presuming waste
to ignorance you succumb
Closed eyes
determined
unwilling to see
remaining
recumbent
in judgement of me
With forgiveness
bearing
your pious prosecution
I pray
knowing
you are worthy of absolution
Walk
if you could
amid my memoirs
discover
never will I be
only the sum of my scars
#forgiveness
#ignorance
70 reads
6 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
16th May 2018 1:16pm
16th May 2018 1:16pm
Rising Again
In addiction
battling
far longer
than I care to recollect
attempts at wellness
littered with failure
despite intellect
Time and again
proving inadequate
and alone
combating
my demons
with insufficient armour
yet concession
I shall not condone
In faith and courage
rising
once more
pursuing grace
proceeding
with dignity
salvation
to embrace
For I am worthy
of recovery
belief
I must apprise
as I fear
another defeat
shall surely ...
battling
far longer
than I care to recollect
attempts at wellness
littered with failure
despite intellect
Time and again
proving inadequate
and alone
combating
my demons
with insufficient armour
yet concession
I shall not condone
In faith and courage
rising
once more
pursuing grace
proceeding
with dignity
salvation
to embrace
For I am worthy
of recovery
belief
I must apprise
as I fear
another defeat
shall surely ...
#addiction
79 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
10th May 2018 2:26pm
10th May 2018 2:26pm
Crisis
Screeching halt
Crushing metal;
rising from
the back seat floor
Racing heart
does not settle;
hot stinging
sensation sore
Eyes wet
head burning
ruby red;
gushing, bleeding
flashing lights
undiscerning
Maternal voice
panicked, pleading;
fearful shaking
comfort seeking
"Oh my baby"
mother shrieking
running towards me
as I fell . . .
Unnerved
and distressed
remembering
nothing more
Although feeling altered
to...
Crushing metal;
rising from
the back seat floor
Racing heart
does not settle;
hot stinging
sensation sore
Eyes wet
head burning
ruby red;
gushing, bleeding
flashing lights
undiscerning
Maternal voice
panicked, pleading;
fearful shaking
comfort seeking
"Oh my baby"
mother shrieking
running towards me
as I fell . . .
Unnerved
and distressed
remembering
nothing more
Although feeling altered
to...
#childhood
#NaPoWriMo2018
#LifeChangingMoment
66 reads
10 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
1st May 2018 10:17am
1st May 2018 10:17am
NaPoWriMo
One last poem
before goodnight
summing up Napo
in a final write
challenge accepted
to create on command
thirty new pieces
to meet demand
ideas flowing
when I begin
pulling inspiration
from deep within
offering thoughts
on self-reflection
philosophies on faith
spiritual conception
expressions of love
joy and pain
sharing empathy
enduring shame
writing of darkness
relapse and grief
finding recovery
sensing relief
in this challenge
I've...
before goodnight
summing up Napo
in a final write
challenge accepted
to create on command
thirty new pieces
to meet demand
ideas flowing
when I begin
pulling inspiration
from deep within
offering thoughts
on self-reflection
philosophies on faith
spiritual conception
expressions of love
joy and pain
sharing empathy
enduring shame
writing of darkness
relapse and grief
finding recovery
sensing relief
in this challenge
I've...
#NaPoWriMo2018
68 reads
1 Comment
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
1st May 2018 10:15am
1st May 2018 10:15am
Meditation
Anxiety rises
feeling unrest
learning to focus
upon the breath
drawing air deeply
extending exhales
being mindful
calmness prevails
engaging mind and body
practising how
be rather than do
consciously in now
accepting each moment
clarifying sign
appreciation occurs
no notion of time
thoughts may wander
but without judgement
returning again
to here in the present
releasing insecurity
of a buried past
freed from worry
resolve steadfast
feeling unrest
learning to focus
upon the breath
drawing air deeply
extending exhales
being mindful
calmness prevails
engaging mind and body
practising how
be rather than do
consciously in now
accepting each moment
clarifying sign
appreciation occurs
no notion of time
thoughts may wander
but without judgement
returning again
to here in the present
releasing insecurity
of a buried past
freed from worry
resolve steadfast
#spiritual
#NaPoWriMo2018
74 reads
2 Comments
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
30th Apr 2018 4:56pm
30th Apr 2018 4:56pm
Writing Therapy
Baring my emotions
in a visceral write
unburdening deep fears
affording them flight
releasing buried feelings
that have rested for ages
uprooting my angst
while scribing upon pages
sensing cathartic release
with words composed
relief easily afforded
when grief is exposed
offering new vision
a different perspective
attitude now altered
becoming receptive
revealing experience
alleviates torment
revelatory process
the point poignant
in a visceral write
unburdening deep fears
affording them flight
releasing buried feelings
that have rested for ages
uprooting my angst
while scribing upon pages
sensing cathartic release
with words composed
relief easily afforded
when grief is exposed
offering new vision
a different perspective
attitude now altered
becoming receptive
revealing experience
alleviates torment
revelatory process
the point poignant
#NaPoWriMo2018
#WritingPoetry
81 reads
2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
30th Apr 2018 4:54pm
30th Apr 2018 4:54pm
Maternal Teachings
From a young age
learning respect
offering to all
what you expect
love, unconditional
bestowed upon me
revealed importance
of true loyalty
imparted principles
of wisdom and growth
sharing your faith
kindness an oath
in your struggles
my compassion grew
teaching perseverance
through courage you drew
holding standards
for responsibility
realising benefits
gaining autonomy
values instilled
quite early on
always upheld
although you are gone
learning respect
offering to all
what you expect
love, unconditional
bestowed upon me
revealed importance
of true loyalty
imparted principles
of wisdom and growth
sharing your faith
kindness an oath
in your struggles
my compassion grew
teaching perseverance
through courage you drew
holding standards
for responsibility
realising benefits
gaining autonomy
values instilled
quite early on
always upheld
although you are gone
#mother
#NaPoWriMo2018
#learning
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0 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
27th Apr 2018 9:38pm
27th Apr 2018 9:38pm
Hosting Darkness
Trapped
in a cyclone
spiralling thoughts
repeat
reckless isolation
seeking safety
in retreat
hosting darkness
bewitched
yet again
clutching its wrath
settling in
readying self
descending swiftly
as I begin
drowning
once more
murky waters
plunging
ever deep
weighted
in secrets
not meant to keep
alone
sinking
adorning
shame and fear
swallowing
choking
knowing
imminent death near
in a cyclone
spiralling thoughts
repeat
reckless isolation
seeking safety
in retreat
hosting darkness
bewitched
yet again
clutching its wrath
settling in
readying self
descending swiftly
as I begin
drowning
once more
murky waters
plunging
ever deep
weighted
in secrets
not meant to keep
alone
sinking
adorning
shame and fear
swallowing
choking
knowing
imminent death near
#dark
#NaPoWriMo2018
#despair
119 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
26th Apr 2018 10:57pm
26th Apr 2018 10:57pm
Mirror
Living with your judgement
daily exercise is shame
taunting my unworthiness
unable to diffuse blame
scornful ridicule
propelling humiliation
reinforcing beliefs
of eternal damnation
defeating words repeated
chorus for indignity
sustained in disesteem
rearing malignity
your disgust quite obvious
I cling to disgrace
bearing your contempt
confidence has no place
this mirror I possess
reflects inner lamentation
although faulty in its mockery
manifests my fixation
daily exercise is shame
taunting my unworthiness
unable to diffuse blame
scornful ridicule
propelling humiliation
reinforcing beliefs
of eternal damnation
defeating words repeated
chorus for indignity
sustained in disesteem
rearing malignity
your disgust quite obvious
I cling to disgrace
bearing your contempt
confidence has no place
this mirror I possess
reflects inner lamentation
although faulty in its mockery
manifests my fixation
#NaPoWriMo2018
#shame
#SelfReflection
94 reads
4 Comments
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