Submissions by mel44 (Melgar)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write as an outlet to make sense of my world and experiences. My purpose of sharing my words with others is in the hope that readers may identify with them insofar as what it means for them.
Not Alone
Wishing not
to drowse in sleep
tomorrow comes far too soon
lying down
awake in thought
gazing at the waxing moon
ponderous
question now
what the future holds for me
reflecting
foregoing rest
saying prayers that I may see
eyes weighty
begin to drift
to a place where I can dream
not alone
in the darkness
more content than I may seem
to drowse in sleep
tomorrow comes far too soon
lying down
awake in thought
gazing at the waxing moon
ponderous
question now
what the future holds for me
reflecting
foregoing rest
saying prayers that I may see
eyes weighty
begin to drift
to a place where I can dream
not alone
in the darkness
more content than I may seem
#hope
#NaPoWriMo2024
#sleep
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Finding Hope
Amid a visceral pain
knowing I am alive
transient discomfort
where I often thrive
Through evident struggles
a place I find strength
fighting vicious battles
going to any length
Always a survivor
despite the suffering
remaining in a state
of constant recovering
Grateful for wisdoms
not easily learned
while enduring the storms
my life has been earned
Invariably discovering
a better means to cope
as long as I keep trying
forever finding hope
knowing I am alive
transient discomfort
where I often thrive
Through evident struggles
a place I find strength
fighting vicious battles
going to any length
Always a survivor
despite the suffering
remaining in a state
of constant recovering
Grateful for wisdoms
not easily learned
while enduring the storms
my life has been earned
Invariably discovering
a better means to cope
as long as I keep trying
forever finding hope
#hope
#LifeStruggles
#NaPoWriMo2024
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Still
I tried to comfort you
in your lonely days
and melancholy ways
That you were isolated
was a matter of decision
a self-imposed prison
With compassion
I encouraged connection
but you fell, into abjection
Wishing for something
to foster will to live
yet, you remained resistive
It must have been awful
being on your own
always feeling so desperately alone
Not believing worthy
an excruciating void
self-worth became destroyed
I was unable to save you
not even from...
in your lonely days
and melancholy ways
That you were isolated
was a matter of decision
a self-imposed prison
With compassion
I encouraged connection
but you fell, into abjection
Wishing for something
to foster will to live
yet, you remained resistive
It must have been awful
being on your own
always feeling so desperately alone
Not believing worthy
an excruciating void
self-worth became destroyed
I was unable to save you
not even from...
#death
#NaPoWriMo2024
#sadness
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Absent the Hunger
I heard the birds
chose not to rise
tears betray
my blurry eyes
Resting here
unable to sleep
unknown reasons
for why I weep
I am not meant
to exist today
how I feel
no words convey
Devoid of senses
empty, numb
no smell or flavour
seems to come
Absent the hunger
deficient desire
without even a start
decision to retire
chose not to rise
tears betray
my blurry eyes
Resting here
unable to sleep
unknown reasons
for why I weep
I am not meant
to exist today
how I feel
no words convey
Devoid of senses
empty, numb
no smell or flavour
seems to come
Absent the hunger
deficient desire
without even a start
decision to retire
#despair
#NaPoWriMo2024
#sadness
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Untitled
Oh I am so tired
of cold, wind and rain
reverberating echoes
cyclone in my brain
spirits creeping
remnants of past
haunting darkness
shadows cast
growing more weary
worse than before
a constant cloud cover
forgetting to soar
not protected
no armour to wear
demons devour
without a care
drowning in wreckage
an emotional flood
this time the enemy
out for blood
of cold, wind and rain
reverberating echoes
cyclone in my brain
spirits creeping
remnants of past
haunting darkness
shadows cast
growing more weary
worse than before
a constant cloud cover
forgetting to soar
not protected
no armour to wear
demons devour
without a care
drowning in wreckage
an emotional flood
this time the enemy
out for blood
#dark
#depression
#NaPoWriMo2024
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Once We Were
Occasional tears
never do dry
because it mattered
the reason I cry
A bit of me broken
yet living on
despite the pain
from a time now gone
Memories recalled
reminded of your scent
fond recollection
moments we spent
Once lovers, now friends
both of us changed
the future we had
has been rearranged
From love that was
I shall not hide
for you always
a place aside
never do dry
because it mattered
the reason I cry
A bit of me broken
yet living on
despite the pain
from a time now gone
Memories recalled
reminded of your scent
fond recollection
moments we spent
Once lovers, now friends
both of us changed
the future we had
has been rearranged
From love that was
I shall not hide
for you always
a place aside
#love
#breakup
#NaPoWriMo2024
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Anxiety
Happening again
I am reeling
impotent to change
the way I’m feeling
racing thoughts
cannot breathe
panic envelops
no reprieve
chest heavy
fists are tight
anxious, scared
fight or flight
unable to run
wanting to hide
frozen in place
pain inside
body shaking
I close my eyes
no one there
to hear my cries
I am ill
there is no buffer
in distress
alone I suffer
I am reeling
impotent to change
the way I’m feeling
racing thoughts
cannot breathe
panic envelops
no reprieve
chest heavy
fists are tight
anxious, scared
fight or flight
unable to run
wanting to hide
frozen in place
pain inside
body shaking
I close my eyes
no one there
to hear my cries
I am ill
there is no buffer
in distress
alone I suffer
#anxiety
#NaPoWriMo2024
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Majority Rules
So very high and mighty
upon your stepping stool
belief you are of greater value
simply because you rule
Born of privilege
of this you cannot ignore
built solely on the backs
of the needy and the poor
Reaping benefits
meant only for a few
thinking you are superior
from an obscured view
You are disadvantaged
no capacity for compassion
pretending you are worthy
based on the clothes you fashion
All that was provided
only makes you weak
lacking skills to discover
the more of...
upon your stepping stool
belief you are of greater value
simply because you rule
Born of privilege
of this you cannot ignore
built solely on the backs
of the needy and the poor
Reaping benefits
meant only for a few
thinking you are superior
from an obscured view
You are disadvantaged
no capacity for compassion
pretending you are worthy
based on the clothes you fashion
All that was provided
only makes you weak
lacking skills to discover
the more of...
#NaPoWriMo2024
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The Calm in Crisis
In the midst of chaos
I am at peace
holding my hand
on the valve release
Always the mediator
for any crisis afloat
in need of saving
I am the life boat
Akin to disturbance
our lives interlace
tell me your troubles
I will hold your space
Traumatic events
I know them well
your secrets kept
not meant to tell
Truly belonging
in the heart of the storm
normal for me
where I was born
In turbulent times
I am at home
here I am calm
my place is known
I am at peace
holding my hand
on the valve release
Always the mediator
for any crisis afloat
in need of saving
I am the life boat
Akin to disturbance
our lives interlace
tell me your troubles
I will hold your space
Traumatic events
I know them well
your secrets kept
not meant to tell
Truly belonging
in the heart of the storm
normal for me
where I was born
In turbulent times
I am at home
here I am calm
my place is known
#support
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Spiritual Living
Melodic voice whispering
promise of grace
sensing a higher entity
ideals to embrace
With honest gratitude
reaching profound existence
held in high esteem
affording a moral sense
Becoming rooted in service
for the poor and indigent
secured in a spiritual faith
unbroken and benevolent
Small gestures offer us blessings
of compassion and humility
a noble and worthy virtue
with sincere authenticity
promise of grace
sensing a higher entity
ideals to embrace
With honest gratitude
reaching profound existence
held in high esteem
affording a moral sense
Becoming rooted in service
for the poor and indigent
secured in a spiritual faith
unbroken and benevolent
Small gestures offer us blessings
of compassion and humility
a noble and worthy virtue
with sincere authenticity
#spiritual
#NaPoWriMo2024
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Such is Suffering
Troubled, distressed
trauma and woe
unwavering discomfort
enduring sorrow
Feelings of anguish
consumed by despair
unfortunate hardships
a heavy cross to bear
Amid charred ashes
of loss and tragedy
existence, not living
bounded, unfree
Such is suffering
this human condition
seemingly endless
with no remission
Twilight of death
a wretched place
ultimately necessary
that I may find my grace
trauma and woe
unwavering discomfort
enduring sorrow
Feelings of anguish
consumed by despair
unfortunate hardships
a heavy cross to bear
Amid charred ashes
of loss and tragedy
existence, not living
bounded, unfree
Such is suffering
this human condition
seemingly endless
with no remission
Twilight of death
a wretched place
ultimately necessary
that I may find my grace
#suffering
#NaPoWriMo2024
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Redemption
Your words brawling
behaviour appalling
in quarrel you demean
Attacks are brutal
my resilience crucial
declining to be your victim
Believing your actions
simply minor infractions
knowing not the wounds you leave
…
Upon awakening you regret
hurting those you’re meant to protect
no direct appeal for redemption
Professing your sin
to your God within
assuming you will be saved
My dear, you have been deceived
as only the aggrieved
have the authority to forgive
behaviour appalling
in quarrel you demean
Attacks are brutal
my resilience crucial
declining to be your victim
Believing your actions
simply minor infractions
knowing not the wounds you leave
…
Upon awakening you regret
hurting those you’re meant to protect
no direct appeal for redemption
Professing your sin
to your God within
assuming you will be saved
My dear, you have been deceived
as only the aggrieved
have the authority to forgive
#conflict
#NaPoWriMo2024
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