Submissions by mel44
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write as an outlet to make sense of my world and experiences. My purpose of sharing my words with others is in the hope that readers may identify with them insofar as what it means for them.
The Moon
Mighty weight shouldered
battling to be well
protecting those you cherish
despite terror that swells
Unfeigned bravery observed
allowing fear permission
an understood ambivalence
seeking promise of remission
Wishing for you grace
calm in the storm you endure
solace if afraid
as you wage war against the obscure
Knowing you are pulling
deep upon courage to fight
hold steadfast
even the darkest shadows
possess a source of light
Prayers for a spirit of resilience ...
battling to be well
protecting those you cherish
despite terror that swells
Unfeigned bravery observed
allowing fear permission
an understood ambivalence
seeking promise of remission
Wishing for you grace
calm in the storm you endure
solace if afraid
as you wage war against the obscure
Knowing you are pulling
deep upon courage to fight
hold steadfast
even the darkest shadows
possess a source of light
Prayers for a spirit of resilience ...
#sadness
#love
#hope #spiritual
#hope #spiritual
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Mortality
Who shall explain
devastating tragedy
imprisoned in death
never to be free
Demons do creep
there is no misgiving
venomous strikes
attacking the living
Spectres of regret
carve images in the mind
casting ominous shadows
calamity assigned
Heart wrenching fate
brutal and unfair
it comes for us all
innocents beware
devastating tragedy
imprisoned in death
never to be free
Demons do creep
there is no misgiving
venomous strikes
attacking the living
Spectres of regret
carve images in the mind
casting ominous shadows
calamity assigned
Heart wrenching fate
brutal and unfair
it comes for us all
innocents beware
#dark
#death
#tragedy
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Weep Not for Me
Imminency is before us
as vitality begins to wane
lover I am bound to you
yet still, unable to remain
Time to leave this transient life
sensing the reaper as he nears
be brave my beloved husband
my need for solace, greater than your fears
For I have struggled far too long
fighting until I meet defeat
tired, fatigued, and weary
this sickness I cannot beat
You have watched me battle
far more than what is fair
your tears betray your eyes
I am witness to your despair
I have loved you so...
as vitality begins to wane
lover I am bound to you
yet still, unable to remain
Time to leave this transient life
sensing the reaper as he nears
be brave my beloved husband
my need for solace, greater than your fears
For I have struggled far too long
fighting until I meet defeat
tired, fatigued, and weary
this sickness I cannot beat
You have watched me battle
far more than what is fair
your tears betray your eyes
I am witness to your despair
I have loved you so...
#grief
#death
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Cards
Wanting to reshuffle the deck
too many to be discarded
places I wish I’d never been
heinous secrets I keep guarded
Longing for a different past
inclination to numb, to forget
yet memories continue to haunt
mislead actions I now regret
Naivety left me vulnerable
many took unjust advantage
leaving me in ruins of my youth
ponderous burdens I could not manage
In reflection, admitting my shame
capable, willing now that I’m grown
accepting my life’s actual trauma
self-aware, I have nothing to...
too many to be discarded
places I wish I’d never been
heinous secrets I keep guarded
Longing for a different past
inclination to numb, to forget
yet memories continue to haunt
mislead actions I now regret
Naivety left me vulnerable
many took unjust advantage
leaving me in ruins of my youth
ponderous burdens I could not manage
In reflection, admitting my shame
capable, willing now that I’m grown
accepting my life’s actual trauma
self-aware, I have nothing to...
#memories
#suffering
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Character Defects
Inconsideration of others
without any causation
intolerant glance
feeding frustration
In arrogance
refusing to see
far too selfish
no respite from thee
Self-seeking
who will please
immense, your greed
living in disease
No patience for you
nor your defect
in your mirror
malice you reflect
without any causation
intolerant glance
feeding frustration
In arrogance
refusing to see
far too selfish
no respite from thee
Self-seeking
who will please
immense, your greed
living in disease
No patience for you
nor your defect
in your mirror
malice you reflect
#frustration
#greed
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Unwarranted Judgement
In your disaffection, I’ve been alone
tormented, shamed, it is me you deject
the wickedness of your tongue, all I’ve known
shunned, an outcast from the pain you deflect
Oblivious you were to secrets kept
you saw a delinquent, misfit at best
a reality, you would not accept
an innocence you had, I was not blessed
Blinded, guided by the youth you perceive
our mismatched histories cannot compare
unable to see the reasons I grieve
you could never have known, you were not there
Disgraceful in your ignorance of...
tormented, shamed, it is me you deject
the wickedness of your tongue, all I’ve known
shunned, an outcast from the pain you deflect
Oblivious you were to secrets kept
you saw a delinquent, misfit at best
a reality, you would not accept
an innocence you had, I was not blessed
Blinded, guided by the youth you perceive
our mismatched histories cannot compare
unable to see the reasons I grieve
you could never have known, you were not there
Disgraceful in your ignorance of...
#grief
#forgiveness
#memories
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Indiscriminate
In addiction we hide
pain, shame, and fear
our darkness never far
always remaining near
believing unworthy
never good enough
in our disconnection
anguish we can’t rebuff
assured if we were seen
as we truly are
the detrimental exposure
would surely mar
so we take in something
to change how we feel
oblivious to the thief
that is only there to steal
indiscriminately numbed
vacant our stare
as we become nothing
appearing not to care
but we are bemused
alone in...
pain, shame, and fear
our darkness never far
always remaining near
believing unworthy
never good enough
in our disconnection
anguish we can’t rebuff
assured if we were seen
as we truly are
the detrimental exposure
would surely mar
so we take in something
to change how we feel
oblivious to the thief
that is only there to steal
indiscriminately numbed
vacant our stare
as we become nothing
appearing not to care
but we are bemused
alone in...
#addiction
#despair
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Inhospitable
Winter charged in
with frigid gales
icy discomfort
darkness prevails
Wicked season
mental unrest
numbed delight
misery my guest
Incessant ache
frozen to the core
longing for warmth
indifference no more
To the ocean
desire to flee
sand between my toes
where I long to be
with frigid gales
icy discomfort
darkness prevails
Wicked season
mental unrest
numbed delight
misery my guest
Incessant ache
frozen to the core
longing for warmth
indifference no more
To the ocean
desire to flee
sand between my toes
where I long to be
#winter
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Amygdala
Since I was a child
battling an internal war
an uneasy monologue
I did not learn to soar
Nothing to shield me
from monsters that do roam
never knowing safety
forced to march alone
Forever in survival mode
fight, flight or freeze
dysregulated
always ill at ease
Out of place
Is where I exist
my demons proving
difficult to resist
Combating best I can
an unseen foe to beat
persistence necessary
else will be defeat
Catastrophic thoughts
an unquiet mind ...
battling an internal war
an uneasy monologue
I did not learn to soar
Nothing to shield me
from monsters that do roam
never knowing safety
forced to march alone
Forever in survival mode
fight, flight or freeze
dysregulated
always ill at ease
Out of place
Is where I exist
my demons proving
difficult to resist
Combating best I can
an unseen foe to beat
persistence necessary
else will be defeat
Catastrophic thoughts
an unquiet mind ...
#anxiety
#dark
#LifeStruggles
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A Malady
Familiar with the conflict
feelings of hope and dread
begging for relief
hanging by a thread
Distorted emotions
no power to reign
immobilising terror
difficult to abstain
Self-doubt and insecurity
concealing shame and guilt
never fleeting fear
the reality I built
Calm exterior, a façade
masking turbulence
hiding from pain
submission to permanence
Devoid of emotion
the soul in despair
drowning in spirits
the armour I wear
feelings of hope and dread
begging for relief
hanging by a thread
Distorted emotions
no power to reign
immobilising terror
difficult to abstain
Self-doubt and insecurity
concealing shame and guilt
never fleeting fear
the reality I built
Calm exterior, a façade
masking turbulence
hiding from pain
submission to permanence
Devoid of emotion
the soul in despair
drowning in spirits
the armour I wear
#anxiety
#depression
#alcohol
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Holding Your Space
A sadness in you
I’m not meant to touch
tempest of pain
tightly to the chest you clutch
It’s alright my friend
I pass no judgement here
my place is not to mend you
that is for you my dear
Wishing I could calm you
that I might love you well
as I know your truth
and I promised not to tell
Witnessing your tears
wanting to assuage
sensing your discomfort
as they fall upon your page
In your darkness
that place where you rest
I can hold the space
but only as your guest
...
I’m not meant to touch
tempest of pain
tightly to the chest you clutch
It’s alright my friend
I pass no judgement here
my place is not to mend you
that is for you my dear
Wishing I could calm you
that I might love you well
as I know your truth
and I promised not to tell
Witnessing your tears
wanting to assuage
sensing your discomfort
as they fall upon your page
In your darkness
that place where you rest
I can hold the space
but only as your guest
...
#friendship
#support
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Despite Your Rain
Never will I fade in the shadow of your abyss
Your condemnation, badly amiss
I will always shimmer through your rain
All that I am and will ever be
Not for you to diminish so blatantly
Your ignorance magnifies my ability to shine
The memory of you shall be interred
Your imagined power, mistakenly inferred
My illuminated soul will always radiate
Your condemnation, badly amiss
I will always shimmer through your rain
All that I am and will ever be
Not for you to diminish so blatantly
Your ignorance magnifies my ability to shine
The memory of you shall be interred
Your imagined power, mistakenly inferred
My illuminated soul will always radiate
#SelfReflection
#SelfDiscovery
#SelfWorth
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