Submissions by Orc_Pirate_68 (Sabrina Kirk-Caldwell)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write on many topics, but my favorite topics are Love (particularly age-gap, and age-gap between human and humanoid mythical creatures), high seas piracy, Paganism, morbidity, and my emotions.
Pervasive, Perhaps Persuasive, Thoughts
I have my own life, and things that I do,
But every day, my mind keeps wandering back to you,
My mind and heart are in internal torment,
Arguing amongst themselves, over my heart's lament,
Out of fear, my brain says no,
But my heart says go.
Ever since I first saw you at work that day,
I've felt for you, and have wanted to say
Something, start a conversation,
Ask of you, many a question,
Get to know better, who you are,
My bright, shining star.
And let you know about me,
In the hopes that you will see ...
But every day, my mind keeps wandering back to you,
My mind and heart are in internal torment,
Arguing amongst themselves, over my heart's lament,
Out of fear, my brain says no,
But my heart says go.
Ever since I first saw you at work that day,
I've felt for you, and have wanted to say
Something, start a conversation,
Ask of you, many a question,
Get to know better, who you are,
My bright, shining star.
And let you know about me,
In the hopes that you will see ...
#hope
#confessional
#FallingInLove
#confusion
#emotions
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Don't Mess With Longhorns
I'm always trying to be rather terse,
Polished, mannerly, but I'm still fierce,
And trying to be quick to the point when I speak,
As well as kind, when I speak.
Y'all took me at my word,
Listened to every kind, and every pained word,
All about the almost ten years of subtle gaslighting from my "step-dad",
About the social anxiety you knew I had
(And still do)
And about how my crushes are usually much older, too,
So this is undoubtedly true,
Though you didn't see my day-to-day character,
You knew I had a good heart that...
Polished, mannerly, but I'm still fierce,
And trying to be quick to the point when I speak,
As well as kind, when I speak.
Y'all took me at my word,
Listened to every kind, and every pained word,
All about the almost ten years of subtle gaslighting from my "step-dad",
About the social anxiety you knew I had
(And still do)
And about how my crushes are usually much older, too,
So this is undoubtedly true,
Though you didn't see my day-to-day character,
You knew I had a good heart that...
#anger
#LifeStruggles
#bullying
#hurt
#StreamOfConsciousness
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Scrying Society
They flock to the blogs and websites,
They run to the fortune teller for insights,
Reading tarot cards, and palm lines,
Scrying the crystal ball, asking divines,
Asking about what's causing them so much strife,
Asking about their love life,
About where there's trouble, rife.
Asking for advice, online,
Reading the articles about that "one secret line"
That can get in someone's head,
And get them into their bed.
It's all about love,
And also so many confuse sex for love,
To them it's black and white, never very complex,
Just...
They run to the fortune teller for insights,
Reading tarot cards, and palm lines,
Scrying the crystal ball, asking divines,
Asking about what's causing them so much strife,
Asking about their love life,
About where there's trouble, rife.
Asking for advice, online,
Reading the articles about that "one secret line"
That can get in someone's head,
And get them into their bed.
It's all about love,
And also so many confuse sex for love,
To them it's black and white, never very complex,
Just...
#betrayal
#LifeStruggles
#frustration
#confusion
#disappointment
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Another Day
I'mma live another day,
In defiance of the one who will die that day.
Hammer there
Hammer here
In my hand,
My mind like a roving band
Of renegades
Committing raids
Across the lands
At my own bloody hands.
Hammer there in your face,
Putting you in your place,
A scene so beautiful,
So hateful,
Not for what you are,
But who you are,
You hurt me,
Hurt my mind,
And so now I find
Peace of mind,
In the pieces of your mind,
Left in this mortal plane
As you have been left...
In defiance of the one who will die that day.
Hammer there
Hammer here
In my hand,
My mind like a roving band
Of renegades
Committing raids
Across the lands
At my own bloody hands.
Hammer there in your face,
Putting you in your place,
A scene so beautiful,
So hateful,
Not for what you are,
But who you are,
You hurt me,
Hurt my mind,
And so now I find
Peace of mind,
In the pieces of your mind,
Left in this mortal plane
As you have been left...
#anger
#strength
#bullying
#hurt
#horror
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1 Comment
The Faeries
The faeries dance and swirl,
'Round and 'round they twirl,
Where they stop, they don't know,
Where they go, no one does know.
One by one they vanish,
Leaving a world to tarnish.
With their final goodbye,
No more to fly up in the sky,
Along the pleasant breeze,
To leave behind, the rain's rainbow,
Or to bask in the moon's glow.
The faeries dance and swirl,
'Round and 'round, they twirl,
A fading, dying light,
Leaving behind, this somber night.
Gone forever, a thought so sobering,
Happiness, a memory,...
'Round and 'round they twirl,
Where they stop, they don't know,
Where they go, no one does know.
One by one they vanish,
Leaving a world to tarnish.
With their final goodbye,
No more to fly up in the sky,
Along the pleasant breeze,
To leave behind, the rain's rainbow,
Or to bask in the moon's glow.
The faeries dance and swirl,
'Round and 'round, they twirl,
A fading, dying light,
Leaving behind, this somber night.
Gone forever, a thought so sobering,
Happiness, a memory,...
#dark
#fiction
#fairies
#emptiness
#StreamOfConsciousness
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Keyed Up
Alone at night,
Life, giving me a fright,
Still keyed up,
From getting worked up,
At my bistro shift,
My spirits need a lift.
Siting in the dark,
On the chair, I did park,
Playing Minecraft all night,
I needed a good zombie fight.
Into the wee hours of the morn,
I sit here, torn,
My life spiraling downward,
In a manner untoward,
But not outward,
Only in my head,
As inside, I feel dead,
With tons of social dread.
Playing my game,
My life no longer the same,
My train of thought,
Still, for...
Life, giving me a fright,
Still keyed up,
From getting worked up,
At my bistro shift,
My spirits need a lift.
Siting in the dark,
On the chair, I did park,
Playing Minecraft all night,
I needed a good zombie fight.
Into the wee hours of the morn,
I sit here, torn,
My life spiraling downward,
In a manner untoward,
But not outward,
Only in my head,
As inside, I feel dead,
With tons of social dread.
Playing my game,
My life no longer the same,
My train of thought,
Still, for...
#anxiety
#LifeStruggles
#frustration
#pagan
#StreamOfConsciousness
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I Feel Like It's Not Enough
This job's a carnival,
A carousel of people, comical,
Not knowing what to do, or where to go,
Walking 'round and 'round,
But with a destination, bound.
I feel as if I am but a jester,
Humble, but ridiculed for not going faster,
For not doing more, or doing better,
But only behind closed doors,
Not to my face, as I walk these corridors.
I feel as if they are waiting to see,
If I can be the best I can be,
And if not, they will let me go,
I don't really know.
I stand in the searing pain of their glares,
I blister and...
A carousel of people, comical,
Not knowing what to do, or where to go,
Walking 'round and 'round,
But with a destination, bound.
I feel as if I am but a jester,
Humble, but ridiculed for not going faster,
For not doing more, or doing better,
But only behind closed doors,
Not to my face, as I walk these corridors.
I feel as if they are waiting to see,
If I can be the best I can be,
And if not, they will let me go,
I don't really know.
I stand in the searing pain of their glares,
I blister and...
#sadness
#anxiety
#hope
#hurt
#fear
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Patience
Patience running thin,
This beast within,
May just win.
A melting clock, refined
Into finer metal to find
In boxes, velvet lined,
Rich and fit for a king,
Unbeknownst, a corruption ring,
Of silver, and thorns, piercing,
Tainting pure fingers,
Leaving honest thoughts, that lingers,
Spilling truths, that poke like daggers.
My dreams reach the sky,
My mind flying high,
Thoughts that will never die.
My mind is at a low dark,
A walk through a dead park,
Anger, singing like a lark.
My dreams...
This beast within,
May just win.
A melting clock, refined
Into finer metal to find
In boxes, velvet lined,
Rich and fit for a king,
Unbeknownst, a corruption ring,
Of silver, and thorns, piercing,
Tainting pure fingers,
Leaving honest thoughts, that lingers,
Spilling truths, that poke like daggers.
My dreams reach the sky,
My mind flying high,
Thoughts that will never die.
My mind is at a low dark,
A walk through a dead park,
Anger, singing like a lark.
My dreams...
#anger
#dark
#patience #frustration
#patience #frustration
67 reads
2 Comments
Cycle of Sorrow
I hate this new job,
My soul, it's trying to rob,
The building is curved,
Leaving me unnerved,
I can't see the exits,
Making hours out of minutes,
I feel lost, I don't see where the halls go,
Even though I've been down that way, and I know.
I speak little Spanish,
I'm trying to learn, but my focus does vanish,
I'm left too tired to absorb more than a quarter of info,
I don't know where in life to go.
I have a question,
To maybe help ease my tension,
And my current situational depression,
Will it always be,
What I...
My soul, it's trying to rob,
The building is curved,
Leaving me unnerved,
I can't see the exits,
Making hours out of minutes,
I feel lost, I don't see where the halls go,
Even though I've been down that way, and I know.
I speak little Spanish,
I'm trying to learn, but my focus does vanish,
I'm left too tired to absorb more than a quarter of info,
I don't know where in life to go.
I have a question,
To maybe help ease my tension,
And my current situational depression,
Will it always be,
What I...
#anxiety
#depression
#frustration
#LifeCycle
#job
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Corpses on My Fingers
In the dark of the night,
They put up not a fight,
As I pick fruit flies out of my coffee,
I have corpses on my fingers, sorry.
...What a sobering thought.
They put up not a fight,
As I pick fruit flies out of my coffee,
I have corpses on my fingers, sorry.
...What a sobering thought.
#death
#night
#coffee #StreamOfConsciousness
#coffee #StreamOfConsciousness
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Sides of Myself
Light and dark sides of a doubloon,
From lunar rock, I am hewn,
Sereph and demon, dance,
And throughout they prance
In heart and soul,
Myself, whole,
Just me,
Free.
Angles
In cycles,
Sides trilobal,
They intermingle,
Identity, welcome,
Gender, romanticism,
Sexuality, each atom,
Vibrating, and so alive,
I've found for what I've searched,
That that was untouched,
That was unknown,
My backbone,
Now shown,
Known.
Betwixt
Lady fixed,
And gentleman,
Warm, like morning sun. ...
From lunar rock, I am hewn,
Sereph and demon, dance,
And throughout they prance
In heart and soul,
Myself, whole,
Just me,
Free.
Angles
In cycles,
Sides trilobal,
They intermingle,
Identity, welcome,
Gender, romanticism,
Sexuality, each atom,
Vibrating, and so alive,
I've found for what I've searched,
That that was untouched,
That was unknown,
My backbone,
Now shown,
Known.
Betwixt
Lady fixed,
And gentleman,
Warm, like morning sun. ...
#ILoveYou
#identity
#LGBT
#MentalHealth
#pagan
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0 Comments
Imposter Syndrome
I just need to vent a minute,
Explain imposter syndrome I exhibit,
Afraid you'll see what I truly am,
An inexperienced, scared, li'l lamb.
I'm sorry to all the people I've hurt,
I've treated you like dirt,
I talked to you, then let you go
Without a word to let you know,
What I'm doing,
How we're doing,
How much I secretly still care,
That I miss you being there,
I've got a blockage to laying bare
My heart, my soul,
It's haunting me, taking it's toll.
I'm driving a freeway with no toll tag,
This is...
Explain imposter syndrome I exhibit,
Afraid you'll see what I truly am,
An inexperienced, scared, li'l lamb.
I'm sorry to all the people I've hurt,
I've treated you like dirt,
I talked to you, then let you go
Without a word to let you know,
What I'm doing,
How we're doing,
How much I secretly still care,
That I miss you being there,
I've got a blockage to laying bare
My heart, my soul,
It's haunting me, taking it's toll.
I'm driving a freeway with no toll tag,
This is...
#heartbroken
#ILoveYou
#IMissYou
#hurt
#StreamOfConsciousness
152 reads
2 Comments
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