Submissions by Liziantus-Marantus (Ivelina Boneva)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
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SELF POEM
Published
2nd Nov 2022 2:25pm
2nd Nov 2022 2:25pm
Emotional Betrayal
You were my precious mitten.
You soul was fluffy as a kitten.
Then, you scratched me with your claws.
A wound so deep I can't do my vows. But then,I realised,
you do have flaws. Your angelic voice is now playing through the halls.
A sound so calming,you forget your problems.
But now it just sounds demonic.
A sound so angelic,now terrific.
Somehow, now I don't want to hear it.
I used to love you,but now I see it. You were a devil in disguise,
but you hid it. I'm the only one that was able to see it.
I can't believe...
You soul was fluffy as a kitten.
Then, you scratched me with your claws.
A wound so deep I can't do my vows. But then,I realised,
you do have flaws. Your angelic voice is now playing through the halls.
A sound so calming,you forget your problems.
But now it just sounds demonic.
A sound so angelic,now terrific.
Somehow, now I don't want to hear it.
I used to love you,but now I see it. You were a devil in disguise,
but you hid it. I'm the only one that was able to see it.
I can't believe...
#BestFriend
#friendship
#betrayal
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SELF POEM
Published
28th Oct 2022 10:40am
28th Oct 2022 10:40am
Alone In The World
Everyday,I want to die. People is what makes me cry.
Somehow I cannot apply. But why can't I just die?
All I tried was to fly,but people,all they did was lie.
They made me cry on purpose, when all I wanted was to socialize.
I don't fit in, now I realise. I tried to, so many times.
But I guess I do not fit in. The walls here are too thin.
Everybody can hear you sin. Especially if you are on a screen.
Everything you do can be seen. They say my sanity is too thin.
I hide my pain behind a screen. My fake smile is all that's seen.
...
Somehow I cannot apply. But why can't I just die?
All I tried was to fly,but people,all they did was lie.
They made me cry on purpose, when all I wanted was to socialize.
I don't fit in, now I realise. I tried to, so many times.
But I guess I do not fit in. The walls here are too thin.
Everybody can hear you sin. Especially if you are on a screen.
Everything you do can be seen. They say my sanity is too thin.
I hide my pain behind a screen. My fake smile is all that's seen.
...
#depression
#loneliness
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SELF POEM
Published
25th Oct 2022 1:25pm
25th Oct 2022 1:25pm
Fear Of Trust
I insisted you should atleast try. But instead,you told me a lie.
After all this time, you said goodbye.
That hurt me, I'm telling this as I cry. Now I can't even fly.
Meanwhile everyone is up in the sky.
I will never forget all the times we had.
I trusted you ,even when you treated me bad.
Because I had nobody to rant.
All I wanted was someone to talk.
But instead, all they did was bark.
I hid myself in a wooden shack,
to escape all the problems I had.
But eventually,they got me,and stole all my money.
...
After all this time, you said goodbye.
That hurt me, I'm telling this as I cry. Now I can't even fly.
Meanwhile everyone is up in the sky.
I will never forget all the times we had.
I trusted you ,even when you treated me bad.
Because I had nobody to rant.
All I wanted was someone to talk.
But instead, all they did was bark.
I hid myself in a wooden shack,
to escape all the problems I had.
But eventually,they got me,and stole all my money.
...
#depression
#ImSorry
#heartbroken
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Oct 2022 2:10pm
14th Oct 2022 2:10pm
The Right Direction
Everyone has somewhere to go.
Except me,that's not how my life will go.
For some,I'm just an ugly troll.
These people haven't even gotten to know me.
A witch is not what I want them to call me.
I was scared,and so they started to mock me.
Tears fell down my cheeks as I bled.
Now my hair is even starting to shed.
I think about it as I lay down on my bed.
My pillow is soaked from all the tears I shed.
It hurts,and so I fall asleep on my bed.
Dreaming of a happy Candyland.
My dreams take me to places, you...
Except me,that's not how my life will go.
For some,I'm just an ugly troll.
These people haven't even gotten to know me.
A witch is not what I want them to call me.
I was scared,and so they started to mock me.
Tears fell down my cheeks as I bled.
Now my hair is even starting to shed.
I think about it as I lay down on my bed.
My pillow is soaked from all the tears I shed.
It hurts,and so I fall asleep on my bed.
Dreaming of a happy Candyland.
My dreams take me to places, you...
#depression
#loneliness
#LifeStruggles
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SELF POEM
Published
30th Sep 2022 3:33pm
30th Sep 2022 3:33pm
Puzzle Of Emotions
You told me you are flying high.
At the time,I was beneath the sky.
My wings were cut off,and so I die. When they grew back,
I was told to lie. Because nobody had sympathy for my past.
I told them,and they laughed fast. And so,my roots got worse fast.
I couldn't trust anyone,because of the past.
On my face is a coat
of depression,that lasts. But it's not visible for everybody.
For people,I am just a nobody. No matter the age,they are above me.
Apparently my opinions don't matter,a nobody.
Even though inside I'm dying,I...
At the time,I was beneath the sky.
My wings were cut off,and so I die. When they grew back,
I was told to lie. Because nobody had sympathy for my past.
I told them,and they laughed fast. And so,my roots got worse fast.
I couldn't trust anyone,because of the past.
On my face is a coat
of depression,that lasts. But it's not visible for everybody.
For people,I am just a nobody. No matter the age,they are above me.
Apparently my opinions don't matter,a nobody.
Even though inside I'm dying,I...
#depression
#dark
#emotions
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SELF POEM
Published
22nd Sep 2022 3:07pm
22nd Sep 2022 3:07pm
Painful Memories
I really tried to communicate. But your behavior seemed so fake.
I told you I love you,but you didn't reply.
I guess all of it was just a lie.
I needed your help and you went away to fly.
That gave me a hard time,and so I cry.
Maybe my whole life was a lie.
You came and put jewels on my head.
I felt special,a bond,I wept.
But you stole the crown and gave it to another.
All night, I cried to my mother.
But even she didn't understand the pain I felt.
At the end,all I did was melt. And so then he came
,and...
I told you I love you,but you didn't reply.
I guess all of it was just a lie.
I needed your help and you went away to fly.
That gave me a hard time,and so I cry.
Maybe my whole life was a lie.
You came and put jewels on my head.
I felt special,a bond,I wept.
But you stole the crown and gave it to another.
All night, I cried to my mother.
But even she didn't understand the pain I felt.
At the end,all I did was melt. And so then he came
,and...
#depression
#forgiveness
#heartbroken
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SELF POEM
Published
8th Sep 2022 8:12am
8th Sep 2022 8:12am
Sailing Sadness
I traveled all over the seas. Yet you are saying I'm making scenes.
My mind is beyond repair. I breathed so much of that dangerous air,
now I am in the middle of nowhere. I may not be stable ,so beware.
But that does not mean I'm not a good person.
I can be obsessive,and I know the reason.
But forgive me if I hurt you. I didn't mean to hurt you.
The sky just isn't clear today. I tried to hide and run away.
But the storm got me,so I start to decay.
Oh, help me find the way to happiness.
I am lost in the woods of depression....
My mind is beyond repair. I breathed so much of that dangerous air,
now I am in the middle of nowhere. I may not be stable ,so beware.
But that does not mean I'm not a good person.
I can be obsessive,and I know the reason.
But forgive me if I hurt you. I didn't mean to hurt you.
The sky just isn't clear today. I tried to hide and run away.
But the storm got me,so I start to decay.
Oh, help me find the way to happiness.
I am lost in the woods of depression....
#sadness
#depression
#dark #emotions
#dark #emotions
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SELF POEM
Published
3rd Sep 2022 12:29pm
3rd Sep 2022 12:29pm
Traveling Emotions
My heart is traveling on the side avenue. Will I stumble upon love?
I don't know,it's true. One day I will be able to see through emotions.
But before that, I must figure out my own emotions.
I mustn't take shortcuts on the way.
I'm trying to keep the toxic people away.
I've spent time doing this night and day.
My legs hurt from walking all that way.
A shadow appeared on the light of day.
This made the air feel toxic,so help me run away.
Because I may never see the light, starting from today.
This is making me crazy,...
I don't know,it's true. One day I will be able to see through emotions.
But before that, I must figure out my own emotions.
I mustn't take shortcuts on the way.
I'm trying to keep the toxic people away.
I've spent time doing this night and day.
My legs hurt from walking all that way.
A shadow appeared on the light of day.
This made the air feel toxic,so help me run away.
Because I may never see the light, starting from today.
This is making me crazy,...
#depression
#emotions
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SELF POEM
Published
24th Aug 2022 4:45pm
24th Aug 2022 4:45pm
My Mental Wounds
I hopped on the train with a heart full of pain.
I followed the direction of gain and fame.
Only to realise nobody cares about my pain.
The rain hit me like a rock on the head.
It burned my skin with its acid. I ate meat and cherries to stop it.
I can't, and I didn't even realise it. I wore a black cape to hide it.
I wasn't even proud of it. But once, I had loved it.
But that shattered into pieces.
My mind is like a puzzle with a lot of pieces.
None even tried to put it together.
I feel like I'll be alone forever. I was...
I followed the direction of gain and fame.
Only to realise nobody cares about my pain.
The rain hit me like a rock on the head.
It burned my skin with its acid. I ate meat and cherries to stop it.
I can't, and I didn't even realise it. I wore a black cape to hide it.
I wasn't even proud of it. But once, I had loved it.
But that shattered into pieces.
My mind is like a puzzle with a lot of pieces.
None even tried to put it together.
I feel like I'll be alone forever. I was...
#sadness
#depression
#dark
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SELF POEM
Published
16th Aug 2022 4:17pm
16th Aug 2022 4:17pm
Fake Promises
I followed your direction. Now I understand I have no choice,
but to do a dissection. I was active at sports.
Now around me are broken pots. To relieve the pain, I took shots.
Shots with an emotional spark.
Now everything is getting blurry and dark.
I just want light,or a spark. I lost a lot of weight.
Oh, all the tears I shed. I didn't want to be made.
All I wanted was the friendship I create.
But nature stopped me from my fate. Everything I created shattered.
It's like I never mattered. I was obedient,your slave.
Now...
but to do a dissection. I was active at sports.
Now around me are broken pots. To relieve the pain, I took shots.
Shots with an emotional spark.
Now everything is getting blurry and dark.
I just want light,or a spark. I lost a lot of weight.
Oh, all the tears I shed. I didn't want to be made.
All I wanted was the friendship I create.
But nature stopped me from my fate. Everything I created shattered.
It's like I never mattered. I was obedient,your slave.
Now...
#sadness
#depression
#heartbroken
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Aug 2022 1:29pm
7th Aug 2022 1:29pm
Choker Of Emotions
You replaced me the moment you thought I'm boring.
A trauma is what is forming. Now all my bones are broken.
You choked me with your lies. None hears my cries,
Even if they are in the same boat. You broke my heart in two.
I thought you loved me too. But I guess I can't see through.
I was a fool for your love. Oh,it's making me mad.
You thought my material is cheap. Now every night I weep.
In my soul,the thoughts I sweep. But I can't listen to this song no more.
In my heart, it's making a hole. And nothing can fill it all.
...
A trauma is what is forming. Now all my bones are broken.
You choked me with your lies. None hears my cries,
Even if they are in the same boat. You broke my heart in two.
I thought you loved me too. But I guess I can't see through.
I was a fool for your love. Oh,it's making me mad.
You thought my material is cheap. Now every night I weep.
In my soul,the thoughts I sweep. But I can't listen to this song no more.
In my heart, it's making a hole. And nothing can fill it all.
...
#depression
#heartbroken
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SELF POEM
Published
2nd Aug 2022 2:38pm
2nd Aug 2022 2:38pm
Demons Of My Heart
I told you that's not what I like. But you told me already to fight.
Your sentences broke my heart into three.
Oh, will I ever flee? You thought I'm stupid,but that's not how it is.
I had to drink venom on a daily basis. Now I can't recognize the voices.
I only hear screeching noises. The voices were pleasent,
now they are death threats. I just want my happiness to return.
But instead I tend to burn. My lip hurts from all the biting.
There's no point of fighting, if nobody's on my side.
I'm lost in space and there's no air to breathe. ...
Your sentences broke my heart into three.
Oh, will I ever flee? You thought I'm stupid,but that's not how it is.
I had to drink venom on a daily basis. Now I can't recognize the voices.
I only hear screeching noises. The voices were pleasent,
now they are death threats. I just want my happiness to return.
But instead I tend to burn. My lip hurts from all the biting.
There's no point of fighting, if nobody's on my side.
I'm lost in space and there's no air to breathe. ...
#depression
#loneliness
#heartbroken
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