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POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Shattered
Meth and coke stole my dad and bro
Popping pills stole my moms soul
The blade made me lose all hope
What the fuck happened to our
Family though
We all got lost in our horrible addictions
Trying to find something to
Numb our inner demons
Now we are nothing but a broken home
A shattered family
That lost all hope
Popping pills stole my moms soul
The blade made me lose all hope
What the fuck happened to our
Family though
We all got lost in our horrible addictions
Trying to find something to
Numb our inner demons
Now we are nothing but a broken home
A shattered family
That lost all hope
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Mom
I know you may not think so
But I am trying so hard
I知 not like this on purpose
I didn稚 chose to be like this
I知 trying my very best
To keep it together
But I知 slowly losing it
I don稚 know what you want from me
I知 sorry I知 not the daughter you wanted
I知 sorry I知 suicidal
I知 sorry I cut myself
I知 sorry I hate myself
Please just give me a sign
I don稚 know what to do
Will I ever be good enough for you?
If you only knew how much I struggle
In this war with myself
Maybe you壇 be there to pick me up off the floor...
But I am trying so hard
I知 not like this on purpose
I didn稚 chose to be like this
I知 trying my very best
To keep it together
But I知 slowly losing it
I don稚 know what you want from me
I知 sorry I知 not the daughter you wanted
I知 sorry I知 suicidal
I知 sorry I cut myself
I知 sorry I hate myself
Please just give me a sign
I don稚 know what to do
Will I ever be good enough for you?
If you only knew how much I struggle
In this war with myself
Maybe you壇 be there to pick me up off the floor...
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I Wonder
I wonder how many
Suicide attempts
Mental break downs
Nights crying
Nights cutting
Will it take for you to
Realize I resemble a glass
That once you crack me
I'll break
And no matter how many
Times you try to put me
Back together it won't work
I'll just break even more
I'll never be whole again
I'm just broken
Suicide attempts
Mental break downs
Nights crying
Nights cutting
Will it take for you to
Realize I resemble a glass
That once you crack me
I'll break
And no matter how many
Times you try to put me
Back together it won't work
I'll just break even more
I'll never be whole again
I'm just broken
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Never Thought
I never thought I'd feel this way
I'm broken down inside
I can't even live with myself
I always thought I'd make it through
That I'd be strong
But now, I never thought I'd let myself
Get this bad
I feel numb
It's like I'm frozen in time
I'm just wasting away
I'm no longer a person
I'm just a shell with no soul
I try to fight what goes on in my head
But its getting hard
And I'm losing my god damn mind
Now I just sit here staring at my life
Paralyzed
Horrified at the person
I have become
I'm broken down inside
I can't even live with myself
I always thought I'd make it through
That I'd be strong
But now, I never thought I'd let myself
Get this bad
I feel numb
It's like I'm frozen in time
I'm just wasting away
I'm no longer a person
I'm just a shell with no soul
I try to fight what goes on in my head
But its getting hard
And I'm losing my god damn mind
Now I just sit here staring at my life
Paralyzed
Horrified at the person
I have become
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Impulse
Sometimes thoughts and temptations
Become too much
Then words turn into actions
You pull the blade across your wrist
Put the gun to your head
You lose all hope
You start question yourself and your life
You've completely lost touch with reality
Your so consumed in this pain
That you'll do whatever it takes to
Make it go away
And by the time someone tries to save you
It's too late
You can no longer be saved
Little did they know
That you died a long time
Ago
Become too much
Then words turn into actions
You pull the blade across your wrist
Put the gun to your head
You lose all hope
You start question yourself and your life
You've completely lost touch with reality
Your so consumed in this pain
That you'll do whatever it takes to
Make it go away
And by the time someone tries to save you
It's too late
You can no longer be saved
Little did they know
That you died a long time
Ago
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I Lose
Everyday you tell me its gonna be okay
That things will get better
But right now in this moment
Nothing is fucking okay
I've been this way for 4 fucking years
If things were gonna get better they would have
But no, its resulted in
2 failed suicide attempts and a self harm addiction
And still your gonna sit here and tell me that
Its gonna be okay, it'll get better
Its not fucking okay and its not getting better
I'm getting fucking worse
This isn't a life I wanna live
If you knew what the fuck went on in my head
You'd understand why I want...
That things will get better
But right now in this moment
Nothing is fucking okay
I've been this way for 4 fucking years
If things were gonna get better they would have
But no, its resulted in
2 failed suicide attempts and a self harm addiction
And still your gonna sit here and tell me that
Its gonna be okay, it'll get better
Its not fucking okay and its not getting better
I'm getting fucking worse
This isn't a life I wanna live
If you knew what the fuck went on in my head
You'd understand why I want...
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What Happened
Don't know whats going on
What went wrong?
You turned into the person you said
You'd never become
Still can't believe you're
Gone
Now these walls have been built around me
With the story of our life
What the fuck happened to us?
Who have we become?
Your in jail fighting to survive
While I question why I'm still alive
You were consumed by the drugs
I was consumed by the depression
Why did things half to be this way
We both changed for the worst
Your my big brother
I'm suppose to look up to you
What the fuck happened to...
What went wrong?
You turned into the person you said
You'd never become
Still can't believe you're
Gone
Now these walls have been built around me
With the story of our life
What the fuck happened to us?
Who have we become?
Your in jail fighting to survive
While I question why I'm still alive
You were consumed by the drugs
I was consumed by the depression
Why did things half to be this way
We both changed for the worst
Your my big brother
I'm suppose to look up to you
What the fuck happened to...
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Jealousy
I've got the devils disease
I've got jealousy in me
You stole my heart and then
You just left
But little did you know that
Hell ends with me
And I was your ticket free
But you still go and walk out on me
So I'll drink
I'll drink until you love me
And I'll still wake up thinking of you
Because you are the devil in me
All I wanted was you
And all the fairy tales you told me
But then you put the dagger in me
You wanted to see if I'd bleed
To see if you could hurt me
But now I left the dagger in you
So you could have a taste...
I've got jealousy in me
You stole my heart and then
You just left
But little did you know that
Hell ends with me
And I was your ticket free
But you still go and walk out on me
So I'll drink
I'll drink until you love me
And I'll still wake up thinking of you
Because you are the devil in me
All I wanted was you
And all the fairy tales you told me
But then you put the dagger in me
You wanted to see if I'd bleed
To see if you could hurt me
But now I left the dagger in you
So you could have a taste...
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Taken
I was stuck in false reality
You were there, thrashing everything
But I know what you've done
We all know how to fake it
But there's no way to hide your a killer
A child of the wild one
You got no where left to run
You just wanted to be free
But freedom came with a price
You had to take a life
But who do you believe
Once you've lost touch with reality
All you know is gone
There's no turning back
Once you've taken a life
You no longer have a home
Then you realize that the life you have taken
Was your own
You were there, thrashing everything
But I know what you've done
We all know how to fake it
But there's no way to hide your a killer
A child of the wild one
You got no where left to run
You just wanted to be free
But freedom came with a price
You had to take a life
But who do you believe
Once you've lost touch with reality
All you know is gone
There's no turning back
Once you've taken a life
You no longer have a home
Then you realize that the life you have taken
Was your own
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Trying
I am words on a page
The dust in the wind
The face in the mirror
I am the scars on my skin
Inflicted in times of darkness
Pain deep within
I have regrets
I'm no saint
But I'm only human
I have hope that in time
My wounds will heal
That one day
I will truly know
How happiness
Feels
The dust in the wind
The face in the mirror
I am the scars on my skin
Inflicted in times of darkness
Pain deep within
I have regrets
I'm no saint
But I'm only human
I have hope that in time
My wounds will heal
That one day
I will truly know
How happiness
Feels
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Locked Out
Let me pick apart your heart
Let me inside
Where only your darkest thoughts
Are kept
Let me amuse your mind as you do mine
Your heart is in distress
You won't confess,so desperate to connect
You can't live like this
You've lost so much
You are consumed by thoughts of fear and distrust
You've locked up your heart
You won't let anyone in
You don't wanna get burned again
But love isn't fair my dear
That's just how it is
Love isn't safe and it doesn't make sense
So I understand why your heart is in distress
But I don't wanna...
Let me inside
Where only your darkest thoughts
Are kept
Let me amuse your mind as you do mine
Your heart is in distress
You won't confess,so desperate to connect
You can't live like this
You've lost so much
You are consumed by thoughts of fear and distrust
You've locked up your heart
You won't let anyone in
You don't wanna get burned again
But love isn't fair my dear
That's just how it is
Love isn't safe and it doesn't make sense
So I understand why your heart is in distress
But I don't wanna...
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Fallling
You showed me how to love
You showed me that there is light in this world
You taught me that it's okay to be myself
I never imagined falling this hard
Now I long for your touch
The way when you'd kiss me your hands wander
Up and down my spine
The way you'd would kiss my neck
But it wasn't just a lust
When I looked into your eyes
I saw happiness,I saw hope
You saved me from the dark
You saved me from myself
And in the process
You stole my heart
You showed me that there is light in this world
You taught me that it's okay to be myself
I never imagined falling this hard
Now I long for your touch
The way when you'd kiss me your hands wander
Up and down my spine
The way you'd would kiss my neck
But it wasn't just a lust
When I looked into your eyes
I saw happiness,I saw hope
You saved me from the dark
You saved me from myself
And in the process
You stole my heart
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