Submissions by DarkPopPrincess (Princess Alia)
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Poet Introduction
Writer from the grave XXX
A Job Like This
I remember the last time I worked, 2022.
By 31, you'd expect me to be an office dweller,
but what if I told you I don't wanna be?
That being a bagger at Kroger felt free?
Wind blowing on my face
as I embraced the sun.
Nothing better than being outside
and enjoying remnants of nature,
having a mindless job that allows you to think
on greater things.
You may say I could do better,
but what if I told you
nothing gets better than this?
Nothing better than a job like this.
By 31, you'd expect me to be an office dweller,
but what if I told you I don't wanna be?
That being a bagger at Kroger felt free?
Wind blowing on my face
as I embraced the sun.
Nothing better than being outside
and enjoying remnants of nature,
having a mindless job that allows you to think
on greater things.
You may say I could do better,
but what if I told you
nothing gets better than this?
Nothing better than a job like this.
#job
#SelfReflection
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I Ain't It
I never knew if you existed;
I still don't.
I wanted to believe,
but these days, I can't even pray.
I'm reminded of how I don't measure up
You say don't be unequally yoked;
Well, fuck you, only the skeptics are there for me.
You say don't sleep before marriage;
again, fuck you, ain't believing in that Puritanical bullshit.
If you want me to give you a laundry list,
I have hampers full of reasons
this just ain't cutting it.
What do you even want, Jesus?
Do you want me to tape my mouth
and play the...
I still don't.
I wanted to believe,
but these days, I can't even pray.
I'm reminded of how I don't measure up
You say don't be unequally yoked;
Well, fuck you, only the skeptics are there for me.
You say don't sleep before marriage;
again, fuck you, ain't believing in that Puritanical bullshit.
If you want me to give you a laundry list,
I have hampers full of reasons
this just ain't cutting it.
What do you even want, Jesus?
Do you want me to tape my mouth
and play the...
#Christian
#religion
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If I'm Gonna Die, I Wanna Still Be Me.
Last night, I was speaking to a friend about the dark truth of human nature. And one thing he said stood out to me. He said he saw a meme once about an ape having a discussion with a man. The man gloated about mankind and its accomplishments. All the ape could say was "Yes, that's true and good. However, you have to pay to live on this planet, and I don't."
This is why I don't think money is merely a tool like I've been told. I told my friend that it's a way to exert power and control over others. I also told him that I don't blame anyone for wanting to kill themselves at...
This is why I don't think money is merely a tool like I've been told. I told my friend that it's a way to exert power and control over others. I also told him that I don't blame anyone for wanting to kill themselves at...
#humankind
#LifeStruggles
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Typical
Since I was on the topic last time about body image, I might as well make another post about it. This time about plastic surgery than weight issues.
I'm going to try to be as transparent as I can, although I probably still worry what people think of me.
Creating my alter ego character, Alia has really helped me when it has come to body image issues. Because I created her to look very similar to me. On the slender side yet curvy and breasts that aren't that big. There are probably many factors that have played a role as well. But Alia plays a huge role. Her looking...
I'm going to try to be as transparent as I can, although I probably still worry what people think of me.
Creating my alter ego character, Alia has really helped me when it has come to body image issues. Because I created her to look very similar to me. On the slender side yet curvy and breasts that aren't that big. There are probably many factors that have played a role as well. But Alia plays a huge role. Her looking...
#SelfReflection
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Exhausted
Watching body positive media for me is like putting a band aid on a much deeper cut. It's comforting for the moment, but isn't a quick fix.
Trying on a pair of shorts yesterday that were tighter than usual, I still find that I'm triggered deeply by things like this happening. My perfectionist tendencies want to still go haywire. While I didn't fully panic, I still subconsciously was feeling helpless about it.
Hurricane Beryl hit here in Texas and made our power go out. My mom and I share one car, and more than one time, my mom would be gone with it before I even got up....
Trying on a pair of shorts yesterday that were tighter than usual, I still find that I'm triggered deeply by things like this happening. My perfectionist tendencies want to still go haywire. While I didn't fully panic, I still subconsciously was feeling helpless about it.
Hurricane Beryl hit here in Texas and made our power go out. My mom and I share one car, and more than one time, my mom would be gone with it before I even got up....
#EatingDisorder
#SelfReflection
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Never Selling My Soul
Money isn't a terrible motivator for me. Greed isn't one of my deadly sins.
I merely see money as a means to an end and nothing more. I don't believe it truly makes anyone more important or significant. It's a way to survive in this world I never liked. That's it.
Navigating the need to make money while staying true to myself is surely a slippery slope.
Because I don't want to slide in the lava that looked like water.
I merely see money as a means to an end and nothing more. I don't believe it truly makes anyone more important or significant. It's a way to survive in this world I never liked. That's it.
Navigating the need to make money while staying true to myself is surely a slippery slope.
Because I don't want to slide in the lava that looked like water.
#corruption
#greed
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Role Model
I thought of something just now. That someday, I’m going to be a music artist one day, and I will be influencing others.
And I’m curious what people will think of me. Will they look to me as a role model? Someone to truly imitate? Someone to truly look up to?
I honestly have a gripe with that word.
I don’t want to be considered a role model at all. I notice that I want to avoid that word to describe myself. Because all my life, I’ve thought of myself as the devil. I am not a saint nor an angel, I’ll guarantee you that.
If that’s what people are...
And I’m curious what people will think of me. Will they look to me as a role model? Someone to truly imitate? Someone to truly look up to?
I honestly have a gripe with that word.
I don’t want to be considered a role model at all. I notice that I want to avoid that word to describe myself. Because all my life, I’ve thought of myself as the devil. I am not a saint nor an angel, I’ll guarantee you that.
If that’s what people are...
#courage
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Mommy, Why Didn't You Love Me...?
We’re counting on you, Diana,” Alia stated. “We know you can do it.”
“You’re so stupid!” my mom is saying in these horrible flashbacks.
“Grow up, grow up!” My dad spanked me hard as I cry tears no truly cares about.
“You’re such a brat.”
“Wear a bra, bitch.”
“You’re just looking for problems!”
“So ungrateful!”
Alia is asking me to do the unthinkable. She believes in me. Someone finally believes in me…
She wants me to go back to the house where it all happened. Cameras are all set up there. I know what will...
“You’re so stupid!” my mom is saying in these horrible flashbacks.
“Grow up, grow up!” My dad spanked me hard as I cry tears no truly cares about.
“You’re such a brat.”
“Wear a bra, bitch.”
“You’re just looking for problems!”
“So ungrateful!”
Alia is asking me to do the unthinkable. She believes in me. Someone finally believes in me…
She wants me to go back to the house where it all happened. Cameras are all set up there. I know what will...
#abuse
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Animal I Become
Was listening to Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace. Hence the title of this post. My hands are shaking, the rage is so intense in my body. Instead of “Animal I Have Become,” I’m using the present tense.
I have so much rage that I feel fuzzy minded. Everything around me is spinning, and I’m on the verge of screaming at anything going wrong. I have a fucking headache. I should probably shower soon and cleanse all this horrible energy off me.
I don’t want to go downstairs and deal with the one person who’s been a source of so much pain- my mother. It can be such a...
I have so much rage that I feel fuzzy minded. Everything around me is spinning, and I’m on the verge of screaming at anything going wrong. I have a fucking headache. I should probably shower soon and cleanse all this horrible energy off me.
I don’t want to go downstairs and deal with the one person who’s been a source of so much pain- my mother. It can be such a...
#abuse
#anger
#family #hate
#family #hate
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Exposure Therapy
For many people, it seems like my decision to bring Josh back into my life was a faulty one.
But for me, it wasn't.
Actually the best decision I ever truly made.
I've been told before that I gave my power away by deciding to have sex with him, but I don’t regret that decision.
Actually I took my power back by letting myself see what would have happened perhaps if I had not said crazy things that drove him away to begin with. Like watching a discontinued show now come back on.
Now, I can see more clearly instead of merely staying in...
But for me, it wasn't.
Actually the best decision I ever truly made.
I've been told before that I gave my power away by deciding to have sex with him, but I don’t regret that decision.
Actually I took my power back by letting myself see what would have happened perhaps if I had not said crazy things that drove him away to begin with. Like watching a discontinued show now come back on.
Now, I can see more clearly instead of merely staying in...
#MovingOn
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Eat This, Fattie!
I remember being in the mental hospital months and months ago. The last time I was in a place like that, around March I think.
It was a new hospital, so I hoped for a new experience. A fresh start.
But by far, it has been the worst.
I don't get what these employees have about forcing the patients to eat all of their food even when they are unable to. But it's super fucking abusive.
This one bitch in particular was tormenting me over my inability to eat everything on my plate, and when I succumbed to it finally and showed her I couldn't eat it...
It was a new hospital, so I hoped for a new experience. A fresh start.
But by far, it has been the worst.
I don't get what these employees have about forcing the patients to eat all of their food even when they are unable to. But it's super fucking abusive.
This one bitch in particular was tormenting me over my inability to eat everything on my plate, and when I succumbed to it finally and showed her I couldn't eat it...
#abuse
#anger
#hate
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Bratty, Little White Girl
I remember a guy long ago commenting on YouTube, saying that he loved Ariana Grande's bratty ways. Reflecting on that, I've been dwelling on the fact that it's something I love about myself. Particularly as a white girl who grew up in a thin, privileged body. I wasn't one of those girls who had to suffer with an eating disorder to be this way. I just was that way by default. I was also a little above middle class by default. My dad was a chemical engineer, so I could buy $500 worth of clothes within one week.
Yes, I was that bratty, little white girl.
And I still am that...
Yes, I was that bratty, little white girl.
And I still am that...
#SelfReflection
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