Submissions by DarkPopPrincess (Princess Alia)
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Published
Today 12:57pm
Today 12:57pm
Roses
The guy who asked sadly what's my future?
The guy who offered to live together.
The guy who wanted to go on dates before sex.
The guy who wanted to know about my art.
The guy who seemed romantically interested
and yet said he wasn't.
Coward.
I know Lenny said that maybe he wants to get to know the people he fucks personally, and that I have a victim mentality for not feeling special enough.
I'm tired of people saying I interpret everything wrong.
I said Josh is a coward.
Now, I hate roses because I want to break...
The guy who offered to live together.
The guy who wanted to go on dates before sex.
The guy who wanted to know about my art.
The guy who seemed romantically interested
and yet said he wasn't.
Coward.
I know Lenny said that maybe he wants to get to know the people he fucks personally, and that I have a victim mentality for not feeling special enough.
I'm tired of people saying I interpret everything wrong.
I said Josh is a coward.
Now, I hate roses because I want to break...
#ForbiddenLove
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Published
Yesterday 11:15pm
Yesterday 11:15pm
Special
I'm crawling my way out of the dark, but the dark is too thick. Thickened by the lies of this world. That if you push things down far enough, that they'll go away. That those who just wanted to be validated have a victim mentality. That this world was for me.
No, it wasn't, and it's not my fault.
But I still try to find fault within myself for being an outcast.
For not being special for anyone.
I still can't understand why Lenny, my friend I recently blocked, had to say I had a victim mentality just for me saying that I wasn't special to Josh and...
No, it wasn't, and it's not my fault.
But I still try to find fault within myself for being an outcast.
For not being special for anyone.
I still can't understand why Lenny, my friend I recently blocked, had to say I had a victim mentality just for me saying that I wasn't special to Josh and...
#apathy
#heartbroken
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Published
15th Nov 2024 10:01pm
15th Nov 2024 10:01pm
Tears of Life
All my life, I have been treated like a psychopath. An irredeemable person who deserved nothing good.
And I wonder why...I still have these tears of life. Why it seems I still care.
My teacher at 16 told me how much I didn't care about my father when he died.
I had nothing left of myself.
Then, when I fell hard for a boy, it was after that I realized I could feel all along.
And I did. I did have a heart.
And I wonder why...I still have these tears of life. Why it seems I still care.
My teacher at 16 told me how much I didn't care about my father when he died.
I had nothing left of myself.
Then, when I fell hard for a boy, it was after that I realized I could feel all along.
And I did. I did have a heart.
#love
#redemption
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Published
15th Nov 2024 5:04pm
15th Nov 2024 5:04pm
Why I'm Not Interested in Dating
I see other guys as jealous gods trying to gaslight me and dishonor the one part of my past that lit up my world: Josh. Interesting that in Hebrew, his name means "He rescues."
Sigh. I rather sit here, stirring my cup, in a daze. Wondering.
Than to be with men who are cruel and are the real ones who made me feel used.
I guess I will be waiting till marriage now, but there will be no guy. Only me.
I was told by Lenny that I think that people should be jealous of Josh.
No.
They ARE jealous.
I'm not...
Sigh. I rather sit here, stirring my cup, in a daze. Wondering.
Than to be with men who are cruel and are the real ones who made me feel used.
I guess I will be waiting till marriage now, but there will be no guy. Only me.
I was told by Lenny that I think that people should be jealous of Josh.
No.
They ARE jealous.
I'm not...
#ForbiddenLove
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Published
14th Nov 2024 2:24pm
14th Nov 2024 2:24pm
Confined: Close Scene
Author’s Note:
Sarah, Confined, Scenes
At one point, I was blabbing on about how our situation was like that song, Close by Nick Jonas. How “space was just a word made up by someone who’s afraid to get close.”
He said he was not afraid of anything, not even death.
Like I said, and I will say this a million times, I should have taken this a hint, a sign of romantic disinterest.
Hell, I should have just shut up in general and made this into what it was going to be- a beyond soul-gripping fuckship.
Like Kesha sang in her Blah, Blah, Blah song, “Don’t be a little...
Sarah, Confined, Scenes
At one point, I was blabbing on about how our situation was like that song, Close by Nick Jonas. How “space was just a word made up by someone who’s afraid to get close.”
He said he was not afraid of anything, not even death.
Like I said, and I will say this a million times, I should have taken this a hint, a sign of romantic disinterest.
Hell, I should have just shut up in general and made this into what it was going to be- a beyond soul-gripping fuckship.
Like Kesha sang in her Blah, Blah, Blah song, “Don’t be a little...
#ForbiddenLove
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Published
14th Nov 2024 2:23pm
14th Nov 2024 2:23pm
Confined: Daddy Wasn't There To Save Me scene
Author's Note: Hey guys this is a scene from my memoir, Confined. To explain it a little bit, this is something that takes place early in my friendship with J or Jason. I invited him to my car one while we were at work as parking attendants. I just wanted us to sit more comfortably, but something about it didn't feel right at all, and I couldn't understand why.
Here are important questions I want answered or critiqued around:
1. How do I insert this in the story? Should I tell the story as I've told it before, like nothing is wrong and then tell this later? What is a...
Here are important questions I want answered or critiqued around:
1. How do I insert this in the story? Should I tell the story as I've told it before, like nothing is wrong and then tell this later? What is a...
#ForbiddenLove
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Published
13th Nov 2024 2:15pm
13th Nov 2024 2:15pm
Confined autofiction memoir scenes 0
Author’s Note: Hey guys! This is my memoir, Confined. It’s about a girl named Alia (who is me, but it is explained why she is changed in very minor aspects) who wakes up in an inescapable place that mirrors her being trapped in the past. All because of a man who she “loved.” This is a tale of a growing obsession, the blurred lines between fact and fantasy, and more. Which brings me to my last point… I don’t know if I can honestly do my two fictional novels that I had in mind (this includes Equidistant). Because it doesn’t represent reality, and as a person with mental illness, I don’t know if...
#ForbiddenLove
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Published
13th Nov 2024 2:09pm
13th Nov 2024 2:09pm
Telling My Story Without Shame
Finally ready to tell my story,
raw and free.
I will no longer let people in my life who tell me I have a victim mentality
or that I'm not trying hard enough.
It is low vibrational energy.
They do not have a growth mindset.
They do not know true love and compassion and forgiveness.
I am not just the villain who will get what she deserved in the end.
I will be a girl who will find out what love truly is.
raw and free.
I will no longer let people in my life who tell me I have a victim mentality
or that I'm not trying hard enough.
It is low vibrational energy.
They do not have a growth mindset.
They do not know true love and compassion and forgiveness.
I am not just the villain who will get what she deserved in the end.
I will be a girl who will find out what love truly is.
#love
#motivational
#TimeHeals
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Published
12th Nov 2024 8:40pm
12th Nov 2024 8:40pm
The Love I'm Seeking
I do not seek stone that is the Christians,
always holding so tightly to their doctrine,
ready to point out offense towards God.
Ready to give you verses and relay
"the truth."
I talked with one in particular,
and it was a disheartening experience.
I merely made a joke,
and he accused me of
offending his God.
Oh, dear Lord,
please tell me that love is more
than stone.
Please tell me I can still be special
and not a slave to ritual.
I must be free...
I have to be free!
...
always holding so tightly to their doctrine,
ready to point out offense towards God.
Ready to give you verses and relay
"the truth."
I talked with one in particular,
and it was a disheartening experience.
I merely made a joke,
and he accused me of
offending his God.
Oh, dear Lord,
please tell me that love is more
than stone.
Please tell me I can still be special
and not a slave to ritual.
I must be free...
I have to be free!
...
#Christian
#grief
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Published
12th Nov 2024 7:08pm
12th Nov 2024 7:08pm
The Lonely Mew
Imagine being told all your life that you're Pikachu
when really you're the rarest like Mew.
That's what it's like being me.
That's what it's like living here.
But it's lonely.
I'm a lonely Mew
who was forced to choose
solitude as my friend.
I'm the one who gets willingly ignored,
gets willingly punished
and kicked like a dog
and then is blamed
when I cannot get up like
the kickers.
I try and I try to reclaim
my voice,
but I have no idea what that is.
Well, I do know...
But I don't...
when really you're the rarest like Mew.
That's what it's like being me.
That's what it's like living here.
But it's lonely.
I'm a lonely Mew
who was forced to choose
solitude as my friend.
I'm the one who gets willingly ignored,
gets willingly punished
and kicked like a dog
and then is blamed
when I cannot get up like
the kickers.
I try and I try to reclaim
my voice,
but I have no idea what that is.
Well, I do know...
But I don't...
#disappointment
#emptiness
#loneliness
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Published
8th Nov 2024 12:37pm
8th Nov 2024 12:37pm
Deleting DUP
Sigh.
I think I want to delete this account.
It is helping me stay stuck in the past and remember people and trauma that I'd rather forget.
Not sure writing is my path or anything really.
I think I want to delete this account.
It is helping me stay stuck in the past and remember people and trauma that I'd rather forget.
Not sure writing is my path or anything really.
#apathy
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Published
7th Nov 2024 11:26pm
7th Nov 2024 11:26pm
This is what it means to treat someone like they don't exist
People are blank slates,
empty promises,
that I'm no longer entertaining.
Rather be alone.
Screamed loud in my YouTube video
and called out those who have hurt me
out on their bs.
Finally that feels freeing.
Now, I see them as a blank face.
We never knew each other,
and we never met.
Amazing.
empty promises,
that I'm no longer entertaining.
Rather be alone.
Screamed loud in my YouTube video
and called out those who have hurt me
out on their bs.
Finally that feels freeing.
Now, I see them as a blank face.
We never knew each other,
and we never met.
Amazing.
#apathy
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