Looking For Slow Ways to Get Involved

Watched another video of Heidi Priebe talking about to become more of the real you and less the fake you. Whew, that was a lot. Realizing I still have a lot of people pleasing behaviors. Anyway, she talked about how you should seek out places where your true, future self would seek if you had no fears.

And I can't think of a single place but an art club or something. Looking at volunteer opportunities related to that, and I want to go back to bed thinking about all the responsibilities they're listing. I'm tired from all the pressure my family and others put on me and in turn, I put on myself. I cannot function in a world that can function. Hope maybe I can just join an art club that's free and that I don't have to actively commit to. Just to see if I like it.

But there's just this part of me that's just a mute. That just can't talk. That doesn't want to. That doesn't want to explain myself. That knows I may open myself up to pain I do not want.

But it's worth a shot. Although I'm not open to making friends.