Submissions by Ash_Von_D (Ashley Von Dean)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
23rd Apr 2012 2:24am
23rd Apr 2012 2:24am
Today I took 9 Valium
Today I took 9 Valium after fighting with my boyfriend. If I had to guess he'd be boyfriend number 74ish since age 14. But who keeps count. There's really no point to this post other than to be brutally honest with myself and a bunch of strangers. I loathe my life even though I desire to be happy. Humans disgust me, myself particularly, and no matter how many personal flaws I tackle more always seem to surface and i'm fucking drowning in my thoughts and all these toxins I keep ingesting. I had an art, a skill, as an amazing photographer who created art in a surreal way that gave onlookers a...
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
25th Aug 2010 3:45pm
25th Aug 2010 3:45pm
Haiku
Haikus are easy
But sometimes they don't make sense
Refrigerator
But sometimes they don't make sense
Refrigerator
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LOVE POEM
Published
29th Jul 2010 5:15am
29th Jul 2010 5:15am
[Love is a battlefield, and i'm a moving target.]
hello nervous feeling
you're a nemesis of mine
threatening to spill my insides
to expose me to the world
is just so cruel
you rule my inhibitions
if it pleases you
it tortures me
you're pulling at my heartstrings
plucking feathers from my wings
the scents of your flesh
flood my memories
the taste of dishonesty
lingering on your lips
say hi to alter ego
and goodbye to shy and personal
(love like whisperings)
believe me when i tell you
this means war
you're a nemesis of mine
threatening to spill my insides
to expose me to the world
is just so cruel
you rule my inhibitions
if it pleases you
it tortures me
you're pulling at my heartstrings
plucking feathers from my wings
the scents of your flesh
flood my memories
the taste of dishonesty
lingering on your lips
say hi to alter ego
and goodbye to shy and personal
(love like whisperings)
believe me when i tell you
this means war
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
29th Jul 2010 5:13am
29th Jul 2010 5:13am
[Never under estimate the opponent]
through twisted woods
villages afire
you bled when they shot you
just like all the others
along the banks
the hoards were many
your numbers too small
and your people hit ground
like the leaves in the fall
lined along
the banks
sounds of the night
are
creeping up behind you
the shadows they stalk you
as if they were lions
along the banks
villages afire
you bled when they shot you
just like all the others
along the banks
the hoards were many
your numbers too small
and your people hit ground
like the leaves in the fall
lined along
the banks
sounds of the night
are
creeping up behind you
the shadows they stalk you
as if they were lions
along the banks
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LOVE POEM
Published
28th Jul 2010 9:12pm
28th Jul 2010 9:12pm
[the crack that shattered]
for every piece
to fall in place
a loaded gun
to save some face
your name is written
on a bullet
my lips rest on the trigger
but it's your words that will pull it
i fear everything
i love about you
there are stranger things
i know
to fall in place
a loaded gun
to save some face
your name is written
on a bullet
my lips rest on the trigger
but it's your words that will pull it
i fear everything
i love about you
there are stranger things
i know
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
28th Jul 2010 9:10pm
28th Jul 2010 9:10pm
[Random Excerpt from Personal Diary]
Ash stained fingertips and i'm still humming funeral tunes in my head. I find myself wondering how a bottle of absinte would fair me at the moseleum, should i choose to venture out?
How did i end up tied up and hanging, tangled in my own noose?
The lenses on my glasses are completely scratched and yet i wear them as if looking through these slightly magnified lenses could clarify to me this otherwise confusing world.
And this headache-this fucking headache-won't ease up, no matter how many over the counter pills i ingest.
Today even the light bulbs shine...
How did i end up tied up and hanging, tangled in my own noose?
The lenses on my glasses are completely scratched and yet i wear them as if looking through these slightly magnified lenses could clarify to me this otherwise confusing world.
And this headache-this fucking headache-won't ease up, no matter how many over the counter pills i ingest.
Today even the light bulbs shine...
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LOVE POEM
Published
28th Jul 2010 2:04am
28th Jul 2010 2:04am
[Bled to Life]
knuckles fade to white
as i walk blindly
through the fog
fingers outstretched
i'm reaching forward
with my arms
thought i heard you whisper
and it carried on the wind
came whistling from your casket
once
then softly came again
a scent lingers in the air
a smell of love
and loss
and rot
a chilling fermentation
of our life
you seem to have...
forgot
as i walk blindly
through the fog
fingers outstretched
i'm reaching forward
with my arms
thought i heard you whisper
and it carried on the wind
came whistling from your casket
once
then softly came again
a scent lingers in the air
a smell of love
and loss
and rot
a chilling fermentation
of our life
you seem to have...
forgot
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SELF POEM
Published
27th Jul 2010 2:42am
27th Jul 2010 2:42am
[THE BLOOD, THE COGS, THE GIRL.]
the good memories i can never remember
the bad ones always stick around
it's all i can do to just keep breathing
and keep the water from filling up my lungs
or i will surely drown
mistakes i've made, i pay for
i wear the scars of every one
but it's those mistakes that i have learned from
and all the damage they have done
piece by cold hard piece
pain has built me this machine
that pumps the blood
and fuels the body
desecrated and unholy
and goes through the motions
that you would expect a girl to go through
armed with false...
the bad ones always stick around
it's all i can do to just keep breathing
and keep the water from filling up my lungs
or i will surely drown
mistakes i've made, i pay for
i wear the scars of every one
but it's those mistakes that i have learned from
and all the damage they have done
piece by cold hard piece
pain has built me this machine
that pumps the blood
and fuels the body
desecrated and unholy
and goes through the motions
that you would expect a girl to go through
armed with false...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
27th Jul 2010 2:40am
27th Jul 2010 2:40am
[Showing teeth]
Welcome to the playground
where the carnivores roam
Predatory actions
inspiring
Predatory actions
This is the place where
EVERYONE loses
The last place you want to be
This is the hole
that I call home
where the carnivores roam
Predatory actions
inspiring
Predatory actions
This is the place where
EVERYONE loses
The last place you want to be
This is the hole
that I call home
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
25th Jul 2010 11:25pm
25th Jul 2010 11:25pm
[Steeple Full of Broken People]
I work these fingers
to the bone
down
deep
right through the bone
I wear these bones
out in my hands
the daughter of
a broken man
I spread my limbs
upon these sheets
fresh
meat
all on these sheets
On sheets I writhe
with twisted limbs
teacher
the daughter of a preacher
to the bone
down
deep
right through the bone
I wear these bones
out in my hands
the daughter of
a broken man
I spread my limbs
upon these sheets
fresh
meat
all on these sheets
On sheets I writhe
with twisted limbs
teacher
the daughter of a preacher
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
25th Jul 2010 11:22pm
25th Jul 2010 11:22pm
[Rogue waves travel fast and Alone]
Dead before our ship sank,
our vessels drop like stones in the sea
hollow bodies float
though these are concreted in sinful gravity
The captain goes down with their ship
into an ocean of icy blue
blue lips from cold hypothermic lies
so goes the leader, so goes the crew
The lighthouse in the distance
glows bleakly
but we won't make it home tonite
our ship's still sinking
We land among the coral
the salt burning our skin
we bleed until the sharks come
we'll never make it home again
our vessels drop like stones in the sea
hollow bodies float
though these are concreted in sinful gravity
The captain goes down with their ship
into an ocean of icy blue
blue lips from cold hypothermic lies
so goes the leader, so goes the crew
The lighthouse in the distance
glows bleakly
but we won't make it home tonite
our ship's still sinking
We land among the coral
the salt burning our skin
we bleed until the sharks come
we'll never make it home again
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LOVE POEM
Published
25th Jul 2010 3:22pm
25th Jul 2010 3:22pm
[you did this to yourself]
at the drop of a dime
heads says you never cared anyways
playing offmy words
just like you played your little games
bruised egos to quickly fall
on their face and out of love
conversations with your infatuations
would tell you otherwise
addictions of a witty kind
adjectives that dance, drunken
across thinly spread lips
heads says you never cared anyways
playing offmy words
just like you played your little games
bruised egos to quickly fall
on their face and out of love
conversations with your infatuations
would tell you otherwise
addictions of a witty kind
adjectives that dance, drunken
across thinly spread lips
834 reads
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