Submissions by Anxiety
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I just let my feelings spill out when I write, I’m not sure what i write anymore, please feel free to give me your honest opinions. I also reply to messages if anyone needs anything at all💕
SELF POEM
Published
12th Jul 2018 3:34am
12th Jul 2018 3:34am
2018
I lost the girl i loved
In 2018 i lost the girl i loved
But i think its better this way
The girl i lost was sad, broken and beaten down
She had no fears of this world and she let everyone know they are replaceable.
She didnt have the blistering anxiety i have now
She didnt care about anyone but herself
So i think its okay that i lost her because she will not truly be missed
No one will mourn the way she carried her body, no one will mourn her addictive ways
No one will mourn her because shes changed, still here but different and i...
In 2018 i lost the girl i loved
But i think its better this way
The girl i lost was sad, broken and beaten down
She had no fears of this world and she let everyone know they are replaceable.
She didnt have the blistering anxiety i have now
She didnt care about anyone but herself
So i think its okay that i lost her because she will not truly be missed
No one will mourn the way she carried her body, no one will mourn her addictive ways
No one will mourn her because shes changed, still here but different and i...
#sadness
#anxiety
#depression
#confessional
#myself
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SELF POEM
Published
10th Jul 2018 5:55pm
10th Jul 2018 5:55pm
Failing.
How do i become happy
How do i become happy again
No i dont want to just fake it
Its no longer enough
The mask is falling
The pins are coming undone,
And no matter how hard i try to keep it up it seems i do something to make it fall faster
I cant stop sleeping
I sleep for 12 hours and still feel tired
Im depressed as fuck
And at this point i guess im fake
Im fake because im acting out old things the real me used to do
Im fake because i fuck up friendships
I dont know if im fake
I just know im fucked ...
How do i become happy again
No i dont want to just fake it
Its no longer enough
The mask is falling
The pins are coming undone,
And no matter how hard i try to keep it up it seems i do something to make it fall faster
I cant stop sleeping
I sleep for 12 hours and still feel tired
Im depressed as fuck
And at this point i guess im fake
Im fake because im acting out old things the real me used to do
Im fake because i fuck up friendships
I dont know if im fake
I just know im fucked ...
#dark
#honesty
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SELF POEM
Published
10th Jul 2018 3:30am
10th Jul 2018 3:30am
More dangerous than id like to consider
Its hard to finally realize im losing my head. I cant get rid of this headache if im being honest im not fucking okay.
Maybe acting out is my way of screaminh for help but yet when its offered i push it away.
I guess ive always been this way
I guess im just more fucked than id like to admit.
I guess im just fucking dangerous
So damn dangerous like ive just let my demons take over
Like im on cruise control and i cant switch it off
How
How do i regain control without alerting the others im no longer me?
Maybe acting out is my way of screaminh for help but yet when its offered i push it away.
I guess ive always been this way
I guess im just more fucked than id like to admit.
I guess im just fucking dangerous
So damn dangerous like ive just let my demons take over
Like im on cruise control and i cant switch it off
How
How do i regain control without alerting the others im no longer me?
#ignorance
#FeelingLost
#suffering
#emptiness
#FeelingTrapped
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SELF POEM
Published
10th Jul 2018 2:48am
10th Jul 2018 2:48am
Hurt people, hurt people
When i
Realized you loved me
And i could not formulate the words in my own way when, when i could not say them back to you the first time you said them to me
I realized that there was a void in my life
When i knew i could not use those words without hesitation as i used too in the past, i refused to say it without knowing i was fully behind those three fucking words
I knew you were simple but yet so magestic
I knew you were meant for greater good
I knew your smile held all of my happiness
And i knew i didnt want to hurt you
...
Realized you loved me
And i could not formulate the words in my own way when, when i could not say them back to you the first time you said them to me
I realized that there was a void in my life
When i knew i could not use those words without hesitation as i used too in the past, i refused to say it without knowing i was fully behind those three fucking words
I knew you were simple but yet so magestic
I knew you were meant for greater good
I knew your smile held all of my happiness
And i knew i didnt want to hurt you
...
#honesty
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
13th Jun 2018 7:22am
13th Jun 2018 7:22am
Ironic love stories
Just a little something to help me sleep
Just a little something
Just. A little something because i cant live without it
Just because i am me
And i am horrible
Just because this will eat me alive
Eat at me until im decaying
And i already feel like i am
because nothing is fixing this hole
And nothing is filling it
No matter how much liquid and people i shove down it
No matter how much food i push down my gullet
No matter how many lovers i have
No matter what i do
It always brings me back to you
Then im...
Just a little something
Just. A little something because i cant live without it
Just because i am me
And i am horrible
Just because this will eat me alive
Eat at me until im decaying
And i already feel like i am
because nothing is fixing this hole
And nothing is filling it
No matter how much liquid and people i shove down it
No matter how much food i push down my gullet
No matter how many lovers i have
No matter what i do
It always brings me back to you
Then im...
#emptiness
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
10th Jun 2018 9:49pm
10th Jun 2018 9:49pm
Forbidden
I cant look at other people the way i looked at you
I feel like my tongue is a jar of stories of us that is rattling to be let revealed yet i feel like ive told everyone
How your eyes shine and how beautiful your smile is
How the smile lines on your face make you even more entrancing
How when im with you its as if the world just stopped
Just stopped for me
For us
So i can gaze at you just a little longer
I would use the term forbidden fruit to describe you because the other words just dont make much sense
I want to encase your beauty in a...
I feel like my tongue is a jar of stories of us that is rattling to be let revealed yet i feel like ive told everyone
How your eyes shine and how beautiful your smile is
How the smile lines on your face make you even more entrancing
How when im with you its as if the world just stopped
Just stopped for me
For us
So i can gaze at you just a little longer
I would use the term forbidden fruit to describe you because the other words just dont make much sense
I want to encase your beauty in a...
#frustration
#emptiness
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
10th Jun 2018 9:34pm
10th Jun 2018 9:34pm
The sunset is so ugly without you
I wish the sunset didnt remind me of you
i want to look at the orange and red, the pinks and purples and just think of how the world is so much bigger than me
Than my problems
But my heart is so broken
How could you have ever loved me
i want to look at the orange and red, the pinks and purples and just think of how the world is so much bigger than me
Than my problems
But my heart is so broken
How could you have ever loved me
#frustration
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
2nd May 2018 8:37pm
2nd May 2018 8:37pm
Love my mental illness, please.
I just dont want to put myself in a situation where i can hurt others again
The thought that i fucked someone up because of my selfish and unpredictable, unprocessed actions
I dont want to see someone the way i saw you
And i mean that in so many more ways than just one
I dont want another soul to hold
Because for me im not just holding im crushing
And destroying
And im not looking for pity
And i dont think im pitying myself
I just keep looking for that moment when i realized im not fucked up anymore
Im searching deep in my soul for...
The thought that i fucked someone up because of my selfish and unpredictable, unprocessed actions
I dont want to see someone the way i saw you
And i mean that in so many more ways than just one
I dont want another soul to hold
Because for me im not just holding im crushing
And destroying
And im not looking for pity
And i dont think im pitying myself
I just keep looking for that moment when i realized im not fucked up anymore
Im searching deep in my soul for...
#sadness
#frustration
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LOVE POEM
Published
5th Jan 2018 11:12pm
5th Jan 2018 11:12pm
please come back to me
I started sleeping with my head at the end of the bed
I left the windows unlocked and even opened one
even though I'm so afraid of someone crawling through
I want to make this room different somehow
I want to erase the memories of you in here
But they won't leave
it's like a Photoshop in my room
you're everywhere in one place
by the window, on the bed, by the tv
by my head
holding my hand
kissing my head
they won't leave
I can't sleep right in my bed, looking at the empty half makes me sick to my...
I left the windows unlocked and even opened one
even though I'm so afraid of someone crawling through
I want to make this room different somehow
I want to erase the memories of you in here
But they won't leave
it's like a Photoshop in my room
you're everywhere in one place
by the window, on the bed, by the tv
by my head
holding my hand
kissing my head
they won't leave
I can't sleep right in my bed, looking at the empty half makes me sick to my...
#regret
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LOVE POEM
Published
5th Jan 2018 2:00am
5th Jan 2018 2:00am
tsunami tears, rips through my heart.
my mind won't let go
of these thoughts
they're like
indescribable
But they take my breathe away
turns on the tears like a tsunami
hearing your voice
makes it stop
sometimes
it always comes in waves
like a earthquake
never expected
my mind never saw this coming
cigarette after cigarette
thought after thought
tear after tear
sobs and screaming
I can't control them
you can't forgive me
you probably never will
I just don't want to come to terms with that ...
of these thoughts
they're like
indescribable
But they take my breathe away
turns on the tears like a tsunami
hearing your voice
makes it stop
sometimes
it always comes in waves
like a earthquake
never expected
my mind never saw this coming
cigarette after cigarette
thought after thought
tear after tear
sobs and screaming
I can't control them
you can't forgive me
you probably never will
I just don't want to come to terms with that ...
#love
#lust
#sex
#storm
#lover
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SELF POEM
Published
5th Jan 2018 1:54am
5th Jan 2018 1:54am
float yourself
my heart is a ticking time grenade
you pulled the pin
my mind is land mind
small, but there are warnings everywhere for it
you stepped on me
But yet somehow it reverberated and exploded inside of my mind instead of blowing up on you
The walls of my head let this echo for days
my heart is still ticking
rickity tickity tock
when we went came into this relationship two years ago
I think only one of us dived head in first
the other just lazily fell
not to say either one is worse...
you pulled the pin
my mind is land mind
small, but there are warnings everywhere for it
you stepped on me
But yet somehow it reverberated and exploded inside of my mind instead of blowing up on you
The walls of my head let this echo for days
my heart is still ticking
rickity tickity tock
when we went came into this relationship two years ago
I think only one of us dived head in first
the other just lazily fell
not to say either one is worse...
#PopCulture
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
22nd Dec 2017 7:45pm
22nd Dec 2017 7:45pm
there's so much oxygen
I never needed you, I never once needed you
But I thought of you like oxygen, I had myself convinced I'm going to die without you
but life will go on
and that may depend on if I kill myself or not
but we don't need each other to live
I would just rather share my life with you.
you are the oxygen I breathe
But there is more
I will not suffocate without you when you decide to leave me
I will convince myself of that
I will try too
say it over and over
but when the words slide off my tongue
they don't sound...
But I thought of you like oxygen, I had myself convinced I'm going to die without you
but life will go on
and that may depend on if I kill myself or not
but we don't need each other to live
I would just rather share my life with you.
you are the oxygen I breathe
But there is more
I will not suffocate without you when you decide to leave me
I will convince myself of that
I will try too
say it over and over
but when the words slide off my tongue
they don't sound...
#love
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