Poetry competition CLOSED 10th April 2017 2:16pm
WINNER
L0nelyReaper
L0nelyReaper
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Self-Harm
An empty room
an empty girl,
sitting silently
on the floor
Sleeves rolled up
exposing skin,
she drags the blade
and presses in
The pain it brings
cannot compare,
the joy she feels
will soon be there
It's worth the scars
that will never heal,
for just a moment
not to feel.
Sugar Sweet Suicide
ice cream and chocolates
moist fruitcakes, marzipan
creamy topped puddings
cinnamon and meringue
cheese pizzas
sugar powdered doughnuts
fried chicken and pie
hamburgers
and different flavoured soda
delicious sweetness
pushing me down
gently and sweetly
into the ground.
ice cream and chocolates
moist fruitcakes, marzipan
creamy topped puddings
cinnamon and meringue
cheese pizzas
sugar powdered doughnuts
fried chicken and pie
hamburgers
and different flavoured soda
delicious sweetness
pushing me down
gently and sweetly
into the ground.
Sleeves of Skin
Long sleeves mask what my skin fails to hide
Deep internal feelings of unnatural strife
Constantly forcing my hands to abide
To keep true to my own disturbed way of life
Long sleeves hide what my skin cant keep in
A strange type of love
Shrouded by sin
Long sleeves restrain what my skin cant withhold
A forlorn desire
To no longer feel cold
Long sleeves keep hidden what my skin loves to show
The all too formal slashes
Wrapped gently with a bow
Long sleeves mask when my skin fails to lie
Just how badly I wish
To simply say goodbye
n.c.e
Deep internal feelings of unnatural strife
Constantly forcing my hands to abide
To keep true to my own disturbed way of life
Long sleeves hide what my skin cant keep in
A strange type of love
Shrouded by sin
Long sleeves restrain what my skin cant withhold
A forlorn desire
To no longer feel cold
Long sleeves keep hidden what my skin loves to show
The all too formal slashes
Wrapped gently with a bow
Long sleeves mask when my skin fails to lie
Just how badly I wish
To simply say goodbye
n.c.e
Written by L0nelyReaper
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Notice Me?
Always looking away
never shit to say
Hey mom, Im over here
Even in the middle of the night
all that blood
my perfect fright
But you went right back to bed
and never said
how scared you really were
I tried again
knowing better than
the time before
No words ever
my tears felt like forever
until I decided to stop
Thats when you noticed
and by then it was too late
all that hate
I wish you told me
you loved me more
Always looking away
never shit to say
Hey mom, Im over here
Even in the middle of the night
all that blood
my perfect fright
But you went right back to bed
and never said
how scared you really were
I tried again
knowing better than
the time before
No words ever
my tears felt like forever
until I decided to stop
Thats when you noticed
and by then it was too late
all that hate
I wish you told me
you loved me more
A Shadow Looming
I cut and bled, I od’d and then woke up in a hospital bed,
I dropped the mic in the tub full of water to feel the electricity,
But nothing seemed to fill the void I felt deep inside of me,
I wasn’t honest with myself, full of hypocrisy and duplicity.
I felt the dark ages of time fill my mind with a bitter sorrow,
That each tomorrow would come and I would still be the same,
Regardless of how many self-help and positive books I read,
I was stuck in a situation and had none else but me to blame.
It was rollercoaster of emotions with the thrills, the highs and lows,
From manic to panic and then everything befuddled in between,
I couldn’t let go, I was addicted to the unexpected embrace of death,
Hoping that it would take me with a loud and thunderous scream.
But at the years passed something began to change inside,
The drink began to numb my senses to let time pass by,
I noticed my body began to change form, not it wasn’t the norm,
I was turning into my old man right before my very eyes.
I began to realize that the responsibility that with a growing family,
I can’t escape reality, I have to face life clearheaded and sober,
Because when others depend on you it changes your whole world view,
When depression is just a shadow looming, hanging over your shoulder.
I cut and bled, I od’d and then woke up in a hospital bed,
I dropped the mic in the tub full of water to feel the electricity,
But nothing seemed to fill the void I felt deep inside of me,
I wasn’t honest with myself, full of hypocrisy and duplicity.
I felt the dark ages of time fill my mind with a bitter sorrow,
That each tomorrow would come and I would still be the same,
Regardless of how many self-help and positive books I read,
I was stuck in a situation and had none else but me to blame.
It was rollercoaster of emotions with the thrills, the highs and lows,
From manic to panic and then everything befuddled in between,
I couldn’t let go, I was addicted to the unexpected embrace of death,
Hoping that it would take me with a loud and thunderous scream.
But at the years passed something began to change inside,
The drink began to numb my senses to let time pass by,
I noticed my body began to change form, not it wasn’t the norm,
I was turning into my old man right before my very eyes.
I began to realize that the responsibility that with a growing family,
I can’t escape reality, I have to face life clearheaded and sober,
Because when others depend on you it changes your whole world view,
When depression is just a shadow looming, hanging over your shoulder.
Hurt
I wasn't always like this,
I was once a girl,
With a heart of gold,
And then one day a boy ripped my heart out,
And hurting became my twisted bliss,
A boy broke my heart,
And after that I began tearing my skin apart,
I was hurt,
I didn't always have the urge to tear my skin apart,
I was once a girl with a golden heart,
I had everything I'd ever wanted,
And then he came along,
He broke my fucking heart,
And now I spend my days and nights tearing my flesh apart,
I wasn't always like this..
I didn't always watch myself in the Mirror,
As I slit my wrists,
A boy broke my heart,
He took advantage of the girl I was,
And his love tore me apart,
I wasn't always like this,
I use to be happy,
I didn't tear my wrists apart at night,
And I didn't watch myself in the Mirror,
While I cut until there was white.
I wasn't always this broken girl,
I had a boy who tore apart my life,
Until I took a razor and cut my wrists until I saw white.
I wasn't always this broken.
I wasn't always like this,
I was once a girl,
With a heart of gold,
And then one day a boy ripped my heart out,
And hurting became my twisted bliss,
A boy broke my heart,
And after that I began tearing my skin apart,
I was hurt,
I didn't always have the urge to tear my skin apart,
I was once a girl with a golden heart,
I had everything I'd ever wanted,
And then he came along,
He broke my fucking heart,
And now I spend my days and nights tearing my flesh apart,
I wasn't always like this..
I didn't always watch myself in the Mirror,
As I slit my wrists,
A boy broke my heart,
He took advantage of the girl I was,
And his love tore me apart,
I wasn't always like this,
I use to be happy,
I didn't tear my wrists apart at night,
And I didn't watch myself in the Mirror,
While I cut until there was white.
I wasn't always this broken girl,
I had a boy who tore apart my life,
Until I took a razor and cut my wrists until I saw white.
I wasn't always this broken.
Camel Wides
She gets the cherry fiery, piping red hot
This is the only out-the only escape this poor, lost, pitiful soul has got
It's fleeting only temporary-yes this she knows
It's sick and twisted and shameful the blisters bubbled up crispy and brown, in neat little rows
In her head the static and screaming is deafening turned up way above ten
This is remote her mute button that turns it down if only for a moment before the band strikes up again
This is the only out-the only escape this poor, lost, pitiful soul has got
It's fleeting only temporary-yes this she knows
It's sick and twisted and shameful the blisters bubbled up crispy and brown, in neat little rows
In her head the static and screaming is deafening turned up way above ten
This is remote her mute button that turns it down if only for a moment before the band strikes up again
Written by Afroqn73
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Exploration mutilation
Feeds my vulnerability
While egos touch
Proves too much
For this daunting wave ...fragility
I self exploit
And pain decamps
From heart to flesh
Red lines revamp
Each vermilion dragon
It's own head of my Hydra
While daylight turns struggle
My eyes on fire
...my hoods heavy
And now my smile
But really...
I just want to feel something else for a while
Feeds my vulnerability
While egos touch
Proves too much
For this daunting wave ...fragility
I self exploit
And pain decamps
From heart to flesh
Red lines revamp
Each vermilion dragon
It's own head of my Hydra
While daylight turns struggle
My eyes on fire
...my hoods heavy
And now my smile
But really...
I just want to feel something else for a while
