Submissions by anonymouslyhere (Pariah Shadow)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction I just toss words around until it feels right.
Smells Like Decaying Spirit
The room is silent
Yet it is void of peace
It's an anxious hush
A gun is pressed tightly
Against my temple
I can hear the trigger
Creak slowly toward oblivion
I can't tell if I'm holding the gun
Or if it is in the hand of my enemy
Or if in fact, I am my enemy
And both of these are true
The bullet is antsy
The great anticipation
To carry out such an adventure
Into the brain matter and skull
My head will turn inside out
Homicide? Suicide?
Someone will have to...
Yet it is void of peace
It's an anxious hush
A gun is pressed tightly
Against my temple
I can hear the trigger
Creak slowly toward oblivion
I can't tell if I'm holding the gun
Or if it is in the hand of my enemy
Or if in fact, I am my enemy
And both of these are true
The bullet is antsy
The great anticipation
To carry out such an adventure
Into the brain matter and skull
My head will turn inside out
Homicide? Suicide?
Someone will have to...
#depression
#dark
#death #MentalHealth
#death #MentalHealth
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Lovers No Longer In Love (Making Love)
Let this fight die
Instincts will win
Skin burrowing into flesh
Two turned into one
Intertwined bodies
Both void of any soul
To see you in such a moment
To witness you in such a state
Is shattering, who knew
We were so fragile?
What a goddamn lonesome love
One painful orgasm
I hate you as much as I hate myself.
Instincts will win
Skin burrowing into flesh
Two turned into one
Intertwined bodies
Both void of any soul
To see you in such a moment
To witness you in such a state
Is shattering, who knew
We were so fragile?
What a goddamn lonesome love
One painful orgasm
I hate you as much as I hate myself.
#anger
#love
#hate #hurt
#hate #hurt
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The Blissful and The Blind
I wish I could tell you everything
Unload the burden kept within
I am free to do so
But you're a captive
You're walking alone
With an illusion of love
I wish you had my vision
I know I'm usually wrong
But this time I'm right
Time will prove it to be
I hope before it is too late
You too can see what I see.
Unload the burden kept within
I am free to do so
But you're a captive
You're walking alone
With an illusion of love
I wish you had my vision
I know I'm usually wrong
But this time I'm right
Time will prove it to be
I hope before it is too late
You too can see what I see.
#love
#friendship
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2 Comments
A Mirror of Voices
Can you hear screams coming from the forest
behind my distressed house?
They sound like they're far away
They aren't
they came from me
It's just an echo reflecting
A mirror of voices
A mirror I wish I could break.
behind my distressed house?
They sound like they're far away
They aren't
they came from me
It's just an echo reflecting
A mirror of voices
A mirror I wish I could break.
#sadness
#depression
#dark
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The Exit of A Smile
One smile
To a life
Unlit
Is such a gift
One smile
That now is
Fleeting
Turning away
As I turn to catch
One last glimpse.
To a life
Unlit
Is such a gift
One smile
That now is
Fleeting
Turning away
As I turn to catch
One last glimpse.
#sadness
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Silent
Too timid to speak
I lied to you twice
With words unsaid
Just a pale look
Intertwined eyes
You took as anger
You supposed the silence
Was a lack of affection
I hope one day
I can right the wrong.
I lied to you twice
With words unsaid
Just a pale look
Intertwined eyes
You took as anger
You supposed the silence
Was a lack of affection
I hope one day
I can right the wrong.
#lover
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8 Comments
What a Fine Day to Die
Quiet waters unmarred
Still and refecting heavens
The air feels like common autumn
You can almost feel the forgotten
souls who've closed their eyes
I've closed my two windows
From this peaceful view
I wanted one last memory
Of a world that didn't seem
So utterly fucked
I came here to find joy
I wanted an escape
I've only found a shortcoming
My emotions no longer function
I'm blind to the beauty
And deaf to harmony
It all seems so silly
To expect some view
Such as this scene
To be...
Still and refecting heavens
The air feels like common autumn
You can almost feel the forgotten
souls who've closed their eyes
I've closed my two windows
From this peaceful view
I wanted one last memory
Of a world that didn't seem
So utterly fucked
I came here to find joy
I wanted an escape
I've only found a shortcoming
My emotions no longer function
I'm blind to the beauty
And deaf to harmony
It all seems so silly
To expect some view
Such as this scene
To be...
#depression
#suicide
#hurt
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Forced Upon
Walk across this floor
As I once did
With cold bare skin
Between a cage of pink walls
These awful plastic shower curtains
It was agonizing and terrifying
I tried a lifetime of denying
Those few minutes that changed me
I rocked to and fro
In a sea in trembling
I've not seen a blue sky
I've not felt a warm night
Torturous memories
Keep your disgraceful face alive
I thought you died long ago
But you remain in my mind
As vile and violent as then
Mastermind, keeping silence
That sacred...
As I once did
With cold bare skin
Between a cage of pink walls
These awful plastic shower curtains
It was agonizing and terrifying
I tried a lifetime of denying
Those few minutes that changed me
I rocked to and fro
In a sea in trembling
I've not seen a blue sky
I've not felt a warm night
Torturous memories
Keep your disgraceful face alive
I thought you died long ago
But you remain in my mind
As vile and violent as then
Mastermind, keeping silence
That sacred...
#violence
#abuse
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Of All the Boring Halfwits
I was painted a different shade
It was a rainy Sunday
God loves a little irony
You were dressed to the nines
Insufferable and dimwitted
As per usual, I suppose
I was happy to ignore
Stale complaints
I was fixed on a tree
And the raven therein pondering
Nestled down as to draw no attention
But I spotted it, weeping
I could float around this place
But you're much too preoccupied
With silly conversations and gossip
I wish I had your ability to be happy
Sucking the color from the trees
And be...
It was a rainy Sunday
God loves a little irony
You were dressed to the nines
Insufferable and dimwitted
As per usual, I suppose
I was happy to ignore
Stale complaints
I was fixed on a tree
And the raven therein pondering
Nestled down as to draw no attention
But I spotted it, weeping
I could float around this place
But you're much too preoccupied
With silly conversations and gossip
I wish I had your ability to be happy
Sucking the color from the trees
And be...
#hate
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Flowers Refuse to Grow Here
In some of us, it is engraved
Beneath the outer flesh
Behind a sequestered heart
Manifested in the outpour
Of love, of passion, of anger
Once the excitement fades
It's only myself and my darkness
Flowers refuse to grow here
Hollow and despondent
It is instilled in my dim existence.
Beneath the outer flesh
Behind a sequestered heart
Manifested in the outpour
Of love, of passion, of anger
Once the excitement fades
It's only myself and my darkness
Flowers refuse to grow here
Hollow and despondent
It is instilled in my dim existence.
#depression
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Be The Dreamless Lawman
There is no therapy
From behind the curtain
Of masquerading adults
Far from outgrowing childhood
Feeling withdrawn
In the coming dawn
I unbutton my lips
Just to fucking scream
It's the same words from
the same people
With their brotherly affectation
To seem relatable
With their old-testament rhetoric
Fire and brimstone raining
From a sky glowing cloudless
Be the dreamless lawman
Put out that red, angry eye
Look toward heaven
Not toward the sky
I've no time to be bothered
But I'm...
From behind the curtain
Of masquerading adults
Far from outgrowing childhood
Feeling withdrawn
In the coming dawn
I unbutton my lips
Just to fucking scream
It's the same words from
the same people
With their brotherly affectation
To seem relatable
With their old-testament rhetoric
Fire and brimstone raining
From a sky glowing cloudless
Be the dreamless lawman
Put out that red, angry eye
Look toward heaven
Not toward the sky
I've no time to be bothered
But I'm...
#anger
#disappointment
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I Once Was a Helpless Child.
It's hard to remember when
I smiled frequently
I once was a helpless child
I wasn't a pack a day smoker
I wasn't paranoid of others
I didn't have a reason to be
I took value in promises
I thought there was a heaven
And everyone was going
I was four or five I think
My life changed in a bathtub
When the stranger undressed me
He put his nude body next to mine
And planted the darkness in my mind
A mind I've long since lost
In a forest of fears
It isn't irrational anymore
I'm a man in...
I smiled frequently
I once was a helpless child
I wasn't a pack a day smoker
I wasn't paranoid of others
I didn't have a reason to be
I took value in promises
I thought there was a heaven
And everyone was going
I was four or five I think
My life changed in a bathtub
When the stranger undressed me
He put his nude body next to mine
And planted the darkness in my mind
A mind I've long since lost
In a forest of fears
It isn't irrational anymore
I'm a man in...
#childhood
#abuse
#hurt
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