Submissions by anonymouslyhere (Pariah Shadow)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I just toss words around until it feels right.
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
30th Sep 2022 3:44am
30th Sep 2022 3:44am
I wasted your time but you smiled
Just tell me when
Or I’ll hold you down
Forever
Wake up in the morning
Mourning our decisions
Unsatisfied, discontent
I wish I could rectify
But I’ll just sit here
Lowly and awkward
[s]The way god intended[/s]
The bastard
I know it’s 9am
But you want a beer?
Might as well
Throw one more day away.
Or I’ll hold you down
Forever
Wake up in the morning
Mourning our decisions
Unsatisfied, discontent
I wish I could rectify
But I’ll just sit here
Lowly and awkward
[s]The way god intended[/s]
The bastard
I know it’s 9am
But you want a beer?
Might as well
Throw one more day away.
#love
#hate
#sex #LifeStruggles
#sex #LifeStruggles
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
22nd Sep 2022 10:37am
22nd Sep 2022 10:37am
Ha! pArTy GuRl
Caressed by him
I'm stressed and thin
Depressed, I'll sin
I want to win
I want to win
I hope you know
I told you so
I hope you know
You sold your soul
Fuck it, I'm hurt
What's one more relapse.
I'm stressed and thin
Depressed, I'll sin
I want to win
I want to win
I hope you know
I told you so
I hope you know
You sold your soul
Fuck it, I'm hurt
What's one more relapse.
#lies
#betrayal
#alcohol #addiction
#alcohol #addiction
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
22nd Sep 2022 10:16am
22nd Sep 2022 10:16am
Away on Holiday
It's funny, I forgot about this place
Until yesterday
I wonder how all my friends are?
I've been outrunning death
Stopped to catch my breath
And to give a few hugs
I hope you all know I'm grateful for you
I read my words from long ago
I was ready to die, I wanted it
As sad as I was
And a times still am
I must admit it's mostly anger now
I'm too pissed off to die
I want to watch my enemies demise
All of them, watch them fade out alone
Knowing the fault is entirely their own.
Until yesterday
I wonder how all my friends are?
I've been outrunning death
Stopped to catch my breath
And to give a few hugs
I hope you all know I'm grateful for you
I read my words from long ago
I was ready to die, I wanted it
As sad as I was
And a times still am
I must admit it's mostly anger now
I'm too pissed off to die
I want to watch my enemies demise
All of them, watch them fade out alone
Knowing the fault is entirely their own.
#anger
#depression
#aging #IMissYou
#aging #IMissYou
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
22nd Aug 2020 11:26am
22nd Aug 2020 11:26am
Leaving
I suppose I know the story well
It has been told to me many times
My life works as a revolving door
In they come and out they go
I am in a fever dream
Such a fallacy
And I should fancy
Myself luckily cursed
Like all drugs
This will wear out
As I wear thin
And I'll come down
And wish to be high again
This was different
Yet the same
Leaving
Again
I wont pray
For another day
I'll just drink
To the memories
Of my missing link.
It has been told to me many times
My life works as a revolving door
In they come and out they go
I am in a fever dream
Such a fallacy
And I should fancy
Myself luckily cursed
Like all drugs
This will wear out
As I wear thin
And I'll come down
And wish to be high again
This was different
Yet the same
Leaving
Again
I wont pray
For another day
I'll just drink
To the memories
Of my missing link.
#love
#loneliness
#lover
452 reads
DARK POEM
Published
7th Jul 2020 12:42pm
7th Jul 2020 12:42pm
A Cluster of Bodies and Bad Metaphors
You in my stride
Hand in hand
Through a forest
Of hanging bodies
We've chosen to ignore
And whom are we to blame?
They muddy the sunlight
But I've not seen the sun
In a year or so it seems
How would I explain
The generations?
It seems to me people
Become less ignorant
Yet exceedingly stupid
With the passing of time
I can't distinguish
Sincerity from sarcasm
Even when I converse
With the mirror
As if that isn't problematic
No matter how it's romanticized ...
Hand in hand
Through a forest
Of hanging bodies
We've chosen to ignore
And whom are we to blame?
They muddy the sunlight
But I've not seen the sun
In a year or so it seems
How would I explain
The generations?
It seems to me people
Become less ignorant
Yet exceedingly stupid
With the passing of time
I can't distinguish
Sincerity from sarcasm
Even when I converse
With the mirror
As if that isn't problematic
No matter how it's romanticized ...
#anxiety
#depression
#death
#LifeStruggles
#boredom
364 reads
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SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
25th Jun 2020 5:57pm
25th Jun 2020 5:57pm
Priest! Savior! Gasoline!
Follow me
Heavenward
Ask your questions
Afterwards
As the flames
Would indicate
Things went south.
But you bought this fate
Heavenward
Ask your questions
Afterwards
As the flames
Would indicate
Things went south.
But you bought this fate
#atheism
#religion
#God
#Christian
#hell
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SELF POEM
Published
23rd Jun 2020 2:48am
23rd Jun 2020 2:48am
I Know My True Worth
I too am a villain
I know what I have inflicted
Usually out of fear
I can hear the echoes
Of a few dead men
Haunting the silence
Wanting some redemption
I know now my value was monetary
Your love was conditional
Perhaps you didn't even want that to be true
I suppose I broke the terms of service agreement
I have no clever rhyme to say to you goodbye
Just a weightless anguish
Thanks for the memories, I suppose.
I know what I have inflicted
Usually out of fear
I can hear the echoes
Of a few dead men
Haunting the silence
Wanting some redemption
I know now my value was monetary
Your love was conditional
Perhaps you didn't even want that to be true
I suppose I broke the terms of service agreement
I have no clever rhyme to say to you goodbye
Just a weightless anguish
Thanks for the memories, I suppose.
#love
#loneliness
#family #hurt
#family #hurt
373 reads
4 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
17th Jun 2020 11:39am
17th Jun 2020 11:39am
Therapist
Ravenous, picking at the flesh
With teeth stained
Sucking succulent water
Red as the late summer sunset
Lust, an awful lust
The death of a soul
Stalker, smooth talker
Chasing the forbidden
Many moons betwixt
A generation of time
Words seemed to reassure
But those actions screamed
Profanity hardly permitted
It was fucking hard to witness
She now sleeps, he now is acquitted.
With teeth stained
Sucking succulent water
Red as the late summer sunset
Lust, an awful lust
The death of a soul
Stalker, smooth talker
Chasing the forbidden
Many moons betwixt
A generation of time
Words seemed to reassure
But those actions screamed
Profanity hardly permitted
It was fucking hard to witness
She now sleeps, he now is acquitted.
#anger
#abuse
#LifeStruggles
#suicide
#hurt
450 reads
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
3rd Jun 2020 8:53pm
3rd Jun 2020 8:53pm
Key of A Prison
Go abroad, stretch your periphery
Your words are too narrow
I was imprisoned so long
Subject to the shadow
Of your undying judgment.
Your words are too narrow
I was imprisoned so long
Subject to the shadow
Of your undying judgment.
#mother
#father
#religion #hurt
#religion #hurt
336 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
30th May 2020 2:35pm
30th May 2020 2:35pm
Exit
Maybe it's my only explanation
As to the indifference
In your departure
But the only trust I have in anyone
Is I'll be around long enough
To hear the door close
On final time
I've died this death before.
As to the indifference
In your departure
But the only trust I have in anyone
Is I'll be around long enough
To hear the door close
On final time
I've died this death before.
#love
#grief
#apathy
342 reads
4 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
27th May 2020 3:00pm
27th May 2020 3:00pm
Kill Me, You Little Devil
I fall through worlds
Euphoria into dispair
After laughter comes
Depression, I am alone
Oh, this is the fashion of the faithless
It's you babe, loveless
Nevertheless lets trudge
Toward the dying light
Bitch.
Euphoria into dispair
After laughter comes
Depression, I am alone
Oh, this is the fashion of the faithless
It's you babe, loveless
Nevertheless lets trudge
Toward the dying light
Bitch.
#love
#depression
#loneliness #breakup
#loneliness #breakup
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DARK POEM
Published
23rd May 2020 11:47am
23rd May 2020 11:47am
Days in Waste
Sunrise, I have awaited an arrival
I have awaited a revival
Serenades sang sweetly by ghosts
Our tepid pasts aligned in harmony
Children know no such emptiness
Until they've been drained
Skinned alive, driven insane
I was a coward living brutishly
Until I stumbled downward
Into the great collapse, the chasm
You lie on your back on your bed
Bareskin on semen-stained sheets
Willing as am I to admit defeat
Exercising moments of euphoria
As am I, hands grasping your breasts
Without love, without a...
I have awaited a revival
Serenades sang sweetly by ghosts
Our tepid pasts aligned in harmony
Children know no such emptiness
Until they've been drained
Skinned alive, driven insane
I was a coward living brutishly
Until I stumbled downward
Into the great collapse, the chasm
You lie on your back on your bed
Bareskin on semen-stained sheets
Willing as am I to admit defeat
Exercising moments of euphoria
As am I, hands grasping your breasts
Without love, without a...
#depression
#loneliness
#death
#apathy
#hurt
466 reads
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