heart broken whike in a relationship

Have you ever been heart broken from a previous relationship while in one? Or from the one you're in?  Write a poem about the feelings you felt but for a twist add if there was anyway to get over it. Ex: became happy because of something or fell deeper into depression and committed suicide.

DO NOT FALL IN LOVE TOO DEEPLY

How can I say I love you

Without giving my power away

Once you know that

You can play with me

Your puppet I shall be


How can I say I desire you

Without becoming your whore

Once you know this

You will find me

At your beck and call


How can I mention marriage

Without you using it against me

The carrot and the stick I have given you

You can make me do any trick


How can I marry you

When you are richer than me

You ask for a prenupt

With a penalty

In case of divorce...only child support


I can stay with you

Keep my mouth shut about your affairs

Last time I mentioned it

You showed me the door


What will I tell my daughter

About the relationships between people

Never for a moment

Think all people are equal


You can love someone too much

For your own good

He who has the money calls the shots

Daughter please listen

It does not have to be this way

Work hard and make money

Marvin

It had been years
Since I ever thought of you.

Your brother is my friend now
And we talk about you.
I have a new boyfriend now
And he's pretty pissed I gave it up to you.

When I heard the entire time
You lied to me
I wouldn't speak for a few days.

But I have a new boyfriend now
And I guess I'm over you
And the whole you lied to me about being a virgin thing.
Funny the things we'll believe when we're 14
And the things we don't find out until we're seventeen
And how it manifests it's way into what we write when we're twenty.

But I don't have to have sex with you
Anymore
So it's all okay.

PAST

what crowds my heart with lonely souls....
i find nothing.
but a deep shell of lost eyes that has never been tamed to
its original self.
who am i?? might you ask...???
i am someone from your darkest past...
like a melody that flows the brain
creating a sound..a feel...
you thought wasnt real...
some who believing i have meet you at the
cherry blossom tree...
who am i you ask...??
i must be from your darkest past.
but life has forgotten who i am,
i have been abandon for i am left alone.
standing...waiting...
so i soon uncover the truth
that has never been told before.
i say...forgive me.
who am i ???you ask.
i must be from your darkest past

-Kumiko Yamamoto

How could you say that


Bout seven months in
I thought we got through
Everything that happened

We were to spread our wings
and go on together
But it appeared that a while after
You thought about it just being you

Afraid of something
I know not what

Something inconceivable
Something I just didnt
And STILL dont get

You said when I pushed
Because you see
That I knew

That you were thinking
Quite hard about me
And about you

"I think I could support you more
Just as a friend"
But what you didnt get
Until the very end

Of this conversation
That we had started
In your back yard
Where I had been carted

I rarely show my feelings
And I was filled with dismay
That you didnt really understand
Quite until that heart-wrenching day

How I sobbed and I broke
How my heart hit the cage
I could go on and on
Page after page

The minute your father walked out on the porch
I stifled my cries and wiped away tears
That I wouldnt allow myself
To think of those fears

When anyone but you
Were out there that day
I sat and pretended
That all was ok

Once they were gone
In seconds flat
You saw me change back

I broke over again
Cause I wasnt NEAR done
When they came in the sun

I might have been in the sun that day
But I was no-where near those sun's shiny warm rays
I couldnt feel after a while
I started to go numb

But we worked it out
Eventually we saw
That we would try harder
And not get torn by sadness' claw

An amount of work that started with one
The same as the space between your index and your thumb
That small portion
Set us off to fight

Fight for what we wanted
What we needed
For what felt right

"Goodbye"

I wish you were real
I tried to believe
My heart is no game
Stop hiding from me
Do I still care?
Does fire burn bright?
But still I can't trust you
You've changed overnight

Can't say I didn't care
Can't say I didn't fight
You should've been honest and treated me right
I thrive on commitment and love without limits
I don't want to worry
I don't need suspicion

You've given me time to make a decision
I don't think I'm wrong
Embrace this division
I'm told I was angry
Resentful at heart
But you were unfaithful
That pushed me too far

Hey, you, I miss you

I cry,
I scream,
I can still beg,
You still leave me broken hearted.
You did say you loved me,
Did you not?
You said you didn't ever want to leave.

I trusted you with my entire being.
So why did you rip it away from me?
You left without an explanation.
We were so happy.
I dont understand.

I'll fall down here,
Don't come back,
Let me die here.
I had enough of you,
I refuse to believe your pittyful lies.
'It was all my fault'
I don't buy it.

I only want to die.
My wrists are accidentaly cut,
A rusty red dripps down,
Splashing onto my jeans,
Refusing to soak in.

Oh look its collecting now,
How unique ,
It loos like a broken heart.

One more letter,
I force myself to write,
One more letter for you.

Signed with my broken heart of rusty red.
Let me rest etrenaly for now.
Its all i want to do.
Just let me go.
You droped my hand once.
You can do it now.

Good-bye all of my friends,
If your still with me.
Good-bye
Come visit me in my dark new home,
I'm sure the grass i provide will be comfortable,

Oh,
Thank you
You've brought my favorite.



A letter,
White rhododendrons,
Tears in the shape of a heart.
I've brought these for you, my love.
I'm sorry,
I miss you,
I'll come visit your dark home,
Every year,
I'll leave white rhododendrons
Your favorite.

You Lost

My dear ex, you think you’ve won, but really you just lost  
You didn’t realize all the consequences of this, all the cost.  
I tried to change your mind, but in the end you didn’t listen to me  
Now because of your foolish choices, alone is all you’ll ever be.  
At first you made me cut, starve, burn, and want to die  
But you can’t hurt me anymore, and it’s time to say a final goodbye.  
We had so many dreams to fulfull, you and me  
But now all you’re going to be is a sad memory.  
I’m sad, broken, and torn, but it’s even worse for you  
Because without me in your life you don’t know what to do.  
You put on a smile and act happy to cover up your pain  
When inside your mistake is making you go insane.  
You’re starting to realize how alone you feel without me by your side  
You’re starting to feel the emptiness, like part of you has died.  
It’s been a month now, and still you haven’t said a word  
But I don’t know if you realized something, if you heard.  
That it’s too late to try again now  
The curtain has closed, I’ve taken my final bow.  
I no longer want to listen to anything you have to say  
Maybe if you hadn’t made me wait a month and a day.  
For while I still love you, I can’t let you do this to me anymore  
I have to shut you out of my life and close that door.  
Because of you I cannot love the same  
I keep reliving the pain, wondering if i ever won't be a pawn in this sick game.  
You’ll never know how bad you hurt me, how I wanted to just die  
And I’ll never know what caused you to do this to me, and why.  
We could’ve had something special, we could’ve made it last  
But now I guess you’re just another thing in the past.  
I hope one day you see what you did to me, every tear, every scar  
I hope you feel regret every time you look up and see our special star.  
One thing I know for sure is that you are blind, and can’t see the cost  
And that when it comes down to it, in the end, I won...and you lost.

Drowning in Death

Here we are sitting in the quiet night
I look at you under the soft moonlight.
Teardrops slowly fall from your beautiful eyes
And the sight of them makes me wanna die.
I know there were things that got in our way
There were times we hurt each other with what we had to say.
But I’m here now to say that everything will be okay
All our pain will someday go away.
We hug in a tight loving embrace
But then I see the look on your angelic face.
And realize that through your hope and love the pain is still there
So I wrap my arms tighter around you to show I still truly care.
I kiss your tears away and hold you close for a while
When I look at you again your frown turns into a smile.
As I pull you in for a loving kiss
Your face turns red, something I’ve come to miss.
Suddenly I’m alone, and when I look around you’re gone
I sit up in bed, heart racing and eyes blurry, it’s almost dawn.
From my eyes flows a new steady stream
As I realize that once again, it was only a sad dream.
Sobs rack my broken body, for you’re still not with me
I question your motives, is this really how it had to be?
Were you really that unhappy, was it really that bad
Couldn’t you instead focus on the special love that we had?
You’ll never know how bad you hurt me, you changed my very life
You can’t see what I’m trying to tell you, that I can’t put up with this strife.
You might as well be squeezing the trigger, or pulling the blade
Just accept it now, this is the decision that I have made.
I told you what would happen if I ever lost you, but you didn’t believe me
So now because of you there’s a dead body floating out at sea.
You didn’t wanna talk or listen to me, and now your old lover is dead
I hope you never forget what you did and the guilt never leaves your head.
When you start getting sad again, there’s something I want you to know
YOU did this and caused this shit, YOU’RE the one who let ME go.
And if you decide to visit my gravesite, remember this hun
I still won’t forgive you for all the shit you’ve done.
Because even in death I remember the hurt and the stabbing pain
I remember the feeling of being rejected and left alone in the freezing rain.
So go ahead and try to get rid of the guilt, the regret, the sorrow
But it's still going to be there when you wake up tomorrow.
You should’ve been honest, but instead you lied
And now you’re the reason that I committed suicide.
Go now with this knowledge, and live your sad life day by day
I’ve shared my heart, there’s nothing left for me to say.
I finally understand that the pain and hurt will never cease
And now because of you i lay under a stone that says “Rest In Peace”.

What Hurts


Waiting....
And waiting...
I always seem to be waiting
And you never show
I sit and watch my phone
Eyeing my computer
Jumping up every time someone walks through the door
But that's not the sad part
what makes me
stupid, pathetic, crazy
Is that i don't see it coming
That you won't show
That i can't count on you
That i expect you to call
And be there
But i see it now
You've wasted my time
Because i was focused oh you
And i missed out on my true love
And thats what hurts the most

Learn to live half alive

Every time someone you trusted
Leaves you
They chip away a part of your heart
It's painful but you try and forget
And learn from your mistakes
And when someone that you loved
And thought you would spend the rest of your life with,
Rips your heart apart
Shedding it to pieces
You have to learn to live half alive,
Some how pick up the pieces
Hopefully one day mend it back together
And maybe learn to love again

Yvette's Lover in the Afternoon

It began like a classic romance and became a heartbreak I still feel
A young officer falling desperately in love with an older woman

We first met when I came in your antique store in Saarbrücken that rainy autumn afternoon
Hoping to brush up on some French, not to fall in love

You were simply a ginger headed vision, drinking un cafe après midi
When your pouting lips first kissed Bonjour to me

Tall, tan and elegant you were quintessential French
That teetering of aloofness and friskiness that held me captivated in the lock of your blue eyes

After many, many visits we became friends
Then one afternoon, it progressed to lovers with soft kisses and tickling moist whispers

In a way, it was my own Summer of Forty-two
Just seductively French with lots of tricks, ligature and toys

Though I was not a boy, I was still so quite naive
As it were to turn out about a great many things

Still the romance was intoxicating, the sex pure exhilaration
I came to feel love like I had never felt before and, sadly, never since

Then came the night that I wish I could forget
After dinner for two and passionate lovemaking in the shower

Hearing the door open and alarming words of a Frenchman returning home to his wife
Paralyzed in the bathroom drying off with a towel as you left unashamed to greet him

Then, after awkward introductions relegated to the guest room
Lying awake staring at the ceiling as the tears flowed

Finally getting up in the middle of night and sneaking out silently
Driving home, crushed and embarassed, realizing I had only been Yvette's lover in the afternoon