FRIENDSHIP

I still remember when it actually clicked
It happened one morning
I saw her walk into school
And like a scene from a corny movie
It's like she was walking in slow motion
 
'Damn' - I thought to myself
 
I'd known her for about 2 years at that point  
But on that day, something about her seemed different to me
There was something about her
That just made me want her
 
Well I did chicken out of ever telling her though
 
Fast forward we didn't keep in touch
We both lived in different cities
Life happened  
 
Until one day I ran into her
My stomach sank
Out of all the people in the world
I had to run into her
I was shocked yet happy  
 
'I've missed you, you know'
 
Surprised by her statement  
I gave some generic response
Which low key moved the conversations forward  
I've always been weird with such phrases
 
Over the next few weeks we reconnected  
I've always felt at ease around her
I knew that if there's ever the right time  
It is definitely this period in our lives
 
The thing is though
That's when she became distant  
Normally when things start to fizzle
I just let go completely  
but with her I held on
I called her out on suddenly going cold
Which lead to one deep conversation  
 
A week or two later
She told the world that she's asexual
And that she's aromantic
I had to google the latter
 
I then realized that when  
she noticed my interest in her
She then tried to push me away
It seemed like the simpler choice
 
At first I felt down
It really came from a selfish place
She's one of the people  
Who I get along with and it feels effortless  
She's has all the qualities of someone  
I would really love to be with
 
Yet I also had to learn
That she doesn't belong to me
In each situation I only thought about myself
 
What I learned from this
Is that love doesn't mean possession
Though I can never be with her
I do enjoy what we have
 
I do feel though that  
there's some irony  
to this situation that  
I'm not catching
 
but hey here we are today

 
Sometimes we pick up right where we left off
Catching up over drinks and smiles
Oh the memories we shared will last forever
Sitting there, remembering the times
 
Each and every one of them have a special place
Friends are like pieces of my heart
I will cry with them, I still laugh with them
No matter the distance or how far apart
 
We may not be there like we thought we’d be
Life just took us down different ways
But it’s the manner in which our souls connect
Cherishing and treasuring old glory days
 
Life has taught me a lesson, over and over again
We build up walls and let some in
It’s those who help open doors and windows
To let in the light like purveyors of Zen