LOVENESS

 



here, hear now pretty pettisome self:
enough is enough is enough is enough..

shall you cobble & cement up your
weighing down sagginess flesh folds
in fattening lumpiness-  the emotionless
 infestation of the serial~ killer slaughter
machinist,  your wolverine brainy greys

unto the ever~ expansible core- yes this
your very own core of  -a splendid infinity, this
nothingness


& wait,  
what nerdy netting in treacherous ‘-ness’
did you mean in your daily sermoning monotony
of opportunistic optionals of the floored multiple
entendre, that’s really a self~destructional
sabotage... in materialistic~ meaningless
actualities, to say so

of your pathetic fate
& state of dooming affairs with your wheeling
in senseless stern face off juggernaut of fascistic
holocaust rollouts of your own
delicate organic cellular?


it’s a
degree’less’    ‘-less'~ness
that's a revolutionary irony-  not in itself
-but in the interactional bonds.. towards
an integral bonding.. of its cosmic conceptional
seed absolute enwrapped in a writhing wraith
sheath of differentially hueing skindepths
you diffract the partitioning colours of
a cheaply ”divide & rule” policy
in your eccentric body
carriage – that still


holds in stillness this egoless essence
refined unto each atomic~ hiving combs


shall this
heavy crowned hypocrite~ pothead existence
of this so~ fittest survival, a savage hunting game
of the sapiens

still be devoid
of the dramatic polity as blood~ sucking satirical
leeches laughing inner with wagging taily smiley
dispositions that broods & hungers for a brutally
unimaginable backstabbing vendetta... with bitter~
bubbling green vengeance


..in the expression of the Core divine..
‘fallen' in Love – the heavenly palanquin
afloat yet fallen in Love- that’s in the sacred
messengers' elevational upliftment- of  
resurrectional rebirths each now

burn burn burn now… the
selfless~ s(t)unning burns to
feathery~ swimming stardust-

an undeconstrucionable
dimensionless dimension beyond the
known~ unknown limitless
limits

of your narrowly comprehensions & fraudulent
corporatisms.. of your stinking whirpool of garbage
existentialism sewage you stir in shamelessly in a
dangerous showcase of this ongoing webgame, this
apocalypse


that you will
forever never ever know?!..  at least feel
its holistic holiness,  LOVE...  even

if this quintessential need
is in unnatural suppression by your ticking suicidal
bombs in the self~ glorifyingly set monstrous curriencies
of your synthetic~ sensex day  running all over your
hermetic obsidian of a hedonistic terroristic
egoistic (be)head


shall this raging expression
be the averting write~ right of no more amoebic impressioning
anonymities in the name of poetry...  cos  mere scribbled pages
arent poetry ..but the living in each breath is itself
an embodiment

of Poetry.  even its silences...

shall never love anymore..
cos this self is the LOVE:  from the warring in inner conflicts,
is the self~ harmonious rise as one ~heartmindbodysoul entity
defeating the each caging in cunning   "i" s, a bird emerges now
in core~ dedications...  & sacrificing the previous~ self under
finicky fanaticisms
 


arise~ awake ~ stop not
until unto LOVE ETERNAL

A violet taper molten pooled
the long soft sigh of autumn wind
sweet wild berries staining my tongue
an infinity between drops from the sky
smelling your earthy brown alpaca sweater
 
rolling and reveling
in a collage of you

In another world I would be lost without
His voice and touch, but in the big world  
I am perfectly happy as I wipe away my
Own tears. There would be no doubts
As I look at his smile. I feel his body curled  
Next to me, but did he see the tears I cry?
 
So quiet that he does not hear one drop.
There are parts of me he still did not quite
Understand. He got the happy parts of
Me, but did not get the sadness or stop
To understand what is gone too. The fight
I used to have is no longer there. The love
 
I felt with my entire soul has disappeared.
Does he still love me or all the fragments  
Of who I used to be? Love would make me
Cautious and guarded, but I reappeared
From the darkness, ready for segments
To become linear and whole. Did he see
 
Me for who I really am? A girl and woman
Right on the edge, but trusting the fall to
The bottom. Someone who is willing and
Ready to trust love. He would take a bullet
For me and he would paint the sky blue
To see me happy, but to truly understand
 
Or know me, he has to get more than skin
Deep. He has to travel to my heart in order
To get why I am so afraid. He realizes I am
Not any girl, but someone who gets lost in
My head and I am willing to cross border
Lines for love. My heart gets in a big jam
 
And in a tanged web when it comes down
To loving someone else, but for him I was
Inclined to try. He knows there are days
In which I did not want to wear my crown
Made of jewels and gold. It is love as cars
Break down and he is willing to see a way
 
To walk through the clouds and stormy
Skies. This love is far from being thorny.

Those nights I'll always remember  
We confused the lights in the city  
for angels after midnight  
Radio waves crashing into you and me
That’s when I knew right there and then  
I wanted to kiss you  
The days they're stuck in my head
Now Stations only play dead air  
ID try to recreate them memories
With someone new But  
why try when I only want you  
 
Your a dream
that’s where you stay
after I left you at your front door  
Without a kiss  
Couldn’t breathe Nervous atmosphere  
you came back in my dreams  
If I ever see you again
First thing I’m going to do  
Is kiss you

May i  
Touch you
To know  
You are real
 
Feel your
Ever racing pulse
feel the thunder
Of your heart
 
Cover you
With my skin
As goosebumps
Tingles spread
 
Holding you
As if a delicate rose
Awakening
In the morning dew
 
Kiss your soul
As lips impart
Their soft  
Palpable connection
 
May i be lover
In the physical sense
For spiritual
Is not enough
 
The flame  
Burning ache
Raging  
Inside of me
 
Wants more
Than a thought
Needs more  
Than a dream
 
Your flawed beauty
Is like a breath
I require
To exist
 
If i were
To die
Without regret
Hold me
 
Love me  
One time
Like i was the light
That filled your darkness