A Light bulb moment

The Truth… The Light
Written by Elle McLin

It wasn’t the shade that made me cold
In fact, it was the light
The accurate details quite disturbing
The things I heard that night

My screams pierced souls
Disturbed minds
Stilled thoughts
And compassion became insulted

How could one feel for me?
When I am not feeling for myself
I can’t feel,
Harsh reality became a numbing agent

Still, I couldn’t believe
What was said was some nightmare tale
I wanted to hide beneath the table
And never come from under…

Under the trend of disappointment
They say that misery loves company
Others that had suppressed their personal pain
Begin to descript their details

Hush your foolish mouth
I don’t want to hear about your troubles
I don’t wish to share my own
Leave me alone, leave me alone!

It wasn’t the shade that made me cold
In fact, it was the light
The accurate details quite disturbing
The things I heard that night

© January 3, 2013   Elle McLin    (Breathe Again)

seekingkate and ElleBoogi thank you for your respective entry.

you are quite welcome, it was a pleasure

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EdibleWords and runaway-mindtrain, thank you for your respective entry.

You Taste Like Home

You taste like home
With a touch of sadness
Brutal honesty and acceptance
Because everything is not always
Brilliant and kind
Your arms are my sanctuary
Where I lay my weary heart
When I can no longer breathe
You kiss life back into my lungs
I have brought you all of my burdens
And you wear them like a scarf
A miraculous display
Of how you take the pain away
And make it all your own
I sometimes forget
You carry your own sorrows
Ones that make mine glitter and gold
I wish I could dance in your darkness
Brighten up the hard parts of your soul
I want to see the world
Through your beautiful eyes
And understand how time has changed you
I want to make love
To even your ugliest side
And bring peace to your mind
I hope when you taste my lips
They taste like home
With a touch of sadness

Bayliemarie, thank you for participating.

This is great. It really evoked a response in me.

Almost....


I almost died...
Okay, well that sounds a bit dramatic.
But I felt as if I were going to die.

It was honestly an accident.
I was drunk.
I wasn't thinking.
I had a really bad headache.
The pills were prescription strength,
But they were just tylenol.
How bad could they be?

I wake up in a few hours,
Sicker than I have ever been before.
I can tell something is seriously wrong...
But I can't say anything,
I can barely stay awake long enough to puke,
Then I am back down again.

The next night they realize I am really sick,
Not just a nasty hangover.
I am dragged to the hospital.
I am confused,
I am sick,
I just want to sleep.
I just want it to stop.

I'm in my early twenties...
I shouldn't have to go through this,
I shouldn't have to hear those words...

My liver is failing.
AST levels are 60 times higher than normal,
I may need a transplant...

Hospitals...
First the ER,
Then a transfer to the ICU,
A bigger place two towns over.
IVs and machines run to my arms,
I am basically attached to my bed.

They send me to another hospital,
One where they can do transplants if need be.
I don't get to eat,
I can't even have water,
Just bag after bag attached to the IVs,
Pushing life back into me.

N-acetylcysteine
That's what saved me.
After five days confined to my bed,
And NAC flowing constantly,
My liver is healing.
No transplant needed.

I thought I was going to die,
Then I thought I was going to be sick for a long, long time.
And now they're telling me that I might be alright?
That I could completely heal,
And everything might be fine?

It's been an emotional roller coaster,
And now that I am home,
I have to readjust to normal life.
But I have had some time,
To reevaluate what I want to do,
And who I want to spend forever with.
I know for sure,
I want to keep going,
To keep living my life,
To keep loving Brandon,
To keep working towards getting my education,
To keep moving on with reality...

And I got to learn all of this,
Because I almost died...

sweetdevil, thank you for your participation.

Congrats to October and Taryn. Thank you to our host Grace, my sincere gratitude for the honor.