I Blame The Mother

Do I dare try and comprehend,
The way my world is so upside down?
Any potential,
Crush by your unforgiving hand.

I might not have to try,
Things never change for me,
I'm stuck in the same place,
In a circle no one can see.

I'm just like a mime,
Trapped in an invisible box,
Only I'll never get out,
I have no keys for these locks.

Nowhere to turn,
Nobody I can trust,
Too many problems manifest here,
Call out and I'm shushed.

The one who was like a sister,
Betrays me like an enemy.
The one who I'd die for,
Is killing me slowly.

I'll just smoke myself happy,
Until the day I die,
A subtle suicide,
For help I do not cry.