Life: Friend or Foe

I thought by this time last year
that I would be smiling ear to ear
but I feel worse than I did back then
I wish I could go backwards and begin, again

But life doesn't work that way
It doesn't care, but always has something to say
So why do I feel like life use to be my friend
but now it's more like an enemy, pushing me to my end

They say life is what you make it
and I agree, to a degree
Sometimes it fools you and fucks you
And you beg to be free
Of the pain, the memories
that it carves in your body
like a tombstone would read

I'm here for the fucking
and if that is all that your wanting
then please be quick
so I can find another dick
that might stay for more
and not leave me feeling like a whore
So I can find the right one
who can make my heart soar
higher than life
make me his wife
Show me honor and beauty
not agony and strife.