Tears of Joy or Saddness

These tears.
Are they joy
I feel
Or the saddness
I feel.

Joy.
I guess I could only hope.

Saddness.
Thats probably it.

I am happy for him,
But I am sad,
'Cos I may not get the chance
That I am longing for.

I like him a lot.
Wait forget that.
I love him a lot.

But he loves another girl.
Not me.
That would be my life.

Are these
Tears of joy
Or saddness.
I wish I knew.