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Dear God
Dear god
can you hear my god
I pray to you daily
and I see what you have given me
I am truly blessed
and I thank you
but why did I need to fight my entire life
just to be seen as worthy
why can't I ask you why
I need answers
it's a simple question
why can't my mother be like me
It's worth more to me then any dollar
I would give it all back
just to have her sane
to take her fears away
God can you let her live
she did nothing to deserve her fate
but yet she accepts it
I just can't help but think
she does it for me
and I want her to give up on the fight
let it go
then maybe she will be okay
if not I need answers
so I can fix her
I need to fix her
I can't see her like this anymore
It's killing me
Dear God
please hear me
can you hear my god
I pray to you daily
and I see what you have given me
I am truly blessed
and I thank you
but why did I need to fight my entire life
just to be seen as worthy
why can't I ask you why
I need answers
it's a simple question
why can't my mother be like me
It's worth more to me then any dollar
I would give it all back
just to have her sane
to take her fears away
God can you let her live
she did nothing to deserve her fate
but yet she accepts it
I just can't help but think
she does it for me
and I want her to give up on the fight
let it go
then maybe she will be okay
if not I need answers
so I can fix her
I need to fix her
I can't see her like this anymore
It's killing me
Dear God
please hear me
Published 5th Feb 2013
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5th Feb 2013 3:23pm
"so I can fix her
I need to fix her"
I am a "Fixer"
to the good, and bad of it. It is a hard row to hoe ain't it Doll ?
Felt this :)
I need to fix her"
I am a "Fixer"
to the good, and bad of it. It is a hard row to hoe ain't it Doll ?
Felt this :)
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5th Feb 2013 3:36pm
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5th Feb 2013 4:07pm
Gigi, this could have easily been my prayer. I wish my mother was better too. :(
hugs x
hugs x
5th Feb 2013 5:37pm
Very deep and personal. I understand this completely. going through this with my mother now. She has pulminary fibrosis and can hardly breathe. It's only a matter of time. She can barely walk from her bed to the bathroom and her overall health has been declining day by day for the past 8 months. I am always questioning God and never even getting a hint that there is anyone there to hear me. I feel you in this poem!
JJ
JJ
5th Feb 2013 6:23pm
5th Feb 2013 7:17pm
Very personal and emotional Gigi. Stay strong, and I wish the best for you and your mother, yo will both be in my thoughts.
5th Feb 2013 7:33pm
A cry out to God, Def feel your pain, A true heart felt prayer that will be answered... " No weapon formed against us shall prosper" I will be praying for you..
5th Feb 2013 8:29pm
I'm far from religious, but with your poetry, the longing and desire that you've poured from your heart into this piece makes it a truly beautiful write. Well done Gigi, I do hope you find what you are looking for.
5th Feb 2013 11:05pm
5th Feb 2013 10:28pm
Bargaining with God ... a raw subject, one that's close to my heart. Can feel the desperation, confusion and love behind this piece. You've taken a risk in sharing this, so thank you.
(Quick edit would be from "but yet she excepts it" to "but yet she accepts it")
(Quick edit would be from "but yet she excepts it" to "but yet she accepts it")
5th Feb 2013 11:06pm
6th Feb 2013 7:19am
I used to pray something similar. Then I realized, it wasn't my job to fix my mom, it was just my responsibility to not become her. But, that was just my situation.
Anyway, it touched me.
xoxo
Anyway, it touched me.
xoxo
6th Feb 2013 1:22pm
Yeah that's what I've strived for forever. Not to be a product of either of them. But I know I will never be. If I could fix her I'd be complete.. But it's a long shot Ty xoxox
