Too Many Feelings (Explosion)

  
  This shit inside of me is turning back to rage, back to hate.
As I stand in front of the bathroom mirror every cell in my body is itching to put my fist thru it in some post adolescent fit.
I restrain myself but I know if I dont do something its gonna happen if not to the bathroom mirror than whatever is handy.    
  Sitting here listening to Bad Religion "past is dead" I think about how fucking awesome it would be to hit a punk show right now all angsty and self destructive. Hell yea a fucking pit would be the shit, go in and slam around until im a mess of sweat, blood, and spilled beer.
  I aint been drunk in months, not since June. Im a fucking nut job drunk, I can snap quick after just enough whisky. Ever have one of those moments when a really BAD idea seems like a really GOOD idea? Yea thats how I'm feelin right now.
  I cant though, no money and the only punk venue here I know of is way the hell down Colfax by Gaylord and I doubt theres a show tonight anyway. Bad Ideas can be Good Ideas Some other night i guess