hurt, pain, and anger

I remember each second of that night
each time I try to forget the pain and memory of that time it is still there
I remember when you got on top of me and held me down and even though I screamed for help nobody came
now I live with it each day of my life
I try to remember it was not my fault but still deep inside I think it was
How could you take something from me that was not yours to take
How could you sleep at night knowing that I can't
How could you of raped me and pretend you never did
How can I cope with it when I know I can't