Inside A Cold Embrace

It's like everyday I wake up in this place,

Nothing all around me but a cold embrace.

I try to shake it off but I cant lose that chill,

There's nothing left here anymore to make anything real.

I put a bottle to my head and kill myself sometimes,

Ever running from these things I long to leave behind.

But bottles only help evade, they dont ever erase,

And in the morning, once again, I feel that cold embrace.

It's like a thousand days go by and all are just the same,

Meaningless and full of naught but time that's spent in vain.

I thought a steady job and money comin in,

Would save me from myself and this war I just cant win.

But after all I'm still alone as time just seems to fly,

And not one smile filled with love can all my money buy.

Is anybody out there to shine upon me light,

To show me that in darkness everything is still alright.

It's like I'm falling from my haven back unto the ground,

Where time has made an ocean in which I'm meant to drown.

I wish someone would lie to me and say they Love me so,

I wish someone would say something so I dont just let go.

I just want to be wanted by somebody that cares,

But everyone I turn to is never really there.

So here, alone, I sit inside this cold embrace,

Wishing someone or something would take me from this place.

Cause it's like no matter what I do I'm meant to be this way,

Ever searching for something to clear the disarray.

And though I try I find that I'm just never good enough,

Nothing that I do or say is worth a moments Love.

These people, they just come and go, never are they real,

All hide 'neath a painted mask, their ugliness concealed.

It's like no one cares anymore, it's all just to save face,

The world is falling ever faster from the hands of grace.

So here I'll lay forevermore, dreaming of a place,

Where I'll no longer wake up lost inside that cold embrace