Confession

Lately my world’s spinning out of control
Something is missing deep in my soul
The peace I once had is drifting away
I ditch my pain through my sexual play

Plenty of women I have on my list
Some that I’ve slept with and some I’ve just kissed
Some that are married and some that are not
Some that are sexy and some are just hot

In all of them there is one thing the same
They are unwilling pawns caught in my game
One that is played in the back of my mind
Searching for something that I will not find

They are a distraction from what is real
From all the emotions I don’t want to feel
I rotate them in so they don’t get stale
Afraid to keep on but too scared to bail.