Hopelessness

Compromising all that I am,that I bestowed on you,
demolishing my concentration, and these dreadful feelings that tear my soul,
I could never dishearten you, I kept your heart in mine.

you fulfilled this emptiness, with warmth and exploding happiness.

this deprivation,
this numbness of concentration,

I cant live with myself without you,
but I'm dying being with you.
and maybe I am selfish for these thoughts and feelings that come to me,

you played with my strings that held my heart together.
I loved you,
no I love you and I know I do,
this is something that I want to control
but is impossibly hopeless.

That I can not look at you in any other way.
these eyes that see you for all that you are.

and this force that I cannot cut loose,

your amazing,
I am not one that says these magical
but fearful words,
and not meaning every word that I said to you,
that I thought of very carefully and repeated constantly..

and you lied, and it tore every part of me.

sitting in this room and all I can think of is you, even with the words that have being said,
I could never put forth the denial of my Absolute True and deep Love for you..
But to be Strong with the words that have said and put forth my acceptance.