Slipknot or Noose?

I sit here hoping you love me
Is it true or is it another lie
I keep seeing people tortured and killed
Right in front of me
I see darkness and blood
I'd like to die
Let's tie a slipknot see if I can
Tie it around my neck
And I can just pull on one end
And then I will be free
Free from everyone and everything
I feel pain but I also feel love inside of pain
Or maybe I can try a noose
Just tie it up around my neck and tie it
Around the tree that reminds me of
Everything I adore
I just jump off the branch
Hoping it doesn't break my neck
So that I can hang there choking
So that I suffer for everything
I have done through my past
So the question still stands
Slipknot or Noose?