My apology letter to you

Im sorry
I wanted to be cool and fit in
but now I realize how wrong I was
now that its to late
so at a quarter after eight
im opting out

I thought by teasing you
and hurting you
that it would make me more cool
everyone laughed when I taunted you
it felt good when I kicked you
and that feeling of power that over came me
as you fell to the ground
it was like you became my bitch
and I dominated you

In time the wounds might heal
but the scars would only fade
I cant live with the guilt anymore
of what I did to you
the hate that I inspired
how could I be so cruel

Is this some kind of karmaric retribution
or human evolotion
that I feel so sick inside
no probably not
was it the look in your eyes as I nicknamed you chuckie cheese
the little twinkle of a tear drop that ran down your chubby cheeks
maybe
or maybe it was the girl
the girl who I have taunted since elemetry
who today was so nice to me
so forgiving
even after every thing that I did to her
she would still be my friend now that I have no one
I lost everything
yet there she stood eager to help me
on that first day of highschool when I didnt know anything


I hope that you believe me
this is a true story
I really have changed


I know I always called you a cowerd
and made fun of you
but maybe it should of been the other way around
you were the strong one to survive everything I threw at you
even though I made you cry
you never gave up
like im about to

You probably want to know why
why I made fun of you all these years
why I made your life a living hell
even after I had lots of friends
I didnt need to be a dickweed to you anymore
but I chose to
the truth is I didnt do it to fit in
or because my family is fucked
I tortured you because I enjoyed it
I am one twisted litle fuck
and thats why I think the world is beter without me

Im not asking for forgivnes
I dont need you pitty
and I dont want to be friends
I just want to set things right
before I die

You are a fat ass
and I dont like you
it was wrong of me to point it out
and it was wrong of me to torment you
if I could go back in time
I would take it all back
I realize now that the type of friends I had
were not good friends
actually they fucking sucked hard hairy dick
ok so I wanted beter friends
friends I could rely on
friends who I could trust to always have my back
but what I got when I tried to be nice was no friends
funny how that works
when im an asshole
people like me
when im nice
people are assholes to me

My advice to you
is to keep being you
the fact that you have survived this far into your life with nothing
makes you a stronger person then I ever was
I hope  that you dont turn into a dick like I was
this world needs more honest and caring people
people like you

I know this sounds gay
so you beter fucking savor this
cause its the last thing im going to say
IM SORRY

Goodbye
you wont have to worry about me anymore

Sincerly
Aaiden