LOVED by my own SORROW

The time you left me was the most absurd of all,

grossest of all vexation,

a fearful coarseness was breaking my soul and diminishes my hopes..

I was in a PRISON OF VAIN and I hear voices...



Is it you? No, it can't be you.



You, who bring me this hell and shattered my heart into pieces.

You, who left me half alive in my filthy life...

And the pictures of our memories still lives in my mind, it is still here..



But pardon me, cara mia, for the vehements of pain still angers me,

your presence is just a grievous imagination.

I have gripped the darkness and let you be disdained,

you are now a dispise in my eyes,

your pain will be a pleasure to me,

and you joy will be the most insulting...





Oh LOVE! You lustful thing!

You drown me in temptation but left me wet in my own bloods of wrath.

I swim with your attracting waves but you cast me off from my beloved.

And now, now that you abandoned me,

I have determined to play with the fire of my shadows,

to embrace the misery you've brought

and REJOICE IN DESPAIR with my desolated cage of guilt...





Hail SORROW! Come and join me in this delightful remourse!

Hear the quiet screams of my cold heart!

Honor my urge to revenge and REGRET my passion for love!!!



Dear Sorrow! Your beautiful moans of grief are my favorite musics,

your tears of lonely pains is my water of life,

the suicide intention is your beautiful gifts...



The strands of your hair are the ropes of ligature and barbed wires.

Your blood are the poisonous liquids,

And your breath are the smoke from forest fires..



Oh Sorrow! Hug me with you arms of thorn...

Kiss me with you bitter lips of death...

Pour me your rain of arrows...

And gaze to me by your eyes of sharp and deadly sight!



So that, for the LAST time of my life,I felt to be loved...



LOVED by my own SORROWS...