YOUR VOICE

Your voice is in my head
it follows me every where I go
I wish I didnt care
then I wouldnt have to listen

You told me to stay in school
dont do drugs and eat my vegetables
that if I just stayed true to me
that I would be cool

I guess some things just dont happen
the way you thought they would
I tried to look up to you
and follow your example
but everyone I looked up to
turned out to be just as fucked up as me

I know we havnt talked in years
not since the pigs took you away
but I still remember the words you said to me
all the times when I ate supper and you didnt
I was just a little kid then
to young to understand
why you cried yourself to sleep
where was dad?

I saw all the other kids with their loving families
where was our family
where was my father?

I remember the nights when I woke up
because I had a bad dream
I would run and hid in your bed
I would cling to your pillow
cause I thought it would protect me
from the evil monsters
that made you leave me every night

If you were still here
I would take care of you
I would make sure you never had to go to work again
or wash another dish

If you saw me now
would you be proud?
proud to know that I was kicked out of school
and my only friends
are in my head?

I guess what im trying to say is
I miss you mom

Sincerely,
your loving son