Fuck it, this is it

Fuck it, this is it just plain and clear
I loved you i did, i love you i do
But fear comes in more ways than one
Mine just happens to be worse than others
Fuck it, this is it just out there in the world
I loved him first, but he wasnt real then i saw
Him at an amusement park, way out of the way
But that was years ago, and my dreams about him faded
Then i fell in love, and that was the trigger
He came back like lightning, filling my infinently brighter sky
His black hair put me under, and electric green eyes finished me
Thee was nothing i could say or do to stop it all
Fuck it, this is it
I loved you i did, i loved you i do
But im bound by invisible chains made from his voodoo
I couldnt get out fast enough, so im sorry for that
Itll take a while for him to release me, you could have someone
Else other than me, but thats okay cuz ive already been beaten with misery