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Kasab-ian
I am Kasab
I cried today
I am both human and monster
(also a crocodile)
Born to misery and misfortune
I grew up dreaming nightmares
and doing sundry jobs
for a fistful coins
I don't understand English
(It's a foreign language!)
Look closer into my eyes
you will see a thin film
of flimsy emptiness and calm
post a prolonged storm
(or a sign of an imposing end?)
My days and nights are one
no god gives me courage or hope
Jannat seems so far away
(Probably another world?)
Kalashnikovs were not friendly-
rather rusted and cumbersome
I lied to myself and
learnt a holy book
the wrong, unholy way
manipulating my creed
fueled by chemicals and
sudden, surging greed
Laughing the laugh of death
I sprayed metal
which perforated thru soft flesh,
softer belief
I shook a nation,
a collective mindset
(Party's over!)
The world took notice
I was the goat
Now I am the face
the trump card
I am the pain
I am insomnia
I am the reverberating shrieks,
the dried oceans of crimson blood
I am Kasab and I am young
(Ask the lie detector)
I am terrorized
confused, yes
one of these days
my windpipe would burst
then there will be a lull
may be rejoice,
bestial satisfaction
probably forced smiles
A moral and political victory
A mass hallucination
I am the instrument
I am speechless
I am sleepless
I saw the enlightened man
in black suit the other day
seated on the high pedestal
looking like a sheikh
pronouncing his verdict
which overlapped with my luck
I crossed the ocean
I lied and spoke the truth
I have ailments,
issues and
the hatred of
a landmass of billion people
I waste the tax payer's money
My carcass would hang
for a while,
my life force battling-
my legs shuddering
then humanity will win
and terrorism will lose
(Roll in snare drums.
dramatic laughter)
My lawyers were quite vague
and probably shrewd
My friends and family are dead
I live in fear
ever inside a bunker
(Irony)
I live in public scrutiny
having waged a mutiny
to an end that looks
unfamiliar
It never started or
will never end
I am just a soldier
of misfortune
on my way to the darkness
I am Kasab
I am man and machine, both
I am a goat and a crocodile
I am a forgotten name,
elsewhere
I hear the howling ghosts
I hear rat-tat-tats
I hear the screaming silence
I hear nothing
I am Kasab and I am young
I don't have a bright future
as there won't be none
at the end of the tunnel
I am confused
I am..
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This was a poem I had written in 2009. Accidentally discovered it today while going thru hundreds of small text files. Ajmal Kasab was the only terrorist who was captured alive by the cops post a night of horror in 2008.
He is one year younger than me.
Every year almost two million USDs are spent.
On keepig him alive in a maximum security prison. :)
More can be found about him:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ajmal_Kasab
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