Mistress shadow mother

I've been here for the good the bad, and the need of the place since 2009
new to writing I came into the den, the Mistresses baby
I was always sure she had her eye on me
some days I couldn't come in
I'd scouted around but everyone wanted to censor my anxiety and I was dying from it I started at the bottom and learned a lot
then later my head got big I don't even think I was a writer
but I hurt some folks they hurt me too
some have come and gone but they will always remain with me
socially I'm no good but I'll tell you a secret you are loved underground
shadows of the verse
I'll miss your beautiful faces and hard knocking attitudes