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Random Journal Entry: Mania, Day 34
I feel savage; lonely
in my bubble of mania;
I can’t focus on you,
Or you,
Or me, or them;
I’ll shatter if I do, so it’s
head down, one foot
tripping the other;
yet I manage to land upright
…for now
I’m holding for now
my true self rejoices
at having been set free;
I had no choice
but to take the drugs
that forced her out;
she was ripping my insides
to shreds, crying herself to sleep
in a bed she made;
procrastination is a death dealer;
coming to steal away
whatever you want most,
dropping a coin in your palm
for the thought
that well…didn’t count,
not in the end, anyway
and so I sit here,
high as I’ll allow these days,
thinking and dreaming
and dying,
transforming and flying;
I’m euphoric and jaded,
voracious and glutted;
they say it takes 21 days
to create a habit;
how long to become
yourself, when she’s someone
who doesn’t want to let you in?
Published 2nd Feb 2025
Author's Note
Random shit that fell from my pen while I was away dreaming.
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2nd Feb 2025 7:00am
Dear J,
Raw, brutal and random. Reading this entry it made me think how amazing the mind is. How we string thoughts and feelings together…it may appear to be random shit but it sure does flow amazingly. H🌷
Raw, brutal and random. Reading this entry it made me think how amazing the mind is. How we string thoughts and feelings together…it may appear to be random shit but it sure does flow amazingly. H🌷
2nd Feb 2025 7:10am
We all have wounds, have scars.Some heal, some won't. And sometimes we are our deepest wounds, and how can that be unmade? Wishing love and peace for you 🙏
2nd Feb 2025 11:41am
This in the last stanza!
how long to become
yourself, when she’s someone
who doesn’t want to let you in?
In recovery now and this resonates with me. Trying to find that me...the one I took pleasure in drowning and I wonder if she survived.
I find this raw and revealing write quite brilliant!
Bless,
Mel
how long to become
yourself, when she’s someone
who doesn’t want to let you in?
In recovery now and this resonates with me. Trying to find that me...the one I took pleasure in drowning and I wonder if she survived.
I find this raw and revealing write quite brilliant!
Bless,
Mel
2nd Feb 2025 1:28pm
I can relate with your mania. I like "thinking and dreaming,
and dying, and transforming and flying".
Great piece.
and dying, and transforming and flying".
Great piece.
3rd Feb 2025 00:00am
Become one with the One who loves you unconditionally... the One inside ❤️💕
They have seen it all before, nothing is strange to them. They love you, and they are true.
They have seen it all before, nothing is strange to them. They love you, and they are true.
6th Feb 2025 2:23am
Your random shit isn't random at all. It has a focus to it ya know .
The level of frustration with "situations" is described perfectly. It's a "fed up but can't give up" note to the fates.
Let it out. It's art then.
The level of frustration with "situations" is described perfectly. It's a "fed up but can't give up" note to the fates.
Let it out. It's art then.
7th Feb 2025 6:20pm
This was deep had to read twice and couldn’t find the shallow end of this pool of thought, only the opposite more depth. Wonderful soul sharing scribe.
9th Feb 2025 3:34am
10th Feb 2025 8:43pm
Honest and raw. May wounds heal quicker than they appear. And the light of your smile reflect back to you and lighten your heart, just as it does to us!
