I hope to see you there

Gentle air fills dying lungs    
Under blue skies and bitter chill    
Folk tunes playing through blown out speakers    
Nervousness fills aching bones    
Picking lint off of an expensive sweater without breaking eye contact    
How did I get here?    
Years of dreaming was never enough    
Restlessness and addiction kept me stuck    
Until the final push from the one who promised to never let me fall    
An open door to the visions that have flooded my brain since adolescence    
A bigger view caused for an emotional afternoon  
But who am I to fight a feeling?  
Writing out the final decision with frozen hands  
Decades of indecision have lead me here    
These streets are busy and looking down on me  
Causing tears to fall on forest floors  
That match the lining in your eyes  
Adding pressure to what already felt crushing    
Started spilling my thoughts to keep your attention    
What does this mean?  
Your gaze tells me there’s no such thing as too many drinks  
But never enough time  
Planning a future without any directions  
Just a glimmer of hope    
That a small town won’t be what is written of me  
Maybe the preface to subliminal glances    
Was it the same for you?    
I think you felt it too  
Crawling over me with split lips that cut like glass  
Dripping down on dry skin and into my mouth    
But I never did mind the taste of blood  
A gentle reminder that we are still alive    
Amidst a spinning room and rotating energy  
That’s enough for this time around    
But what happens now?    
Interlocked fingers that tell stories we’ve never read    
Boozy thoughts have always lead me astray    
But I’d never tell you to slow down    
Chasing you feels easier than swimming through the same faces in a bigger place    
As you trace the scars engraved from those you’ll never know    
But I can promise you even the softer notes in my voice are coated with heavier truth    
Just don’t look past me because of another one’s impression    
I guess we should end this here?    
But if I can ask for one thing it’s to I hope to see you there