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Because of you
Was it a coincidence to see you once more?
Now, these emotions that once subsided have found meaning again.
I must take advantage of what can transpire and not succumb to timidity like before.
I cannot lose control. She is wonderful, but my heart is broken.
Some might say that it's okay to pretend, since I'm used to these sorrowful feelings.
My memory hasn't always been the best.
In my defense, I tend to be oblivious.
Were her glances warm, or has time turned them cold?
I must get serious.
Pondering the past will never allow me to grow.
Maybe I was wired differently. I worry and believe too much.
I'm sure it shows.
What exactly am I trying to convey?
Perhaps that I'm smitten once again,
And trapped in an amorous trance
That makes me question: "Who am I without her by my side?"
Now, these emotions that once subsided have found meaning again.
I must take advantage of what can transpire and not succumb to timidity like before.
I cannot lose control. She is wonderful, but my heart is broken.
Some might say that it's okay to pretend, since I'm used to these sorrowful feelings.
My memory hasn't always been the best.
In my defense, I tend to be oblivious.
Were her glances warm, or has time turned them cold?
I must get serious.
Pondering the past will never allow me to grow.
Maybe I was wired differently. I worry and believe too much.
I'm sure it shows.
What exactly am I trying to convey?
Perhaps that I'm smitten once again,
And trapped in an amorous trance
That makes me question: "Who am I without her by my side?"
Published 27th Dec 2024
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1st Jan 2025 5:43am
You can only try. Politely try. I can only deal sometimes by putting on a mask (a different side
of myself). Yes, I have DID. But I'm almost merged.
Some factions of myself get a trigger and come out
as protectors. I have learned a trick of how would Angel handle this? I mentally put on the invisible Angel mask and I handle things her way rather than her coming out and me blacking out. Lost time is a bitch. Just saying - there is part of you that can handle anything. Pull out those traits to be the best you. You will always regret the "what ifs" in life. We
can laugh off rejection. If you are rejected ever, just think...that wasn't the one and move on. Kinda like speed dating. To get overly infatuated hurts deeply.
There are billions of people out there. Sorry to ramble. My birthday week makes me reflect too much. I have made every mistake in my life. But regrets are the worst. Again rambling. It's a poem. A thought. Maybe a past feeling? An idea. I like it. Obviously drunken me remembers similar hesitation.
of myself). Yes, I have DID. But I'm almost merged.
Some factions of myself get a trigger and come out
as protectors. I have learned a trick of how would Angel handle this? I mentally put on the invisible Angel mask and I handle things her way rather than her coming out and me blacking out. Lost time is a bitch. Just saying - there is part of you that can handle anything. Pull out those traits to be the best you. You will always regret the "what ifs" in life. We
can laugh off rejection. If you are rejected ever, just think...that wasn't the one and move on. Kinda like speed dating. To get overly infatuated hurts deeply.
There are billions of people out there. Sorry to ramble. My birthday week makes me reflect too much. I have made every mistake in my life. But regrets are the worst. Again rambling. It's a poem. A thought. Maybe a past feeling? An idea. I like it. Obviously drunken me remembers similar hesitation.
