Eulogy for a Bonsai

I have to come clean as I return to see  
your ashen corpse and dried leaves  
My survival became more important  
than yours, but now I feel badly.
 
Humans choose to love their own selves more  
than anything or anyone they choose to love
Don’t believe what they say in their poems
 
I loved you because you would wink at me
and tempt me to hear the silent moment
I will never forget your beautiful nebari
Funny, I learned that word when I met you
 
I put you under the cruel sun and fed you
It worked as long as we were together
We were both once green and authentic
 
We come from the same mother
I wish she had given you feet and legs  
Then like me, you might still be alive
She put us in a tea cup of naive cruelty
 
Well-meant intentions cannot sustain life.
Maybe my departure made you wish to be dead
I once wished for that too.