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What Lonely, Hopeless Alphas Don't Understand
Imagine this: you're living alone, you begin to think of companionship and simply not being alone. Your goal is to be honest about who you are and to be accepted for the shortcomings you are working towards fixing. So, alone you stay, making a space you can love so you may have one to learn how to love yourself, and you learn. Little by little, you learn how to make yourself feel secure and safe. You do so by being financially responsible enough to live a life that gives you freedom to do what you want. Your bills aren't just manageable, they're almost nonexistent with no credit card balances left every month. You have enough money in the bank to cover the bills for three months if something were to happen to your job. You work three days and take four days off to live. You take care of the family built away from abuse and neglect. You spend time with them, which is all a family ever wants and you have a network of people you take care of because you've been fortunate even through your misfortune. You do so because you've at least always had bread on your table. When you're not tending to your people, you garden and build things on your off days. You spend time with your three loyal dogs who follow you everywhere. The cats you have saved and spayed walk through your house and follow you also. You tend to their waste outside in the lanai. When all the cleaning is done, you sit and enjoy the peace you have created for yourself and enjoy the space you have cultivated with your bare hands. The walls, the ceiling, the floors, all fixed and corrected by you. Your orchids and vining plants surround, each carefully cultivated, each remembering who watered them. The tranquility is perfect.
Now, imagine someone asks to enter your home. Imagine they ask you to stop what you are doing to tend to their needs. By definition, this person believes it is obligatory for you to look after their every neglected need. Imagine this person offers you love with the contingency that you must change your routine to accommodate them so they may live easier. They do not ask for what you would have given freely given the chance to empathize, they demand. Imagine this person stating with resolve that it is your job to uplift them, demanding what you can offer them while they disrupt your home. They demand you spend your time serving them first and your needs and wants second. That includes all you have done to secure your well being. What would you do?
Now, imagine someone asks to enter your home. Imagine they ask you to stop what you are doing to tend to their needs. By definition, this person believes it is obligatory for you to look after their every neglected need. Imagine this person offers you love with the contingency that you must change your routine to accommodate them so they may live easier. They do not ask for what you would have given freely given the chance to empathize, they demand. Imagine this person stating with resolve that it is your job to uplift them, demanding what you can offer them while they disrupt your home. They demand you spend your time serving them first and your needs and wants second. That includes all you have done to secure your well being. What would you do?
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