Officer

 
longings for something I've never had
wielding the power some women have
my youth was sensitive and shy
became a mommy at fifteen
and after that, I had body issues
along the way, I denied the guys that were genuinely nice
hurt feelings would surely come of it

for some reason, I always attracted police officers
by this time I started using drugs, and my parents
had put me out for having a baby so young
and it was the eighties and I was depressed
my apartment was nice and soon I met the neighbors
they introduced me to cocaine

well wow that took care of my depression
later I had a few run-ins with the law
for some reason they always liked me
strange to my mind I would always decline
their phone numbers and date offers

I thought they deserved someone different
not better than me but different
I was a wild child from an early age
and tried to fit well in society and failed

I would have either ruined their life with my morals
or I would have been a house prisoner
and quite frankly judged them for being willing to date me
I felt it was like going to the shelter and picking a feral cat that bites
I was caught so many times they would either confiscate it or tell me to flush it

maybe it was just the era but I have no record
to all you police officers out there
and some of you were really handsome
you have an honorable job
and probably tried to stop some dumb kid from ruining her life
unfortunately, we probably would have locked horns
and I thought you deserved better